imma keep it real with you chief.... yall made me feel like shit. like writing this whol fic was very emotional and draining for me. every happy or sad emotion i wrote, i felt. so when yall were like "i hate this/you" " this wasnt good" and so on, on the original ending i was like woooooow. because as the author of this it felt like because of that ending you all just disregarded my hard work. yall made me feel like shit, i know that was a harsh and unexpected ending. thats what i meant it to be. however what i did not appreciate was getting made to feel like bc of one chapter my fic was trash. and i may be overreacting but im allowed to feel hurt. and i know not everyone is going to always like what i write, if you dont like something thats fine. my issue is how some of you responded to the original ending. i think maybe one person gave me constructive critisims while almost everyone else was like "what the fuck no."
(((actually you all on wattpad didnt make me feel that bad this is more towards those on AO3)))
so i rewrote the ending, for me. not for anyone else. i rewrote it because i felt like i had too and this is the only time im ever going to be doing this again. im gonna write what i want and thats that. rewriting this isnt an issue, im fine with that.
so anyways heres your ending
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"Have a good day at school baby, appa and me love you so much. Uncle jinyoung and jaebum will try to bring you over later," seokjin had facetimed minho who was currently standing with yoongi at the bus stop. Yoongi nodded excitedly and kissed his parents goodbye. They hung up soon and seokjin handed his phone over to namjoon who was sitting next to him.
"Rub my feet?"
"Anything for you," namjoon kissed his forehead and got up to sit by the foot of the hospital bed.
They had been in the hospital for about an hour or two now. The nurse had advised seokjin to rest for a while since he was a little stressed after the morning they had. He drank some juice and rested, though he wasn't the most comfortable. He felt himself calm a little though, he didn't want the baby to be stressed out too so he tried to calm down as much as he could. The nurse had checked him and had been happy to see his blood pressure was back to normal.
"Okay i think i should walk around now, the sooner this baby is out the quicker we can get home to our other babies," namjoon helped him up and they slowly made their way into the hall. Namjoon let the nurse know and then held seokjin's hand. They walked around and occasionally stopped when a contraction was too much for seokjin.
"I'm so excited, another little baby! I don't know how we do it with the ones we have now honestly," seokjin chuckled. It was true, they had 4 kids and they were very close in age. Sometimes they were a handful but they really don't know what they'd do without them.
"What are we gonna name them?" namjoon hadn't really thought of any baby names.
"Honestly i'm not sure either, maybe a name will just come to us when we see them," seokjin shrugged. Some people did that, it's like as soon as they saw their baby they knew what their name would be so maybe they'd have one of those moments. Either way they both still tried to come up with a few in their heads.
"What if its a girl?" namjoon asks.
"Highly doubt it, this little one is definitely a boy. I wanted a girl too," seokjin pouts. He always wanted a little girl and he thinks the boys would be such protective older brothers but i guess that wouldn't be happening.
"Well... we could always try again?"
"Not even in your dreams."
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Seokjin had started feeling a little sick a few minutes after their walk so they went back to the room. A nurse took his vitals and checked the baby, assuring the parents that both were doing great. She put an iv in and told him to try to get some rest, he was progressing slowly. Namjoon rubbed his feet while he tried to sleep. He spoon fed him some ice chips as well and made sure he was there with the bin when seokjin felt like throwing up.
Seokjin tried to sleep but he just felt so bad. Labor was truly the worst, sure some people got it easy and could be in labor for 4 hours while others were there for 10 plus hours. He felt emotional and tired and like throwing up, he felt drained and just wanted to sleep. This was only temporary though he reminded himself. Soon they'd have their baby and everything would be fine. He just felt weird and jittery and just sick, with hoseok it had been a breeze. Every pregnancy is different though, he just had to suck it up for now.
"Rub my belly," seokjin cried. Namjoon rubbed his belly and back in a slow comforting manner. He would never truly know what going through this would be like, he could only watch his husband move around in discomfort.
"Want some water?" namjoon asked. He wiped the sweat from seokjin's brow and grabbed his ice cold water from the table when seokjin nodded. He brought the straw up to his lips and let him drink as much as he wanted.
"This sucks," seokjin pouted. Namjoon chuckled and kissed his sweaty forehead.
"I know baby, sorry im making you go through this," he apologized half heartedly. Seokjin chuckled before wincing and reaching for namjoon's hand.
