Chapter 31
Tahimik lamang ako buong byahe. I waited for Castielle to talk about what Staven said but he remained silent.
I don't want to overthink but what is he thinking? Nag-iisip naba siya ng magandang rason? Palaisipan parin sakin hanggang ngayon kung bakit kami nandoon sa Japan. Pilit kong iniintinding nagkataon pero imposible nga naman.
"Castielle, condo?" tanong ni Sheun sa driver seat. Pareho kaming nasa backseat ni Castielle.
"Mmm..." tanging sagot ni Castielle habang nakatingin sakin like he was contemplating me.
"Uuwi nako." matigas kong sinabi.
"We'll still talk. I won't let you leave like that bearing that whatever thoughts in your mind." mariin niyang sinabi.
Kumulo ang dugo ko. "Then why don't we talk now?"
"Bad idea, Miss. I don't want to hear you fight." supladong sagot naman ni Sheun sa unahan.
Tinaasan ako ng kilay ni Castielle na para bang ito ang dahilan kung bakit tahimik siya. I rolled my eyes on him bago isinandal ang likod sa upuan ng sasakyan.
"Is Shian's still in US?" tanong ni Castielle kay Sheun.
Sheun nodded. "Mmm. Sila nila Mom. Dad and I left in the house." malamig na sagot nito.
Is he that cold? And his aura is so intimidating and arrogant. Patuloy lamang akong nakinig sa kanila tungkol kay Shian at sa babaeng tinutukoy ni Castielle na nagpapadagdag ng kasupladuhan ni Sheun.
When we got off the car. Kaagad kaming pumunta sa unit niya.
"It's not what you're thinking. Staven's a liar." mariin sabi ni Castielle habang nasa elevator kami.
Hindi ako sumagot. Nang makarating kami sa tamang palapag ay kaagad nakong lumabas. Nang makarating kami sa unit niya ay doon ko na ibinuhos ang lahat.
"Then explain why were there? Imposibleng coincidence lang ang lahat, Castielle!" I spatted.
Kumunot ang noo niya. "Don't tell me you believe that guy? Okay sige! It was my fucking plan! Ako ang may pakana ng lahat. I asked Ivan to make the ticket gets to you." asik niya.
Nanlaki ang mata ko. Naikuyom ko ang mga kamay ko. Pakiramdam ko nanginginig ako sa galit. I even felt my heart crumbled with pain. Kinuntyaba rin ba ni Ivan si Erene? Damn.
"But, I didn't plan it for him! I plan it for us! It's our birthday and I want to spend it together in your favorite place." dugtong niya at hinuli ang mukha ko.
He's now holding my face. "You're doubting me again." he stated with his dark eyes staring at me intently.
Nag-iwas ako ng tingin. He squeezed my face kaya bumalik ang tingin ko sa kaniya. "Stop doubting me, for fuck sake, Narian Angelien." he said at pinanggigilan ang pisnge ko.
"Araaaay!" daing ko at tinampal ang kamay niya.
Napanguso ako habang hinihimas ang aking pisnge. "Bakit hindi mo kaagad sinabi!?" asik ko.
He smiled as he pulled me in his chest and hugged me tightly. "I forgot about it. I was too happy with you."
"Tsss... As if..."
He squeezed me on his arms. "Hindi ka nanaman naniniwala, ano?" tanong niya at kinalas ang yakap.
Hindi ako sumagot at tinignan lang siya. Pinanliitan niya ko ng mata. Napatili ako ng bigla niya kong buhatin na parang sako.
"In that case, you're not going home if you're still doubting me." sabi niya at naglakad papasok sa kwarto niya.
"Put me down, Castielle! I need to go home!" asik ko at sinapak ang likod niya.
He laughed evilly as he dragged me down like a thing in his bed. Dinaganan niya kaagad ako kaya hindi ako nakabangon.
Castielle captured my lips, kissing me passionately. Without inhibition I wrapped my arms on his neck kissing him back with the same intensity he was giving. Bigla kong nakalimutang gusto ko ng umuwi.
His lips left my lips. He kissed my neck down to my shoulder blade. I let out a soft moan when he sucked my neck when he got back to it.
