[Y/N]
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"Moriiiiiiiii."
"Yes, [Y/N]?"
Morí kept his eyes on the newspaper he was reading as I rolled my head back.
"Do we have to go to the dinner tonight?" I asked.
"No. But I'll fire you if you don't." Mori responded.
"Ok so you said it's at 7, right?" I asked, immediately raising my head and looking at him.
Morí looked at me and chuckled.
"Yes. Do dress nicely. Anyways, stop slacking off and get to work. Those reports aren't going to file themselves." He waved.
I sighed and continued to put reports away in different cabinets. I had missed a few days and Morí wasn't too happy about it. So he decided to make me do some of his work.
It had been 3 weeks now. I was still with Chuuya. Dazai was pretty butt-hurt that I hadn't gone back after two days. He was still pretty sad and upset with me. Of course him being my brother, he would attempt to guilt trip me a lot to try to get me to hang out with him- mostly only to get me to go back and live with him.
It worked one time, but only because his guilt tripping involved him physically carrying me and driving me back to his house right after work to spend "quality sibling time." This consisted of us doing literally everything together. It was fine with me, but I preferred to not be with him. I didn't want to admit it, but
I was sort of getting tired of Dazai.
Don't get me wrong- I love him to death. Spending time with him every now and then is amazing and I wouldn't trade it for anything. But the idea of moving back with him is something I'm not fond of. I'd prefer to hang out with him at maximum, once a week. I don't know why and it bothers me.
Why have I suddenly lost interest in hanging out with my only family?
I want to, but I don't.
Was it because I was possibly bored with the activities we did when we hung out? I didn't understand why. I only saw him at work. The last time I hung out with him was 2 weeks ago. The longest we've ever gone without spending so much time with each other.
I knew he was slowly loosing hope in our bond.
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Getting to dinner was fine. Everyone was dressed fancy like expected. Chuuya was looking sharp as ever and I was secretly gushing so hard.
You ever just look at a man and cry because of how beautiful he is?
Yeah, me too.
"[Y/N]? Hey, what's wrong?" Chuuya looked at me as we sat down at the table.
I sniffled quietly and looked up at the ceiling to prevent any tears from falling out. I stayed quiet for a few moments before looking back down and grabbing a napkin and softly pressing it at the bottom of my eyes.
"You're just.. so.."
I stopped and made my hand into a fist, pressing it against my mouth and closing my eyes. I was trying to hard not to cry again. My heart was overwhelmed with happiness and bliss it was amazing.
"I can't take this.." I whispered, pressing my other other hand to my chest and looking away.
"[Y/N], what's wrong? Tell me."
Chuuya said quietly as the others talked. As he leaned in, his cologne hit me and I was dying.
Tell me God, what did I do to deserve this man?
I took in a small breath before turning to look at him. I cleared my throat and tried my best not to scream and attack him with love.
"I love you so much. I thank God everyday that you exist in my life. Why has god blessed me with a handsome man like you? Why did you choose me-"
My voice cracked as my eyes began watering again.
"You're just so attractive I just can't handle it.." I whispered.
Chuuya's eyes widened as he blushed mildly. Chuuya stared at me as I wiped my eyes. I had no idea why he picked me to be his lover, but I was praying and giving thanks to the gods that he did. I was truly blessed.
I looked at Chuuya again, his face was still the same. Burning red and shocked.
"I can't look at you, but it'd be a sin not to." I whispered as I looked away and smiled at Higuchi, trying to calm myself down.
Higuchi was sitting next to Akutagawa. I winked at her as he was looking away from her and at Dazai. Unfortunately, as I was winking at her, Akutagawa looked my way. I assumed he thought I was winking at him because soon after he gave me a confused face and begin blinking aggressively towards me.
I furrowed my eyebrows as I was confused at what he was trying to do. Was he trying to blink in Morse code? When I couldn't extract any code from him, I then realized he was trying to wink back.
I shook my head and sighed, looking away.
Does he have any idea what winking means?
Probably not. He may be a gruesome and savage person, but he's also pretty innocent.
I felt Chuuya grab my hand and squeeze it. The blissful feeling already in my chest exploded and I gave him a small smile. Chuuya was staring at me this whole time, almost in a daze. He returned the small smile, the smile never fading away.
I looked over at Dazai who was a few seats away from Chuuya and sitting next to Mori. Dazai stared at me every now and then with a sad look on his face. I smiled at him but his look would remain the same.
"Chuuya, I know [Y/N] looks lovely, thanks to me, but stop being a creep and eat your food." Ozaki hissed as she hit Chuuya on the back of the head.
Chuuya huffed and grabbed his utensils, beginning to eat. I let out a quiet laugh as I began to eat too. Dinner went swell as we all chatted the night away. It all went down hill though when drinks started to arrive.
The waiter came by asking every one what sort of wine they wanted to have. Everyone's choices varied, the weirdest yet fanciest brands being asked for.
"And for you Miss?" The waiter asked.
"Nothing, thank you." I briefly said as he went off.
I rested my head on the palm of my hand as everyone went quiet and looked at me.
"Why didn't you order anything?" Mori asked, unhappy.
"I stopped drinking." I replied as I looked at him.
"What? Why?" Mori asked.
I sat up and looked him dead in the eye.
"I quit drinking because someone told me wine helps prolong life and I don't wanna be here any longer than I have to be."
Everyone stared at me with disbelief, staying silent for a few moments.
"That's my baby sister!" Dazai beamed as he smiled happily.
Well at least he's happy now.
Morí looked at me in disappointment and shook his head, secretly laughing.
"Well, you are Dazai's sister after all." Ozaki sighed.
A glass of dark red wine was slid towards me from Chuuya. He looked me in the eyes, hurt.
"Do you... really not drink wine anymore?"
I pursued my lips as I began gushing over him again.
"Only for you I do." I responded as I began drinking the wine.
A small smile appeared on his face.
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yes.