"Its-its okay," namjoon really did feel kind of bad though. It was hard watching someone you love go through pain. He doesn't know how long this will last and he's starting to get a little anxious.
"You want me to rub your feet?"
"no , my back please," namjoon happily obliged.
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A few hours later and seokjin was still in the same curled up position in the hospital bed. He had walked around a little more but after a particularly hard contraction the nurses thought it'd be best if he stayed in bed now. He hasn't asked for the epidural yet, he could last a few more minutes without it. At least that's what he told himself, just a few more minutes and he'd get it. Namjoon had been rubbing his lower back for the past hour, not that any of them were complaining. The baby's heartbeat was playing in the background which distracted seokjin. He focused on the sound of his baby and was able to drift in and out of sleep a few times. The nurse once again assured him that him and baby were doing great.
Namjoon had made seokjin as comfortable as possible. He adjusted the bed as much as he could, got as many pillows and got lots of ice water for seokjin. He rubbed his belly, back and feet as much as he asked and didn't even flinch when seokjin squeezed his hand very hard. He reassured seokjin as much as he could and talked to the baby who was being very good and calm. He gave seokjin as many kisses as he could and seokjin was so grateful to have him around.
Namjoon took this quiet time to reflect. He watched seokjin sleep and couldn't help but feel a little emotional. Seokjin always made him really emotional and sappy, he just had that effect on people. He smiled to himself, he couldn't believe his was his life. He just felt so grateful. He had a beautiful husband and a beautiful family, he's got everything he needs.
"I love you so, so much."
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Two hours later the epidural was in and seokjin felt so much better. He doesn't know why he waited this long, probably because he thought he could handle the pain. A doctor had come in to introduce himself, he seemed nice enough and as long as his baby came out healthy he didn't care who his doctor was. The other nurses introduced themselves as well, it gave namjoon some peace of mind in a way. Knowing that so many helping hands were around just in case.
"I say in a few more hours you should have your baby," the doctor told them. Seokjin grinned excitedly at namjoon.
"Thank you so much doctor," namjoon shook his hand. He was feeling a little tired and seokjin could see that.
"I'll be back in an hour and a half and we can see how you're doing, if all is well then you can start pushing," soon him and the nurse left. Seokjin felt himself get nervous all over again. Namjoon was instantly at his side.
"Im nervous," they said at the same time.
"Don't be, you've done this before," namjoon reassured.
"Yeah but only for hobi and he came out so quick, what if this baby is stubborn. I mean every time we want them to kick they never listen, they probably got that from you," seokjin crossed his arms over his chest. Namjoon only chuckled because it's pretty obvious who the baby got their stubbornness from.
"Well whatever happens i'm sure you both will be fine," namjoon reassured. Seokjin let out a shuddery breath, he was a little scared.
With hoseok it was all natural, he was an easy baby. He hadn't really thought about the option of a c section until now. He was a little scared, he didn't know what to expect. As long as his baby was fine he would be fine. He was just making himself nervous so he tried to clear his head of any bad thoughts.
"Your right im just being weird," seokjin huffed. Namjoon didn't comment on the fact that his hands were shaking, he just sat next to him and held him the best way he could.
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"Alright now your gonna get ready to push on your next contraction, i want you to take a deep, deep breath and don't stop pushing until i reach ten. Alright everyone ready? And.... one two-" seokjin tried. He really did, they had been trying for what felt like hours but nothing was progressing. He felt like he was ready to go, he felt like his baby should be in his arms already. He felt like his energy was already at zero percent.
They tried a few more times before stopping. Seokjin couldn't help but cry from exhaustion and from being emotionally drained. He knew what the doctor would say next.
"Everything is fine, baby just seems very comfortable in there so i think what would be best now would be a c section. Baby and your body know its time to come out so this is the safest way to do it now. If they stay in there any longer it could be a problem," namjoon nodded as he listened intently. Seokjin just tried to catch his breath.
"But they're okay right?"
"Of course, we'll just get you both ready for the procedure and you should have your baby very soon," he smiled at them and then went to get the other room ready for them. Seokjin calmed down as much as he could and turned to namjoon.
"Don't worry baby, sure this isn't how we predicted but this is for the best right?" seokjin nodded. His hands reached shakily for the bin on the side table and namjoon quickly placed it in front of him. He threw up what little he had in his stomach and dry heaved a few times. He was just nervous and scared, namjoon understood.