I turned my head sideway to give him more access. Napakagat labi ako ng maglakbay ang kaniyang kamay saking bewang pababa sa gitna ng aking mga hita.
He unbutton my shorts and remove it. I only watch him never having the strength to stop him. Napaungol ako ng hawakan niya ako roon.
"Fuck, you're wet for me." aniya at pinanggigilan ang labi ko habang patuloy na hinihimas ang aking pagkababae.
Napaungol ako sa kiliting dulot nito sa kaibuturan ko. He rubbed it thoroughly kaya napakapit ako sa bedsheets.
Until I felt him slid his finger inside me kaya napasinghap ako. He thrust his finger inside me kaya halos nasabunutan ko na siya.
I moaned with excruciating pleasure. He grasped my boob caressing with his free hand while his lips were focus on my neck, licking and sucking.
Nang maramdaman kong malapit nako ay kumapit ako ng mariin kay Castielle but then when it's about to explode, Castielle stop thrusting his finger.
Hinihingal ko siyang tinignan and very much frustrated. "W-Why did you stop?" I asked.
Seryoso niya kong tinignan. "Tell me first you're not doubting me." he commanded.
Natigilan ako. So this is all about it. Tsss, he's doing it again. The Master Casanova's way of manipulating me.
Castielle removed his finger inside me. He was about to stand when I pulled him kaya nakadagan siyang muli sakin. I looked at him seductively.
"Why did you stop?" I asked pulling him closer to me. Breathing on his parted sexy lips.
"Cause you're doubting me." he said while looking at my lips.
Pumungay ang aking mga mata. Naliliyo ang kaniyang mga mata. I bit my lower lip to make it more sexier. Let me show you you're not the Master anymore, baby.
"It's because you're schemy... manipulative... immature casanova..." I said.
He rolled his eyes. He was about to stand again when I wrapped my legs on his waist. Nagulat siya sa ginawa ko.
I smirked. "Kiss me, Master."
"Now you're playing with me. I'm not going to kiss you unless you stop doubting me." mariin niyang sinabi.
Para naman akong tutang natakot sa kaniyang amo dahil sa nakitang galit sa kaniyang mata. He surely is serious right now at mukhang kapag inasar ko pa siya'y tuloyan ng magalit.
"Edi sige..." sagot ko at napakagat labi.
Pinanliitan niya ako ng mata. "Are you really sure? Do you trust me now?" mariin niyang sinabi.
Tumango ako. "Yes. Now can you kiss me?" I asked.
"No, you're going home." aniya at inangat ako paupo.
Umawang ang bibig ko. "W-What? Pero..."
He smirked. "Kailangan mo ng umuwi. I don't want your Papa to worry." anito at inayos ang aking damit at sinuotan ng shorts.
Napanguso ako at dismayadong bumuntong hininga. He chuckled as he messed my hair.
"Lucky for you, I still have my control. Baka hindi na kita pauwiin kapag hinalikan pa kita." dugtong niya.
Hinatid ako ni Castielle sa amin. Sa tapat mismo ng bahay namin at nagulat siya dahil doon ako nagpahatid.
I smiled at him. "Ipapakilala na kita kay Papa. Pero siguro bukas nalang, ha?"
He smiled widely as he captured my lips to give me a peck. "I love you." he said.
I gave him a peck on his lips too, "I love you too." I said without inhibition.
Bahagya siyang natigilan. Umawang ang kaniyang labi habang nakatingin lamang sakin. He was surprised.
"What?" I asked while smiling.
He smiled like he was amazed. "You... you said it back." aniya na di makapaniwala.
I chuckled. "Ang babaw ng kaligayahan mo." biro ko at pinisil ang pisnge niya.
"Bye, take care." paalam ko at bubuksan na sana ang pinto ng hilahin niya ako pabalik.
When I looked at him I was a bit stunned on how his eyes sparkled. I haven't seen him looked at me like this before. He is happy I know.
"Say it again, baby." he commanded.
Ngumuso ako at napakagat labi. "Why?"
"I... I never been happy hearing that word until now..." naiilang niyang sagot.
