Struggles of a Fangirl

By SincerelyPink

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Being a fan girl is hard and Kacey Miller is all types of awkward, naturally and socially. But she's also the... More

Struggles of a Fangirl
The Struggle
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Struggle #21

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MB had a show in South Carolina earlier so we got to chill today and ended up going to the mall. Of course the boys got mobbed by fans after 15 minutes of walking into the mall. Surprisingly, the fans wanted pictures with us too and auto graphs. So much stuff was being shoved in my face to sign and there were cameras all up in my face. I'm used to the chaos backstage at one of MB's shows but this was a whole nother level of craziness. Even after Kenneth was able to hold the girls back long enough for us and MB to go shop without being stalked, my ears still rang from all the squealing and shouting the fans did. Not like I can blame them, a few weeks ago if I saw MB in the mall I'd burst out in tears of joy and probably pass out.

I was sitting in the food court with Joya and Yannie when Renee races over to us, excitement written all over her face. She jumps into the booth besides Yannie with the widest smile in the world, plastered on her face. We all exchange a look as she nearly explodes with excitment. She looks at us individually, "You're not gonna ask me why I'm so happy?" She asks.

Joya rolls her eyes, "Alright drama queen, why are you so happy?"

Renee sighs dreamily, "So we were in that sneaker store Champs right? I'm like oh I like those shoes right there and Roc was like oh you got nice taste in sneakers. So I'm like I'm a sneaker fan and he was like foreal? So we start having this whole conversation on sneakers and then he says that he'll buy me some. I'm like please don't because I don't want to look like a gold digger or anything. And we start arguing about him buying me the shoes and next thing I know, boom, he's purchased the shoes in my exact size. He claims he's a good estimater when it comes to what size a person's feet are and he really is cuz the shoes fit!" She exclaims.

I laugh, "Roc is so sweet, he's like a big teddy bear."

"I know!" Renee beams again, "But the best part is...he bought the same pair of sneakers for him self!"

Our mouths drop open in surprise and Yannie leans in with a smirk, "Wait so you guys are basically doing that matching couple thing?"

"I don't even know! We're not even together so...ugh it's driving me crazy. Roc isnt big about expressing emotions but I maybe this is his way of showing me that he likes me." Renee babbles out, tapping her nails on the table.

"Ohh he's a big baller." Joya says slyly, "Are you gonna show us the shoes or what?"

"Oh my bad," Renee reaches down to pick up the bag by her feet. She pulls out the box with the Jordan's logo on the top. She opens the lid to reveal black white and red sneakers. I keep myself from saying anything insulting because honestly, I have no clue why everyone is dying to get these. They look like every other pair of Jordans out there, just a different color scheme. I'm really not a sneaker person unless it's somthing simple like converse, vans or basic nikes. I don't even know sneaker names other than the talked about Grapes...which is a stupid name for a shoe that is mostly white.

After gathering everyone up, we ride in the SUV, heading back to the hotel we're staying in until later on tonight. Walter turns around in his seat to look at us, a wide smile appears on his face and we all exchang confused glances. Ray speaks up first, "Walt, why are you looking at us like you want to eat us?" He asks, quirking his thin eyebrow upwards.

Walter laughs and takes off his dark shades, "Well I got a little call from BET today..." He folds his shades and places them into his shirt pocket, purposely drawing out what he has to say. "They called to remind us that the BET awards are in two weeks, but yall already knew that because of the invitation they sent."

"Yeah we know that." Roc says shrugging like its not big deal.

Walter nods, "Well did yall know that they also want yall to be the opening act for the show?"

The boys all lean forward in unison, there eyes widening to the size of bowling balls. "Hold up," Prince says, "You mean for the pre-show or the actual show?"

"The actual show!" Walter says, smirking like he's the best manager in the world...which to the boys he is. The car errupts with screams of happiness from the boys, I swear tears started welling up in Prod's eyes as he covered his mouth in the surprise. "Yo I can't believe this. BET wants us to open up for them for real this time. Yo this is amazing, wait till I tell my parents."

"I thought they would want bigger stars like Kanye or Nicki, this is crazy!" Ray exclaims, happiness clrealy evident in the smile radiating on his face. He subconsiously slings an arm around Yannie, he doesn't notice the smile that spreads on her face but I sure do. She nearly melts in his arms as he begins gushing to her about how happy he is.

Walter frowns and cuts off the radio that was playing some Beyonce song. "Look yall, I know the music industry seems to doubt you and compare you to One Direction, but I'm gonna tell yall now that yall the star potential. They don't know it yet, but the MB take over is real and it's about to take the world by storm. We're gonna make this performance the best one of the night, we're gonna get yall a nice set and some bomb ass clothes. Everyone is gonna stop sleepin on yall just cuz you're teenagers, yall gonna show them that yall mean business despite your age. Alright?"

The boys nod and I feel obligated to nod along too. These past weeks I've grown together and became a team, I feel like we're part of the group too. Alot of work goes in to make Mindless Behavior look so glamourous and I'm happy that I get to be a part of the behind the scenes action. Walter looks at each of his boys and smiles, "Alright then. MB WHAT?" He yells.

"MB TAKEOVER 2K13!" The boys yell back in one voice. This is probably the sweetest moment between the boy's I've ever seen. These are the moments that I wish TM could see, this is when it shows that they really are brothers and all in this together. I look at each boy, each one of them have a new light in the eyes like their energy has just been refreshed. This really is the MB take over.