It felt like in no time seokjin was drugged up and looking at namjoon who was staring at the doctors make the first incision. Seokjin couldn't really feel anything, well he could but he couldn't at the same time. He watched namjoon expression through blurry eyes and tried squeezing his hand to get his attention. Namjoon looked over and smiled at him. seokjin opened his mouth to speak making namjoon lean over to hear him better.
"Wh-when they get h-here go with them... i-i want you to s-see... see them t-take care of th-them," he slurred. He felt like he was gonna fall asleep, the medicine was definitely doing its job. Namjoon chuckled but nodded and kissed his forehead before turning back to the doctors. Seokjin smiled and tried to stay awake. He couldn't miss the birth of his baby!
"Alright and... here... they are," seokjin cried when he heard his babies first cry. His vision was blurry with tears and sleepiness but he still was able to see his little baby when a nurse brought him to the other side of the small curtain separating them. Namjoon cried too and squeezed seokins hand.
"Dad would you like to cut the cord?" namjoon instantly nodde and cut the cord with shaky hands. The baby was handed off to a nurse so namjoon turne to seokjin quickly.
"I'm gonna go with them now okay? God you did so amazing baby i'm so proud of you. He's so beautiful babe, you have no idea. I love you," he kissed seokjin lips and followed the nurse out.
"H-he" seokjin cried. He couldn't believe another baby boy. He felt so much happiness in his heart.
Another beautiful baby boy.
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"You've got yourself a healthy 8 pound baby sir!" the nurse told him after she cleaned him up and thoroughly checked him. Namjoon couldn't stop staring at his son, he was so quiet and tiny. He had only cried when he first came to the world, after that he remained quiet. He was so beautiful namjoon couldn't believe him and seokjin had made him.
"Thought of a name yet?" she asked.
"Huh? Oh uh no actually, we were hoping a name would just come to mind once we saw him. Maybe seokjin thought of one," namjoon chuckled nervously.
"Perfectly fine! He's quite the quiet one, congratulations! You can stay for a little longer, a nurse will be taking him to the nursery with the others in a little while though," namjoon nodded and watched her go. He didn't get that much time with his son before another nurse came to take him. She told him where the nursery was located before rolling him away. He watched his son with a big smile on his face before making his way back to seokjin's room where he would be recovering. Before going in he took his phone out and dialled jinyoung's number.
"What happened? Did the baby arrive? Is it a boy? I knew it!"
"Calm down! Yes its a boy and yes he's here, god he's so perfect. I just wanted to let you know seokjin had to have a c section so we're probably gonna be here for a few more days," jinyoung let out a sigh at that. It'd be hard for seokjin with the pain of that incision but jinyoung promised to help them with anything they'd need. They hung up and jinyoung promised to take the kids over to their grandmothers while seokjin and namjoon were at the hospital.
Namjoon put his phone away and then walked into the room. It was dimly lit and empty, he sat in a chair and waited for seokjin to be wheeled in. the doctor had told him that they'd need to stitch him back up and then he'd be wheeled back in. so he waited and in the meantime he called everyone to let them know what the newest addition was just born.
"Mr. kim?" namjoon said goodbye to the person on the other line before turning to see the doctor at the door. Namjoon couldn't keep the smile off his face.
"Doctor, how's seokjin? He must be so tired right now, i'm so proud of him," namjoon rambled. The doctor nodded at the happy father before walking further into the room. He led namjoon to the small couch that was located against the wall of the room. They sat in silence for a moment.
"Mr. kim im sorry but-"
"Oh god please don't tell me-" the doctor instantly cut namjoon off with a chuckle.
"No, no he's perfectly fine! We just had to move him to a different recovery room, there's a woman coming in ready to have triplets," namjoon let out a loud relieved sigh. He quickly gathered all of seokjin and the babys things and followed the doctor out of the room. He felt elated, he had his son and now he just had to take care of seokjin and they could go home to their family soon.
"He'll be very tired so try to get him to rest as much as possible. He's gonna be very sore also, call a nurse if you have any questions or concerns," and then he left. Namjoon opened the door slowly, seokjin seemed to be sleeping so namjoon entered as quietly as he could. Namjoon wrapped seokjins favorite blanket around him and held his hand as he slept.
"I'm so proud of you baby, you went through so much. I can't believe you did that, your so incredibly strong i don't think i could ever do this. And our son oh my god he's so beautiful seokjin, he definitely favors you," namjoon chuckled.