I playfully rolled my eyes. "You're Master Casanova. I'm sure girls would say that to you."
"But not with the girl I love..." aniya at biglang sinapo ang mukha ko at nilapit sa kaniya.
Our eyes are now locked together. I could see how beautiful his eyes was. It was very dark, unlike mine, was brown.
"I think I couldn't let you go. Can you just stay beside me, baby?"
"Master Casanova is so clingy. Does your girls know that?" pang-aasar ko.
He scoffed. "I'll make them see it. Wait for it. I only be clingy for Narian Angelien."
We both smiled. Then his lips locked in mine. And we almost make out kung hindi ko pa siya pinigilan. At dahil lamang 'yun sa nag-I love you ako sa kaniya.
Masayang-masaya ako habang ikwinikwento kay Papa lahat ng napuntahan ko. Of course, I couldn't tell him that I'm with Castielle but I think Staven would tell him. Gulat pa nga ako dahil hindi pa sinasabi ni Staven kay Papa.
Nakapagtataka parin kung ano ba talaga ang puno't dulo ng away nila. Ayoko namang kausapin si Staven ngayon dahil baka kung anu-ano pa ang sabihin niya.
Not that I don't trust Castielle. Medyo nasanay lang talaga ako na nagtitiwala kay Staven. But why whould Staven said ginagantihan siya ni Castielle? Dahil parin ba ito sa issue noon? But, it's just basketball or... not.
Does basketball really a big deal between both of them? I never ask Castielle before if he really loves basketball dahil halata naman but be devoted in that sport? I don't know. Hindi ko alam kung gaano siya ka deboto sa larong 'yun.
I mean, he almost got everything. He's a good DJ and a talented bartender. What could make him want to avenge just because Staven kicked him out in the team? How can he have much time planning a revenge right?
At ang pagkikita namin sa coffee shop one year ago. It was a coincidence. I don't even know that it was him dahil lagi siyang nakapang-disguise na parang artistang nagtatago.
I know Castielle's telling the truth. Maybe, Staven's just telling story. Dahil siguro galit lang talaga siya kay Castielle at ayaw niya lang akong mapunta sa kaaway niya kaya sinabi niya 'yun.
Back to school na ako. Pakiramdam ko mahirap mag-adjust. It was like I was already fond of waking up with Castielle beside me for the past few days.
I need to catch up with the past lesson dahil malapit na ang finals at bakasyon na ngunit dahil senior nako next semester year, this vacation I need to duty sa hospital for two months. Hay.
But, it's fine. Makakasama ko naman si Castielle at siguro naman ay matatapos niya na ang kanila kay Aebril at habang ako'y tatapusin ko narin ang sa amin ni Staven. It would be that simple but I know there's a raging war.
Sa hospital, nagkita kami ni Castielle. Nakaakbay siya sakin kaya naman pinagtitinginan kami ng mga tao.
"Everything is clear now, baby." bulong ni Castielle sakin.
Napangiti ako ngunit hindi ko maiwasang mamula at mahiya dahil nasa amin ang lahat ng atensyon. Maging ang mga pasyente at mga doctor. Naalala ko ang mga doctor na pinagsabihan ni Staven na girlfriend niya ako. Iisipin siguro nila na two timer ako.
"I was dying to do this before. I didn't like how Staven introduce you as his girl." bulong niyang muli sa akin.
I chuckled. "So, official na tayo?"
"Uh...huh. And I can kiss you in public too." aniya at tumigil sa paglakad.
O-oh. Not good.
Umiling ako. "No way, Castielle." puna ko at lumayo sa kaniya.
He wiggled his brows. "I told you, I'll show them how in love I am with you."
I pushed him when he tried to get closer, "No PDA, Castielle. Sinasabi ko sayo." banta ko at pinanlakihan siya ng mata.
"Oh, so you want it to be private? Mamaya, baby. Mamaya." aniya at muling tinaas baba ang kaniyang kilay at pilyong ngumisi.
Namula ako sa sinabi niya. Napailing nalamang ako at nauna na sa kaniyang maglakad. I heard his diabolical laugh kaya hindi ko maiwasang mapangiti.
