Nam knocked on Beckett's door.
"Khun Fin ka... can I come in?"
There was a heavy moment of silence but then finally she heard his voice from inside.
"Kub... sure." He said.
Nam pushed his door open slowly, and stepped in to find him sitting at the edge of his bed, looking down at his feet, his arms folded across.
"Can we talk?"
Again, another heavy moment of silence until he said, "Kub... sure na."
She came up to sit down beside him, and put an arm around his shoulder. "Are you upset that I'm leaving?"
"You're just gonna up and leave? Just like that? What about Ma? Ma needs you here." Beckett said.
"Come here na..." Nam said, as she pulled his head down to rest on her shoulder. "Your moms are perfectly fine. It's alright to admit you need me na? I'd be offended if you implied you didn't..."
He chuckled lightly.
"I need you, Auntie..."
It was so vulnerable and sweet and Nam had never felt her heart break so bad before. Nam was about to say something, when he lifted his head off her shoulder, sighed and then looked at her.
"But I do understand this is your chance to have the family and the life you've probably always dreamed of, Auntie..."
Nam nodded slowly, still so overwhelmed and proud of this little boy she's watched grow in front of her eyes.
"And I do understand we've kept you to ourselves long enough..." Beckett added.
Nam smiled. Beckett put his arms around her and gave her a tight hug.
"I'm sorry na, you deserve this and so much more." He said. "I'll miss you..."
"I'm gonna be just one call away, my little Fin..." Nam assured him and kissed his head.
When they were about to head downstairs, Beckett suddenly went back into his room.
"What is it?" Nam asked him.
"Stay right there." He told her.
He came back out and handed her this little red blanket. "A little gift for your baby, whenever he or she's out in the world."
Nam looked down at the tiny little blanket and a flood of emotions overwhelmed her. She had given this little blanket to him when he was about a year and half. And he would hold on to it while sleeping. He'd carry it around the house with him when he'd first learned to walk. It held every memory of his firsts.
"Beckett Fin, I can't have this... this is yours na ka..." Nam insisted.
"Who said it's for you?" He said with a smile. "I said it's for your and Auntie Mind's baby."
"Then come give it to me when he or she is born na?" Nam said with a smile, holding it out to him.
Beckett thought for a moment and finally took it back. "Deal!" he said.
//
"I honestly thought it would take longer to have him come around." Freen said as they walked up to their bedroom.
"You underestimate our kids' level of maturity..." Becky said, reaching to take Freen's hand in hers so that they could walk the rest of the way hand in hand.
"You had something you wanted to tell me, today at the cafe?" Freen suddenly remembered, as Becky switched off the corridor lights and they entered their bedroom.
Becky face visibly fell. "Oh cai..."
"Tell me now?" Freen said.
"Ka, sit down na..." Becky instructed her.
Freen sat on the edge of her side of the bed and Becky sat down beside her.
"The day the accident happened–"
"Hey... you already told me that what I saw in my dream wasn't true, you weren't at the wheel, I know that, Becky."
"Cai... but hear me out." Becky said. "I wasn't at the wheel, but I was definitely the reason why you were in that car at that time of day placed at that road where the truck hit you."
Freen looked so worried, Becky couldn't face her.
"Becky... look at me na..." Freen said.
Becky finally looked up and saw so much concern and love in her eyes.
"Please be open with me." Freen said.
"We were fighting that day, we had a conversation about how I've been working too much and we've not had enough quality time together. And I told you I was home that day and if you could come home by 4, we'd get to spend some alone time together..."
"Okay.." Freen said, nodding her head.
"Well, work came up, and I had to go to the office. But I typed out the text to inform you not to rush yourself to get home by 4 and forgot to hit send. And I only realized that after you'd been hit..."
Becky was shaking. Re-telling this incident, re-living this incident always shook her up like this. It really was her fault. They wouldn't have had to go through any of this had she just...
"I'm sorry Freen, I'm so sorry... I was a horrible wife to you, I should have been there for you. I wish we've never had that argument that day, I wished I'd never have had to rush to work like that, I wish you never left the gallery early that day hoping that I was going to be home..."
"Baby... oh my god... baby..." Freen was cradling Becky's face in her soft palms. "Baby... this accident, this tragedy, was not your fault. I hate how much you've made yourself believe such a thing. The person at fault was the driver behind the wheel of that speeding truck. No one else. So what if I still don't remember everything? I remember enough to know you love me and this family with all your heart. You were trying to make the time even when work was bad, you were trying, and that's all that matters to me. That you care. You still care so much."
