Emptiness. Lost. Lonely. Pointless. Many more. Who could ever feel like this? Who could be in such dispare? Such disappointment? Such depression. Oh yah. Me.
I put on a fake smile then to leave my miserable place to go to a fake yet
"happy" place. I wish I could really be there. It's like my shell is there but I'm really not. It's just not right. It's not the same. Can it be this hard to see how I really feel? I always hear "life is full of surprises!" . No. It's full of disappointment, anger, and pain. This is ,so called, "happiness". If someone is "happy" they lie.
I need someone to help me. Someone to show me the way. Show me how to love. Show me real life. Fix me. Show me how to be me. I need some one to show me "happiness".