Mabilis kumalat ang balita. And I didn't expect the result would be positive. Maraming nag-bash. Marami ring nagkomentong maghihiwalay din kalaunan.
But, the thing that's bothering me was Aebril. She was quite silent about what's happening. I expect her to approach me like how she approached me when she heard na kami daw ni Staven. Ngunit wala. And it's bothering me.
It's quite complicated. Ynesa Labresca was grinning at me evilly. Loraine Ponce was giving me a death glare. Other girls also in school. Erene gave me a lot of warning but she accepted us eventually.
Si Staven... wala nakong narinig sa kaniya. He was avoiding me kahit gusto ko siyang i-approach para makapag-usap na kami. Even though I don't feel the same feelings before, I still care for him.
I was thankful that he never tell it to Papa na kasama ko si Castielle sa Japan. I heard he's still in the basketball team, captain parin pero bukod doon wala nakong balita.
"May practice ka?" tanong ko kay Castielle habang nandito ako sa condo niya trying to cook something.
Ilang linggo na ang lumipas simula ng maging kami. March narin ngayon at nakagawian ko ng magluto para sa kaniya pagkatapos naming mag-duty sa hospital.
"Mmm. Sa basketball. Pinapasok ulit ako ni coach." aniya at binuksan ang kaniyang ref upang kunin ang kaniyang tumbler.
Tumango-tango ako. Then I thought of asking him about his devotion in that game.
"Gustong-gusto mo ang basketball?" tanong ko sa kaniya habang busy sa pagluluto ng ham para gawan siya ng sandwhich.
"Yeah," sagot niya at ng silipin ko siya'y nagtitimpla na siya ng kaniyang protein shake.
"Castielle," tawag ko sa kaniya kaya nilingon niya ko.
"Bakit ka na-kick out sa team? Totoo ba ang nangyari last year?" tanong ko.
Natigilan siya. Mataman niya kong tinignan. "Coach's daughter likes me at dahil wala naman akong nakikitang masama, pinatulan ko. Maganda siya..." kwento niya at napakagat labi.
Tumalikod ako. I don't know why I felt a little pain even though I already know his activities back then. He's a casanova.
So it must be really true, hah? Kaya nagalit ang coach sa kaniya dahil nahuli sila nito.
"So totoo nga?" tanong ko.
Naramdaman ko ang pagpulupot ng kaniyang braso sa aking bewang. I felt his breath in my ear making me shiver.
"Matagal na'yun. Staven was just overacting when he told coach. They kicked me out. I accepted it, hindi ko kailangang maghiganti." he said stroking his nose in my ear.
Napalabi ako. "I understand."
"But, would you blame me if I kind of happy because he's frustrated that I have you now?" he asked.
Nagkatinginan kami. His eyes were amused. Tumaas ang kilay ko.
"Bakit naman?"
He tightly hug me, "I have you and it frustrate him. His fault, he neglected you. Used Aebril to be on the PBA. He's such a asshole." aniya.
Kumunot ang noo ko. "Paano mo nalaman?"
Naramdaman ko ang pagkibit balikat niya. "I just know."
Bumuntong hininga ako. "He only did that because he was pressure, Castielle. Staven is a nice guy with just a cause. Really..." sabi ko at humarap sa kaniya.
Nakita ko ang pagdilim ng kaniyang mga mata. His jaw clenched.
"You really care for him, aren't you?" he asked bitterly.
"Of course! I have known Staven for years..."
Umatras siya. His eyes are still dark and it was like he was mad of something. Don't tell me he's jealous?
Wala sa sarili akong napangiti, "Are you jealous?"
Nag-iwas siya ng tingin. "Lock the door when you're done. Kailangan ko ng bumaba sa gym." suplado niyang sinabi.
I nearly laugh. "Castiello!" I called when he walk out.
Sinundan ko siya hanggang sa makalabas siya ng unit. "Baby, come back!" tawag ko ulit ngunit hindi parin niya ko nililingon.
"Not gonna work." he said without looking at me.
"Stop or I'll burn your unit!"
"I'll sue you for it." aniya di parin lumilingon.
Ngumuso ako at pinanood siyang makalayo but as soon as he walk into the elevator...