Becky was still shaking. Freen moved her fingers along Becky's cheek, caressed her face lovingly, "Take a deep breath baby, I'm here. I'm right here na... and I'm fine. I'm safe. and I'm not going anywhere."
She could feel Becky visibly relax by the second. She leaned in and grasped Becky's lips between hers and kissed ever so softly, letting her hands wander down Becky's arms.
"Let me make you feel good." She said against Becky's ears. And it caused a slight chuckle from Becky. Freen was proud. She let her hand graze over Becky's thighs.
"I'm ready na..." Freen said.
"For?" Becky asked.
"To make love to you." Freen said.
"Ka?" Becky teased.
"Ka..." Freen whispered at Becky ear again. She then pulled away, stood up, made her way to stand between Becky's legs and pushed her lightly to make her lay back on the bed.
Becky smiled smugly and kept herself propped up on her elbows to watch.
"I promise you Becky, you're stuck with me now..." Freen said as she began to unbutton her shirt.
"I wouldn't have it any other way, babe..." Becky said with a smile. And rose up again, and pulled Freen but suddenly to fall on the bed with her. Freen squealed as she stumbled and fell over Becky, and Becky kissed her wildly.
"Actually, can you give me 10 minutes? I'd like to take a quick shower..." Becky said.
Freen raised an eyebrow.
"It's been a long day, babe..." Becky started. Freen laughed and kissed her.
"I have no problem with that... but... can I join you?" Freen asked.
"Since when did you start asking?" Becky teased as she got up off the bed, and held her hand out to Freen. Freen took it and she led her to their bathroom.
Freen stood by the washbasin, and watched Becky go ahead and turn the shower on, she let her fingers test the temperature of the water, before turning back around to look at Freen to study her.
She found Freen standing with her arms folded across her torso, watching Becky.
"Babe ka, if you're not... I mean if you've changed your mind..."
"Becky, I want this..." Freen assured.
Becky smiled. She then began to undress right there before Freen, and Freen couldn't help but feel slightly giddy, the more and more Becky revealed herself to her. She shifted her weight from one foot to the other, her gaze had wandered down to Becky's body, she remembered every inch of her, yet it all felt so new...
When she looked back up at Becky's face, she found Becky smiling smugly, her eyes sparkling.
"I'll wait for you... inside..." Becky said, pulling the slider door open again, backing up into the shower cubicle, and then closing it halfway.
Two adjacent sides of the cubicle were foggy glass, and the other two, tiled walls. The shower spray was from the top, a broad square that was generous in its spray.
Freen nodded, and then mentally berated herself for not using her words. But she watched through the foggy glass, as Becky, her perfect wife, perfect mother to her kids, stood under the shower and let her fingers run through her hair.
Freen took a deep breath, trying to calm her nerves. Was she nervous? Hell yea...
It surely had been a while. But there was also a longing in her, a yearning to feel intimate with her wife again, to feel that affection in a more physical form, after drowning in it, in it's more emotional avatar.
Freen took another deep breath and then began undressing. The entire time, her anticipation only growing. She was completely bare, her mind focused on one goal, being as close to Becky as possible. She took about 3 steps forward when something caught her eye. Her reflection, in the tall mirror fixed on the wall outside.
She stopped, and looked at herself, and her hands immediately went over to those stretch marks on her waist. She wondered what Becky thought of her body. Would Becky ever grow to dislike her body someday? Partners sometimes lose interest in one another physically, could that become a reality for them too?
Freen was too busy spiraling in her mind to notice the slider door open, and Becky walked out to come up behind her.
It wasn't until she felt a warm tingle against her bare back, that she felt her presence behind her, and then she felt Becky press up against her, her warm, wet body, against her bare back. Freen closed her eyes as Becky's arms wound around her middle.
"Keep them open, baby..." Becky whispered softly at her left ear. And Freen obeyed. She began to kiss along frequently neck, and Freen felt her body come alive.
"I've missed you so much..." Becky whispered.
"Becky..." Freen gasped, as Becky lightly bit down on her skin.
"Every inch of you." Becky added, as her hands on Freen's front began to get more explorative. Freen's body shivered. Goosebumps erupted on her skin.
Becky chuckled, feeling Freen shiver against her. "I wish I could take credit for that shiver, but you're cold, and my body temperature has risen from the shower so your body's confused..." Becky tried to explain.
Freen laughed, a hearty one at that.
"No, I think it's most definitely you..." Freen said, her eyes locked on Becky's in the mirror.