We make it back to the hotel and ride the elevator up to our rooms to chill until it's time to go back on the buses. Before I could step foot into the girls room, someone grabs my arms gently. I turn around as Joya brushes past me to find Prince standing behind me. "Can I talk to you for a second Kacey?" He asks.

I have to pinch my side hard in order to believe this is real, because if I wake up kissing a teddy bear again I'm going to have to go to a shrink to clear my head. "Sure," I reply, turning fully to follow him to the boys room. London catches my eye as I walk by her, I toss a smug smile in her direction and can practically feel the daggers from her eyes stabbing me in my back. Ha, in your face Paris!

An arm shooting out infront of me nearly knocks me backwards when we arrive at the boys room, "Hey whoa, where are you going?" Walter barks at me like he's the security guard.

"Chill Walt, we're just going to talk for a bit." Prince reassures him. "I promise I wont behave mindlessly." He begins cracking up at his own joke while Walter and I stare at him. He literally laughs for a good minute and I can't help but smile a little at how corny his jokes are.

"No funny buisness," Walter warns, moving his arm out my path so I can walk in. Prince rolls his eyes and I follow him through the hotel room and towards his room. He opens the door and we come face to face with a shirtless Prod. My mouth drops as I take in his beautifully sculpted abs. Two shirtless MB members in the matter of two days, the Lord is really testing my sanity.

Prince clears his throat, snapping me out of yet another daze. Prodigy laughs, "I was just heading towards the bathroom. Kacey's the one staring like she wants to eat me." He says playfully, shooting an adorable smirk in my direction. I hear Myles laugh in the living room, "Kacey has hungry eyes."

"Shut up DJ Big Head," I yell back at him, walking farther into the room and sitting down on the bed with the star wars pillow on it. Prince shuts the door and comes over, sprawling across the bed on his back. He looks up at the cieling and I stare at him puzzled, why did he bring me in here if he's just gonna lay there like a soggy puffball? I don't get a chance to ask before he speak up. "Kacey you're a girl right?"

My body goes rigid and a stank expression creases my face, what kind of question is that? I mean I don't have boobs the size of Texas but I've got a little something something in there. Prince must have seen my expression because he quickly fixes his mistake, "No not like that," He laughs a little flustered. "I mean, you think like a girl."

"Um...yeah apparently." I respond, scrunching my eyebrows up.

Prince sighs dramatically, "What do you do when you like a girl...and she likes you but....you're both afraid to admit it? I mean they're both cool around eachother and there's obviously a vibe between them but...I don't. What if the guy is reading into the situation too much?"

"Well tell me about the girl." I say, my stomach twisting into nots from anticipation. Prince smiles and turns to look at me with those huge brown eyes, please dont let this be a dream. I pinch myself one more time just to make sure.

"For starters, she's really pretty but kind of insecure. She's goofy when she wants to be but also a little laid back." He says, his smile getting a little wider the more he speaks. "She's down to earth, charming and her style is pretty unique. She's someone I can relate to." At this point my cheeks are burning up, Yannie was right, I really do make it obvious that I like Prince. He keeps staring at me and I shift under his intese gaze. He finally blinks and looks up at the ceiling again. "What should I do? I already asked the boys but they're being all materialistic. I mean Roc got Renee a pair of sneakers and Latimore is planning on taking Joya to a Drake concert later in the week."

I pull my knees up to my chest and rest my head on my arms, "I think you should just tell her. I mean if you guys both have this vibe going on, then it should be no problem unless she's leading you on...even though it doesnt sound like she is."

Prince groans and rolls off the bed, "Yeah but I dont want to just ask her out, I want it to be a romantic moment." He says..."Like when guys ask girls to prom by writing it on a pizza box and the pizza is in the shape of a heart."

"Prince that's so corny but any girl would be lucky to get that from you." I say, still blushing hard. I would accept that pizza in a heartbeat and then we could sit on the floor and eat it together.

'Actually, that's it!" Prince says, pacing back and forth. "I'll ask her to be my date to the BET awards, you think London will like that?"

The world freezes at soon as the words leave his mouth. The ringing in my ears come back and I feel like crawling under the bed and never coming out. This whole time I was thinking he was referring to me when he was really talking about Lonndon!? I face palm myself with a stupid grin on my face. I keep building up my hopes just to watch them fall and---hold up!

London is down to earth? Charming? Charismatic? Unique? Are we talking about London Michaels because she looks just like the rest of the girls. Booty shorts, crop tops and buns is the definition of London, she's the typical Tumblr girl. But of course Prince would be attracted to her...its beauty over brains with him I guess.

"Kacey?" Prince asks, waving his hand in my face.

I stand up from the bed and slip my flip flops back on, "I'm sure she'd love to be your date Prince. I gotta go, I promised my mom I'd do more of my summer reading today." I reply, my voice sounding dead to my ears.

Prince puts his hands on my shoulders, "Are you ok Kacey?"

I drop my eyes to the floor so he won't see the tears welling up in my eyes. "Never better," I lie before turning and making a break for the door. Just as I reach for the knob, the door flies open and bashes me in the nose. Arms go around my waist, catching me before I can hit the floor. I feel something wet trickle from nose and make a trail across my lips and cheek. I blink the stars out my eyes and look up to see find Prodigy and Prince staring down at me, they're both talking but I can't hear anything but the ringing in my ears.

Not only does my heart hurt, but now my nose does too.

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