"I love you! Balik kana. Please?" sigaw ko at kasabay nun ang pagkabog ng puso ko.
Imbis na pumasok sa elevator ay huminto siya at tumingin sakin. Napakagat labi ako. Iminuwestra ko ang kamay ko signaling him to come back.
Umiling-iling siya. But, I still wave my hand to signal him to come back with my pouting lips.
Napangiti naman ako ng maglakad siya pabalik. At habang pinanood ko siyang bumalik sakin ay ganoon nalang kabilis ang tibok ng puso ko.
As soon as he came back. Castielle snaked his hand on my waist and his other one scooped my face to capture my lips.
It was an intense and passionate kiss. Making me forget that were still outside his unit. He stepped inside his unit while still kissing me.
"Don't you ever mention that guy ever again, baby. You don't want me mad..." mariin niyang sinabi.
I clung my hands on his neck, pulling him closer to deepen the kiss. Castielle bang me on the wall, neverthless the pain kissing me hungrily like he was so thirsty.
His kisses trailed down to my neck, sucking and licking it making me moaned because of the tingling sensation lingering to my body down to my most sensitive part.
Castielle cupped my legs and pulled me up. I wrapped it on his waist and I could feel his shaft poking my senstive part. Castielle cupped my breast, kissing the valley of it through my top.
I moaned when he didn't stop caressing it while kissing my neck. I reached for his lips kissing him the same intensity and heat he was giving.
"I want you..." Castielle whispered huskily in my senstive ear.
I kissed his cheeks down to his neck making him feel my breath. "I want you too, baby."
I woke up on his bed when the morning came. Ngunit ako nalamang ang nasa kama, wala na siya. Napahilot sa aking sentido ng makita ko ang isang tray sa bedside table at mayroong papel na nakaipit roon.
Kahi hilo ay bumaba ako sa kama, wrapping my naked body on the blanket. Napangiti ako ng makitang sunog ang bacon at di gano'n ka ganda ang sunny side up egg na niluto niya. At least he tried. Binasa ko nalamang ang kaniyang iniwang sulat.
Good morning, my sexy baby. I need to leave early, I have a duty call. Cooked you a breakfast. It's edible, don't worry. Got you some new clothes in my closet, use it. See you in the hospital. I love you.
-Castiello
Napangiti nalamang ako. Kinain ko ang kaniyang niluto. He's freaking bad at cooking! But, nevertheless the taste, it's edible and for me, it's the best breakfast cause he cooked it.
I wore the new clothes he was talking about before going to the hospital. Sasabihin ko nalang kay Papa na may duty ako kung magtanong man siya.
I was assigned to a ward, checking the patients from time to time. Hindi ko parin nakikita si Castielle kahit hanggang sa tanghali. Hindi naman siya nag-re-reply.
I ate lunch alone. Ayokong sumama sa mga plastic na mga tao. Alam kong ayaw nila sakin but they were trying to get close. So far, nabigo silang maghihiwalay kami ni Castielle after those long weeks had passed.
I was paying my check when I saw Castielle's cousin, Arixton Estrebal, the Master Devil of Thaguro University entering inside the restaurant.
Napapalingon sa kaniya ang lahat. Ultimo ang mga matatandang naroon para sa isang meeting at iba pa. With his dark aura and very manly and so strong posture, who wouldn't look?
He looked like devil, his aura said so. Kung paano magsalubong ang kaniyang kilay. His feautures may be pale but his eyes are full of darkness within it.
Pakiramdam mo'y kapag binangga mo siya'y mamamatay ka. Kaya siguro maraming takot sa kaniya sa school, lahat sumusunod sa kaniya, lahat ng bullies nakapangalan sa kaniya.
He's very mysterious. Mapapaisip kana lang kung sino kayang babae ang makakapagbighani sa isang katulad niya?
I saw him walk directly to a table with a woman. Nanlaki ang mata ko ng makitang si Ynesa ang naroon. Wag mong sabihing siya ang babaeng 'yun?
I rolled my eyes with disbelief. Kung siya lang rin naman, I'm sure wala na silang pag-asang dalawa. Pareho silang sasabog. A devil man and a cunning woman.