"Come inside na, I'll keep you warm..." Becky said between kisses down her bare creamy shoulder, and then turned Freen around gently, and kissed her lips, backing up and bringing Freen to follow her, their lips inseparable.
Once they were under the shower together, they each took their own time touching, caressing, soaping one another up.
Freen couldn't help but feel all mushy inside, every time she caught Becky's gaze. There was something about the way Becky looked at her body, there was adoration, and so much love, and it was all so overwhelming. Freen just wanted to kiss her the entire time.
All of the touching, all of the kissing, all of the sensations she could feel being this close to Becky, bare and vulnerable, it was getting her body so riled up. She wondered how long she could hold back from just...
"This has gotta be the longest you've resisted from just getting us straight down to it... lost your impatience along with the memories na?" Becky teased.
That's when Freen leaned in and whispered into her ear, "If you make me wait even a minute longer, I will combust."
Becky burst out laughing and kissed Freen, the kiss growing more heated now.
Without needing to look, Becky reached out and turned the shower off, she pulled open the slider door, and they stumbled out together, kissing and touching and so impatient.
Becky pulled back desperately then and panting, she said, "Hold on baby, let me get us towels, dry us up, and then I'll take you to bed and make love to you." Becky said, moving backwards, letting go of Freen's hands.
"It should be illegal for you to say such things out aloud..." Freen said.
Becky laughed as she turned around and found the towels. When she came back to Freen, and began to gently dab at her skin, wiping her skin dry of the tiny droplets that gleamed on her creamy skin, she had to stop herself from wanting to sip the water right off her skin. When she stood back up, Freen's eyes were closed.
"Hey... okay mai?" Becky asked.
Freen opened her eyes, they had gone so dark, it almost did her in right there. "Hmmm..."
"All dried up, babe..." Becky confirmed.
Freen bit her lip and then admitted, "Well, not exactly..."
And Becky knew exactly what she meant. Becky had to stop herself from wanting to get on her knees right now and taste Freen's beautiful wetness. She smiled.
"I know..." She said and Freen laughed. Becky dried off too, and then took Freen's hand and led her out to their bed.
"Babe..."
"If you ask me once more if I'm ready, I swear to God, I'll just take care of myself!"
"No!" Becky laughed. "Okay, understood."
They stood before their bed, facing one another, holding one another's hands and not saying anything.
"I gotta ask though..." Freen started softly. "Becky, are you okay with this...? You don't have to feel like you have to do this for me na..."
Becky looked concerned now. "Why would you think I'm not okay with this?"
"It's just... everything in your life has been moving according to my pace recently, and I just want to make sure you're just as in this as I am..."
Becky stepped closer then, and Freen gasped as skin touched skin. "I could never not want you, Freen."
A kiss.
"You're on my mind every waking moment of the day, and in every dream I ever dream..."
A kiss.
Freen's body shuddered. Her hands flew to wind around Becky's shoulders.
"I would have waited a thousand lifetimes for you to come around..." Becky said.
A kiss again. And this time, Freen wasn't letting her pull back. But she somehow managed to get the words in, "I will always want you, Freen. Only you."
They soon found themselves tangled together in bed, lips kissing wherever they could. Hands roaming wildly and with renewed passion, soft breaths and moans and whimpers filling the room.
Freen's hand inched down Becky's abdomen, only to be stopped abruptly by Becky's hand.
"Let me..."
"Tonight's about you, babe." Becky said, the kisses and nibbles at her skin at her lips never stopping.
"Why can't it be about us?" Freen asked, looking at Becky with so much love and adoration in her eyes, Becky felt her insides melt.
Becky chuckled. "Okay ka... but later na? This moment is about you..."
In one swift movement, Becky had nudged Freen's shoulder so she was lying on her back, and pulled her knees apart so Becky could sit there between her legs, her eyes focused on Freen's center.
Freen couldn't take it, her gaze, it was so powerful, so passionate, so focused on her.
"Oh Becky..." She couldn't' help the exclamation, it left her lips involuntarily.
"Babe, you've always been so beautiful..." Becky said, looking up at Freen for a second before diving right in, sending Freen into a fit of moans and whimpers.
Freen's back arched off the bed, her eyes shut tight, her fingers tightening their hold on the sheets. "Oh GOD!" She grunted out when Becky flicked her tongue against her clit, and then licked along the length of her folds, kissing wildly and mercilessly.
"You're so wet!" Becky said between kisses.
"I've... I've been waiting..." Freen managed to say between heavy breaths.
Becky rewarded her for that by adding her fingers to the mix, very slowly entering her and leaving Freen breathless.
