Demi was now in Italy. She had just finished a concert and was making her way out of the venue and to the car.
"Ugly bitch!” someone yelled when she walked out of the building.
"Fat!” yelled someone else.
"You can't sing!” they kept yelling.
She just kept walking getting into the car.
She had tears streaming down her face.
When she was in elementary school people would say these kind of things to her. That was when she met Selena Ariana and Miley. They always protected her and supported her.
She was never comfortable with her body anyway so hearing people literally saying that she's fat or ugly was just too hard.
When Niall came along she was already living in the after like Miley used to say.
There were lots of things Niall didn't know, not because she didn't trust him but simply because she decided to put them in the past and live in the present.
In elementary school she started getting depressed. It wasn't to bad, thank to her friends. They really did save her.
On 8th, 9th and part of 10th grade she used to cut and starve herself. She then went to treatment and started getting better. Her friends were always there for her, they always encouraged her and supported her and of course kept her secret.
The car stopped and Demi stepped out and walked into the hotel.
She walked into her room and immediately picked up her phone.
She stared at it for a few good seconds then put it back down.
She went to her suitcase and opened one of the small pockets of it.
There he was, in his usual place, her best friend\worst enemy. It was stupid but she always had a razor with her. After all he was there with her in her darkest times, he saw her at her lowest so she found it appropriate for him to be with her at her highest.
She felt as if she was having a staring contest with her razor which was obviously stupid. It was all stupid. Cherishing it, taking it with her everywhere as if he was a loved puppy.
Before she had time to think she realized there were 3 cuts on her wrist.
It immediately made her cry. She couldn't believe she did this.
She went to the bathroom and washed the blood off.
She then sat on the bad, taking a deep breath.
It felt as if she had just woken up. She suddenly realized, in the quiet of the room, she was doing it all again. She was starving herself, cutting and sinking into depression.
She was crying, hard. How could she not notice? How could she lose control and not notice? She was doing it all automatically.
She finally picked up her phone and made a conference call to her best friends.
"Dems!” Miley yelled happily.
Selena and Ariana also greeted her happily.
She didn't say anything.
"Dems? Are you there? Is everything OK?” Selena asked.
"I'm not OK.” Demi said simply.
"What's wrong they all asked, clearly worried.
She told them everything, about the hate she was getting and how she did everything without noticing. She was now sobbing.
"Where are you Dems?” Miley asked her.
"Italy, I'm on tour.” she sobbed.
"I'll get on the next flight to Italy. I will be there as soon as possible.” Selena said.
"Me too.” Ariana said.
"I'll be there too.” Miley said.
Demi agreed and they soon hung up.
The girls advised her to go to sleep, so she did.
She was so grateful for her friends.
***
as soon as she got off the phone with Demi, Miley called Dianna and told her everything.
Dianna said she will talk to Demi's management and then the treatment center.
Now all Miley had to do was call Niall.
First she called Selena.
"Hey.” Selena answered clearly crying.
"Hi, you OK?” Miley asked.
"No... I'm really worried about her...” Selena said.
"Me too... Do you think we should call Niall?' Miley asked.
"I guess so... maybe we should wait till tomorrow. We'll see her and then we'll have all the details to tell him.. you know, where she is and all that.” Selena said.
"You're right... when will you get there?” Miley asked.
"I'm packing and me and Ari will probably be there by morning the latest.” Selena said.
"Yeah me too. I'll see you tomorrow, bye Sel.” Miley said.
"Bye, Miles.” Selena said.
***
the x-factor was over. Niall and the boys came out 3rd.
He was a little disappointed but they were immediately signed to Syco so it didn't really felt like a lose or like it was over.
He was currently at a bar with the boys. They were just hanging out together.
"Have you talked to Demi lately?” Louis asked him.
"After the finals... not since, she's really busy but I might go see her sometime soon.” Niall said.
"She's cool.” Louis continued.
"Yeah..” Niall said.
"What's wrong?” Louis asked him.
"I don't know... something about her just feels off lately..” Niall said.
"What do you mean?” Louis asked.
"I don't know.. she distant and it seems like she's not eating...” Niall said.
"She seems like an expert at faking a smile..” Louis said.
"What do you mean?” Niall asked him, confused.
"Takes one to know one... she's going through something or gone through something... she's not OK but she will be... We always are..” he said, mumbling the end.
"What have you gone through?” Niall asked.
"I will need to be much more drunk to tell you that..” Louis said, smiling at him.
The talk with Louis not only not calmed him but made him even more worried.
He decided to text her. “Hey, beautiful. Haven't talked to you in over a week.. I miss you. Call when you can.” he sent it.
***
the next morning Selena, Ariana and Miley met at the airport and made their way to Demi's hotel.
When she opened the door the all hugged her.
"It's going to be OK..” Miley whispered to her.
They were sitting on Demi's bed talking when there was a knock on the door.
Demi opened the door to reveal her mom standing there.
"Mom...” Demi said.
"Oh Dem...” he mom said, pulling her into a hug.