"Thats nice honey but please be quiet im really tired," namjoon jumped at his husband's voice. Seokjin smiled sleepily at him, namjoon gave him a kiss and then tucked him in.
"Rest up honey."
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"Yoongi is the oldest, he's gonna teach you everything he knows so you're gonna be so smart. Hoseok will probably make you happy all the time, he does that to people. And i think you're definitely gonna be a little trouble maker with the twins, tong-tong will probably become a pony for you three. Honestly he's getting a little old so go easy on him," namjoon spoke softly to his son.
"Namjoon honey let my boy sleep," seokjin scolded playfully. Seokjin held his baby close, kissing his soft cheeks occasionally while he slept deeply. He was so small and he scrunched his nose in the cutest way.
"Your crying honey," namjoon wiped his tears away.
"Really? I don't even realize it, my emotions are all over the place. I'm just so happy, can you believe we made him! I love you so much," seokjin kissed his husband. He truly felt complete, well almost. If his other babies were there then he'd truly feel complete.
"My little jeonggukie."
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"So little mama," taehyung whispered. He was nose to nose with the baby, observing him with his limited vision. Jimin was asleep next to the infant, cuddling close to him and occasionally he'd pat at the bundled up baby. He insisted on rocking the baby to sleep but instead he was the first to fall asleep. Yoongi sat at the foot of the hospital bed with hoseok, they observed the young ones. Hoseok was asking yoongi a million questions, yoongi did his best to answer.
"We gotta be good hyungs okay?" hoseok nodded his head frantically.
"Alright, baby has to go to sleep now," seokjin tol the boys softly. The boys crowded over and kissed their younger brother goodnight, namjoon took him and placed him in the bassinet.
"Night baby," taehyung waved. Seokjin sniffled a little, he loved his babies so much.
"Are you boys excited for jeongguk?" they all, except jimin, nodded their heads in excitement. Jinyoung had brought them over for a while, namjoon would be taking them back to their grandmothers later.
"I want you all to know that i love you so much, okay?" they nodded in understanding. He never wanted his babies to feel replaced. Yoongi had felt that with hoseok at some point and really it could happen again but they hope it won't.
Taehyung curled up next to jimin and fell asleep soon after. It was relatively quiet so seokjin decided to take a nap himself. Jeongguk was a quiet baby, a least at the moment. Seokjin trusted namjoon to take care of the kids, so he slept.
Now he felt truly complete.
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Now that he was home he felt so much better. He still felt sore and drained most of the time but now he felt more relaxed in a way. Being in the comfort of his own home eased the tension in his back. Tong-tong greeted them at the door, he obediently sat and did not go near the baby. His tail wagged happily at the newest addition and after being told it was okay he sniffed the infant. He stood by the carrier, as if he were guarding the small baby.
"My favorite boy taking care of our smallest boy, how cute!" seokjin took a picture.
"Let's get you in bed."
Seokjin spent quite a while healing but eventually the family was back to their old routine, only now they had a baby. It wasn't anything too difficult, the kids had stepped up tremendously. They took their hyung roles very seriously. The loved holding their baby brother, jeongguk didn't seem to mind much either. Weeks later jeongguk was still a very quiet baby, he liked to sit back and suck on his binky. He slept and cuddled a lot, the boys seemed to really like that about him.
"Alright everyone let's go outside," seokjin let them all out. The weather was perfect outside so seokjin thought a picnic outside would be perfect.
They spent the afternoon like that, the kids running around with big smiles and giggling. Seokjin in namjoons arms while holding a sleeping jeongguk. Tong-tong running around by taehyung's side and helping him up everytime he tripped and fell. Yeah, this is definitely what happiness felt like. Happiness was a weird thing, sure seokjin had always felt happy but this moment... it just felt like true happiness. You can be happy everyday but when you feel true happiness it's like.. Strange almost. It was like this tingly feeling, seokjin almost felt like he was trembling with how happy he felt.
As long as he's with his family he's sure he'll always feel happiness.
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honestly i dont have much to say but there wont be an epilogue because there doesnt need to be one. if anyone has any questions or anything let me know, enter the giveaway on my instagram if you want. unfortunatley its only open for those in the US and canada FOR NOW! i'll be doing more giveaways soon.
im working on the ceo!jeongguk and nanny!tae fic, the prologue should be posted in a few days.
thats all