"You dreamed of me..." Becky spoke into her skin, kissing her inner thigh and then going right back in, slowing down her pace just to make this last longer for Freen.
But Freen wasn't having any of it. "Faster baby..."
"Shhh... you don't wanna wake the kids na?" Becky teased, adding another finger in, slowly moving her digits in and out, while her tongue and lips kept busy at Freen's clit.
Freen's body was writhing. "Cai, bebe... I had a dream... of you... that afternoon I napped here..."
Freen then turned her face to the side and took a deep breath. "The linen smells of you, it was...." Freen's voice was higher pitched
Becky dipped her tongue in deep, "OH!" Freen moaned.
"It was intoxicating... like you were all around me..." Freen added.
"What did you see in the dream?" Becky asked, her voice lower than Freen had ever remembered hearing, her hand reaching up to lightly tug at Freen's nipple, Freen's hand flew over hers and guided her to squeeze her breast.
"You were right where you are now..." Freen said.
"Good..." Becky said, a smugness to her voice that Freen was happy to elicit.
"Baby, I'm really close..."
"Then let go baby... I got you..."
Becky quickened her pace, her fingers thrusting harder, faster, her tongue and lips doing sinful things to Freen's clit. Freen's hand flew to the back of Becky's head, and if it didn't make things hotter than they already were for Becky, she could feel her own center, moist and ready.
"Oh Becky! BECKY! BECKY I love you... yess yess yesss.."
Freen came loud and shamelessly and Becky didn't have the heart to quieten her down. She was glorious and unapologetically beautiful, raw and real, just like she had always been.
Freen moved her fingers lovingly through Becky's hair, her breathing coming back to normal as Becky kissed her way up Freen's body, worshipping her skin. Freen brought her face up to kiss her ever so gently, slowly, softly, allowing herself to taste herself on Becky's lips.
"I want to taste you..." Freen said.
"I'm not done with you yet..." Becky said, as her hand found Freen's center again and Freen shut her eyes.
"I don't know if..." Freen began to say, her face flushed.
"Oh you can, trust me, I know... " Becky said confidently even as her fingers already began to play between Freen's legs.
Freen looked at her with so much passion and then she shut her eyes, the sensations taking over her body again.
"Just allow yourself to feel, my love.."
The endearment was so heartfelt, it warmed Freen's heart and brought her body alive all over again, this one was gonna be shorter, she knew it.
Freen kissed Becky with renewed vigor, she lost control of the kiss eventually, her whole attention focused on the feelings Becky was making her feel.
Freen noticed how Becky was almost grinding her own self down on her hand between them, and knew she wanted to please her wife soon after this orgasm. And that only heightened her anticipation, aroused her further, the thought of watching her wife come at the mercy of her lips, it did her in.
She came once more, her moans this time, muffled by Becky's own lips and kisses. Minutes later, when she caught her breath again, and looked towards Becky who was staring at her so adoringly from her side, their legs still entangled.
"Your turn..." Freen said.
"Are you tired, babe?" Becky asked softly.
"What? No." Freen assured, not wanting for Becky to even think they should stop right now.
"Good. Cause I intend to make you come again."
Freen's eyes widened.
//
When Becky's eyes opened, she noticed the light in the room, and knew it was probably time to get up.
But her attention was immediately drawn to the lonely feeling in her bed. She opened her eyes fully and looked around and then sat up with a start. Where was Freen?
She checked her phone and found a text from Freen.
From My Wife🤍:
I'm so sorry you had to wake up alone, bebe. But I woke up about an hour ago and felt this urgent need to get something done. Something I had left incomplete at the gallery. Please don't worry na, I'll be home soon. I've taken the gallery keys and I'll take a cab there. But if it'll make you feel any better, I'll send you my location. I love you!
And soon after that text was her live location and Becky could see she was at the gallery.
Becky breathed a sigh of relief. She got out from under the covers and went straight to the bathroom, washed up, put on some fresh clothes and went out to get started on breakfast for the kids, checking Freen's location every now and then, just to make sure she's alright. She felt an odd sense of emptiness that she couldn't wake up to Freen's beautiful face. She'd call her later.
Maybe Freen needed some space from her? Maybe she overdid it last night? Could that be it? Becky was feeling uneasy but decided maybe coffee might help.
While walking downstairs however she took comfort in the fact that Freen probably had some other memories come back to her. Because Freen knew where the gallery keys were, how to get there and also some confidence of getting back home safe on her own.
Becky was grateful for small victories.
To be continued.
Hey guys... I'll update two last chapters tomorrow. Sorry for any mistakes. Thanks for reading na ❤️