The 5 girls now sat on Demi's bed.
"OK, so I talked with you manager and explained him everything. I also talked to the treatment center and they are ready for you.” her mom said.
"What? No I can't go! I'm on tour, I can't just leave...” Demi said.
"Dems, you have to go.” Selena said.
"Why are you crying?” Demi asked her.
"Because I'm worried about you..” she said.
Ariana was silent the whole time. She was now crying, silently.
"Girls... stop crying..” Demi said, sadly.
"Then go to treatment, get better and then complete your tour..” Miley said.
"But.. what if when I come out, no one will want to hear me and no one will care about me anymore?” Demi asked.
"That won't happen. You need to go to treatment and get better. If you don't get better you can't continue the tour anyway.” Dianna said.
"OK..” Demi finally said, looking down.
"What about Niall? Do you want to call him? Do you want us to call him?” Miley asked.
"Can you call him? I can't do this...” Demi said.
Miley nodded.
They then packed all of Demi's things and made their way to the airport.
***
Niall was really worried now. He texted Demi a few days ago and she still hasn't answered him.
Suddenly, his phone went off.
"Hello?” he said.
"Niall, hi, it's Miley.” she said.
"Oh, hi. Is everything OK? Did something happen to Demi?” he asked panicked.
"Uhh.. yeah.” she started. “Don't worry she's physically fine.” she quickly added.
"I don't understand..” he said.
"There are thing you don't know about Demi...” she started.
"Like what? Please just tell me.. I'm going out of my mind here.” he said.
"Demi used to self harm herself. She was depressed and she used to starve herself.” she said quickly.
He didn't say anything. “She started doing it again.. so we're taking her to a treatment center.” she said.
He still hasn't said anything.
"Niall? Are you still there?' she asked.
"Yeah.. I'm here.. can I see her? Before she goes to treatment or while she's there?” he asked.
"You can see her before only if you get to LA in the next 24 hours.. you can't see her when she's in treatment.” she said.
"Can I talk to her? Is she next to you?” he asked.
"I don't know if she wants to talk.. she asked me to call you cause she couldn't do it herself..” she said.
"Please put her on the phone.. thell her she doesn't have to talk, I just want to tell her something..” he said.
"OK, just a sec.” she said.
She handed Demi the phone telling her it was Niall. Miley was surprised to see Demi's face light up. She took the phone and said a quiet “hi”.
"Dems...” Niall said.
She didn't say anything. She couldn't, he was crying and it broke her heart.
"Why didn't you tell me? Maybe I could have helped... I could have at least been there for you...” he started.
"I'm not mad at you so don't think that... I just, worry about you.. I'm going to fly to LA right now and I'll see you before you go to treatment.. OK?” he continued.
"You don't have to answer, I know you don't wanna talk, it's OK. I just wanted to tell you that I love you, so much. You have no idea how much... so just.. please, be OK. Cause I really need you, in my life..” he said, crying.
Her response was something that sounded like “mhm”.
"I love you, I'll see you soon.” he said and then the line went dead.
He threw a few things into a duffle bag and quickly made his way to the airport.
***
Niall finally go to LA. He was now on his way to Demi's house, her mom's house.
When he got there, Dianna opened the door for him. Inside was Demi and the girls, packing. Maddie was there too.
Ariana was the first to notice him.
She nudged Demi and mouthed her something Niall didn't catch.
Demi got up and went to Niall.
Without saying anything, she took his hand and pulled him toward her room.
They went in and she closed the door.
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you... it's just that.. it was part of my past and I decided to live in the after.. that's what Miley called it..” she said.
He just looked at her. She was the same girl, the beautiful girl he was in love with and yet she was so different. She looked tired and pale. She seemed insecure, she kept tugging at her sleeves and looking down at her feet.
"Why did you start doing it again?” he asked.
She told him about the hate and then she tried explaining to him how it all happened without her even realizing.
He had tears in his eyes. “No.. don't cry... It's OK.” she said.
"Can I hug you?” he asked.
"Please.” she said.
He stepped closed and gathered her in his arms. She wrapped her arms around his chest holding him as close as possible.
"You will get through this.. just stay strong.” he whispered to her.
He knew she was crying because he could feel his shirt getting wetter and wetter.
He pulled back and looked her in the eyes.
"I'm sorry..” she whispered.
"Don't be..” he said.
She stepped closer and kissed him softly.
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you... I'm not perfect, not at all but... I love you.” she said.
"You are perfect to me. Nothing can scare me away from you, don't you get it? I love you.” he said.
They just stood there, hugging for a long time.
Later they drove Demi to the treatment center and Niall hugged her again and whispered to her, “Stay strong.” he then kissed her softly. She hugged everyone goodbye and went and hugged Niall one last time.
"I'll miss you... I love you.” she said.
"I love you too, I'll be here when you come out.” he said and kissed her forehead.
A\N: chapter 25!!! hope you liked... this story feels like it's going downhill... sorry about that.. anyway, hope you beared with this chapter and as always, comment, vote and share.. xx