Harry's pov
I groaned feeling movement I gripped my pillow hard
"Ah!" I jumped opening my eyes and realized I wasn't holding my pillow ,very obviously now that I put thought into it, it was Alexis, it was her hip I was holding and I'd just dug my nails into her I removed my hand
she was kinda wiggling herself around I sat up she looked like she was in distress I frowned and stroked her hair giving her a soft kiss on the forehead the more I moved the more I became aware of a tightness
My back was very tight I reached around I felt raised skin
I went wide eyed
scratches
I looked at Alexis she was still writhing in her sleep I ripped down the blanket I covered my mouth
"Fuck Fuck FUCK" I screamed Alexis looked like she'd rolled down a damn hill
Her hip bones and sides had horizontal scratches from me, bites as well from me
but bites weren't limited to her hips no they were on her thighs, on the dip in her side, on her chest, and on her neck all were very dark very noticeable
But those aren't the only bruises hand prints and finger prints were splattered all over her body along with deep bloody purple hickeys
Her chest looked the most abused it was more purple than her natural skin tone
She jumped awake at my yelling
She looked up at me confused she moved a little and hissed "ow" she slowly shifted herself to sit up but looked like she was in some serious pain
"Alexis" I pulled her to me as gently as I could "where does it hurt the most?" I whispered nuzzling myself in her gorgeous silken hair whining softly in her ear pressing my lips to her neck but not daring to kiss so not to upset her
She looked away from me her cheeks got flush "b-between my legs" she murmured my heart was in my throat and I was having a hard time swallowing over it
"I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry" my voice was strong how? I couldn't understand I was literally pleading
I was close to scumming to tears
I lost control last night I was completely animalistic she was pounded into complete submission she had no choice I went so hard she was hardly breathing and my stamina out did hers by a long shot she was practically unconscious toward the end
It wasn't her fault though she hadn't done anything sexual in a very long time so her finished took a lot out of her
"I-I... I'll fix it" I whimpered in her neck I stood up still holding her in my arms I kissed her neck softly timidly testing my waters "I didn't mean to hurt you"
"Harry it's okay" she whispered back she patted my back
I shook my head and set her on the counter she screeched and quickly slipped off the counter I frowned deeply I looked in the mirror her bum was scratched and whelped up still bright pink "oh" I spoke almost inaudibly I looked at her but she didn't look back at me
The more I looked at her the less I could stand myself I covered my face with my hands my breathing becoming unsteady "I-I I'm unforgivable I've violated my beloved I've caused you pain" I knew she hated me she repelled the thought of me
"Harry" she whispered tears were welling in my eyes on the very brink of spilling over she'll never want me, she'll kick me out, she'll never want to see me again, she'll cut all ties and connections with me, I'll be mateless for the rest of my life, I couldn't be Alpha, I'd be exiled
"Harry" she touched me this time I peeked up feeling the salty water that was filling my eyes slip and slide down my face "don't cry" she pulled my hands down I sniffled softly
I shook my head "I-I'm not" I wiped my face clean and closed my eyes I tried to hold back a few more tears then blinked my eyes open clearing them as much as possible I looked down at her and she looked up at me
I put my thumb in my hand squeezing it into a fist in a small attempt to steady myself for the inevitable for the rejection but I still wanted to fight, to plead, to grovel I would I'd have to what I had done was unforgivable and I knew it b-but I needed to at least try though I knew this was the end
This is it my very last look at her
"I liked it"
"Alexis please I'm so sorry don't leave me I-" I stopped short finally giving myself time to process what she had said "w-wait w-what...?"
I was completely bewildered
"I liked it" she blushed "I liked it a lot"
I scrunched up my face still confused "y-you.. I-I..." I shook my head "b-but I hit you... y-you were begging, I spanked you, I bit you, I scratched you... I bruised you! y-you look like you've been abused!" I gestured to her
She looked down then crossed her arms looking up but not at me "so you want me to hate you and push you out?" I gasped and grabbed her upper arms
I gasped "NO No no please don't!" I panicked
"Then accept that I liked it I mean..." she finally looked at me "I do own a ball gag I like rough stuff like that specially bitting and spanking"
"Y-you don't hate me? I caused you pain" I frowned deeply I cupped her cheeks "I hurt you, you're in pain because of me"
She grabbed my cheeks back "as expected it's kinda part of the package when you're kinky ya know..." she explained "plus I bit you too" I looked in the mirror and fuck she did my shoulders were bitten and clawed which I didn't mind one bit
she smiled softly and leaned in giving me a peck on the lips which I accepted with great gratitude
"C-Can we shower? Warm water will help a-and if you have baby oil I'll message you I-I'll try and make it better" I offered pleadingly she nodded
"Yes" she agreed I turned her water on as it heated I guided her in getting in with her slowly rubbing her sides feeling the cuts I made on her I frowned and kissed her shoulder very softly
She hummed angelically running her hands through her hair "use the cookie one" I instructed she grabbed the sugar cookie shampoo that really just smelled of vanilla I was quite fond of it she washed her hair as I lazily yet lovingly kissed over any mark I could reach
Once she rinsed her hair she turned to me "can I wash your hair?" I laughed softly
"You have before" she kinda laughed back
"With you as a Wolf" I nodded as a yes and she grabbed the coconut shampoo since it was just a touch manlier than the sugar cookie shampoo she started to wash my hair I kissed her as she dragged her nails across my scalp massaging it
She pulled away slowly "its hard to wash your hair when you keep kissing me"
"Sorry" I apologized then kissed her again "it's hard to stop kissing you when you smell of me..." I spoke not even pulling away from her lips so as I spoke our lips still touched I needed her lips
I'd waited so very long to kiss her I had to commit them to memory every line, the curves, the soft skin, the heat, the fullness
She pulled away holding my hair so I couldn't follow her lips
"I've gotta breathe" she giggled softly I pouted and patiently waited for her to finish my hair
Once she finished my hair and hers she grabbed her rag I grabbed her wrist "I'll wash you" she didn't reject she willingly passed me the rag making me think she really did enjoy herself last night
I put her vanilla soap on it and started on her neck then moved to her chest taking more time than necessary enjoying the feel then moved down washing her hips and thighs
"Do I get to wash you?" She made doe eyes
I nodded she washed me with the same scent of soap since it was all she had I stared down at her
"Are you terribly sore?" I mumbled
"Don't be so dramatic" she smiled softly washing my chest "I'm sore yes but not unbearably so" I smiled
"M-Maybe after the massage... I could help you... rub one out yeah?" I offered she blushed deeply maybe I just over stepped my boundaries
"I-I'm fine" she stuttered
"Mm I think it's a good idea" I defended "I'm not trying to get in your pants again I genuinely just want to make you feel better" I frowned deeply "really you mean too much to me for just meaningless conquests"
"That was sweet we'll see Harry" we finished up she wrapped herself up and opened the cabinets under the sink
"Here's the baby oil" she passed it to me she went to get out clothes I shook my head
"Don't get dressed I gotta rub you down lay on your stomach" she looked back at me and smiled softly
"Okay" she laid how I asked I stood next to her she relaxed I poured a bit on her back I dipped my fingers in it and immediately went to her bum to knead the sensitive skin
"You're so beautiful" I sighed happily trying to burn every dip, every curve, every freckle, every acne scar into my memory
Her flaws they made her real they made her an earthly ,yet still heavenly, attainable goddess
"Harry?" I hummed looking down at her face
"Yes my love?"
"So... I guess we're kinda 'mating' now mm?" I smiled wider
"Only if you wanna do it again then yeah we'll be mating"
"Oh for sure"