Ngunit pagkalabas ko ng restaurant ay natigilan ako. Bakit sila magkasama? Is she hooking up with Arixton? What a slut. But, why would they be meeting in a restaurant and they seem so serious?
Binalewala ko nalamang ito at bumalik na sa ospital. But, still it's bothering me. I remember how Ynesa wants me to avenge them from Castielle and Arixton now why is she with him?
Pagkarating kong hospital, kaagad akong dumiretsyo sa nurse room para iwan ang mga gamit ko. Napaaga ako kaya ako palang ang nandito.
Biglang bumukas ang pinto at niluwa roon si Aebril na suot ang kaniyang uniporme habang naglalakad palapit sakin.
I was waiting for this day to come. Alam kong dadating at dadating talaga ang araw na susumbatan niya ako ngunit tanggap ko na'to. Kasalanan ko rin naman.
Kasalanan ko kung bakit nasaktan siya, but I couldn't understand why I can't see any hurt in her eyes. Sa halip ay mukhang nasisiyahan pa nga siya.
"Aebril..." I said acknowledging her presence.
She crossed her arms as she leaned on the locker while looking at me with her amazed eyes.
"How's being the Master Casanova's girlfriend?" she asked while smiling.
Kumunot ang noo ko. This bitch. Gusto ko na sanang maawa ngunit kung ganito siya ay sinong maaawa?
"Look, if you're here to corrupt my mind, go away. I don't want to hear your shit." mariin kong sinabi at sinarado ang locker.
Aebril laughed diabolically. "Oh, dear, you might thank me for being here. You might be thinking kung bakit ngayon lang kita nilapitan when infact, I really could have pulled your hair right away, you know." aniya at ngumiti sakin ng matamis.
Mas lalong kumunot ang noo ko. I remained silent, wanting to hear something she would say dahil totoong hindi niya ko nilapitan and that's what bothering me.
"Ano bang gusto mong sabihin?"
She smirked. "Are you ready to hear it? O baka naman gusto mong magbulag-bulagan nalang para di ka masaktan." hamon niya.
Naikuyom ko ang aking kamay. I know I promise to myself that I wouldn't doubt Castielle. I trust him. Alam kong mahal niya ko. Pinaramdam niya 'yun.
Sino ang naglolokong lalake na dadalhin ako sa Japan? Kailangan pa bang gumastos ng ganoon kalaki para lamang paglaruan ang damdamin ko? Am I that special to hurt?
"Just spill it, Aebril!" angil ko.
She chuckled. "Fine, as you wish. So... how's your first time? You're so lucky si Castielle ang nakauna sayo. I bet you really enjoyed it." anito at ngumiti ng nakakaloko.
Nanlaki ang mata ko. Bigla akong nakaramdam ng kung anong kirot sa puso ko. Paano niya nalaman?
"It was supposed to be a secret between me and Castielle. And oh! Pati narin sa mga kaibigan niya pala!"
Mas namilog ang aking mga mata. Napaawang ang aking bibig dahil sa nalaman. Fuck. Fuck.
Sumikip ang puso ko. Parang bigla akong nanghina at gustong maupo. I could feel my heart slowly ripping inside of it, slowly breaking its tiny piesces.
But, it shouldn't be! Wala siyang pruweba! Pwedeng gawa-gawa lang ng babaeng to ang sinasabi at gusto lamang akong hulihin. Fuck!
"You're lying, bitch!" singhal ko.
She chuckled na mas lalong napaalab ng galit ko. May dinukot siya sa bag niya at nilabas ang cellphone.
"I have a proof, bitch. Do you think I'm stupid to act without any proof?" she said and showed her phone in front of me.
Napasinghap ako ng makita ang larawang nasa cellphone niya. Biglang nawasak ang lahat ng paniniwala ko, tiwala kong binuo para kay Castielle.
It was a picture of me and Castielle in Japan, nasa iisang kama. I was asleep at kumot lang ang tanging nakabalot sa aking katawan. He was half naked in the picture, smiling in the camera.
"He send this to us as mission accomplished screwing Narian Esquilon. No wonder he's Master Casanova, huh?"