(TW!! Mentions of overdosing and s/h!)
I find myself running, tears falling down my face. Alyssa is chasing after me. "Adrian!" She calls. I barely even hear her. My backpack is calling for me, I swear I can hear it.
I rush into my tent, zip-tying the zipper shut so that she can't get in. "Adrian open the tent!" She yells, banging on the door.
"Go the fuck away Alyssa!" I scream, rummaging through my backpack. My hands land on all of the drugs I took out of that car, including the unidentified pill in the bag.
My vision is blinded by tears so I wipe at my eyes, my hands shaking as I open the Ziploc bag.
"Adrian please!" Her voice cracks but I can tell she's trying to maintain her composure.
My shaking hands grab the six pills in the bag and a bottle of water, I toss the pills in my mouth then take a drink of water, washing them down. Onto the next bottle, Ecstasy. I haven't taken this since the night I overdosed.
I dump all of the pills into my mouth and take them three at a time, washing them down with water each time. By the time I've taken all of the Ecstasy and the unknown pill, I've taken nineteen pills. My world begins to shake, I can barely make my hands move to my backpack to grab my bottle of Fentanyl.
Before I manage to grab it, Alyssa's words fade out and I feel myself collapse onto the ground.
"Alyssa!" A muffled noise comes from outside the tent.
"Lori please! I think Adrian's doing something bad you have to open the tent, please!" She sobs. I hear Glenns voice say, "Shit! What do we do?!" Then Rick's saying, "Lori! Go grab Hershel right now incase something's happened, we need him here stat!" I hear departing footsteps.
With the leftover strength that I have, I grab my dagger and dig it into my wrist, blood falling onto the tent.
You should have told him. You shouldn't have lied to everyone...and yourself. You deserve this.
Those words repeat over and over in my mind.
My body goes limp and I'm just barely conscious when I see a knife plunge into the tent door and see Glenn, Alyssa, Rick, and Daryl all standing there, Daryl is holding the knife.
Alyssa gasps and turns away, Daryl runs into the tent, his eyes lay onto my wrist and my empty pill bottles.
"She overdosed! Adrian! Adrian can you hear me?!" He yells, shaking me. "You were right..." I manage to croak out before the world goes black.
(Third person view:) "Where the hell is Hershel?!" Rick screams, Hershel comes running up. Daryl is still shaking Adrian, he's put a bandanna on her cut up wrist and forearm. Alyssa sobs and collapses to the ground, Dale runs up and holds onto her.
"What the hell happened?!" Hershel exclaims, running into the tent. "I don't know!" Daryl yells, helping pick up Adrian. "Get her to the house, now! " Hershel yells, him and Daryl break out into an almost-run, it's a little difficult when you're carrying dead weight.
"ADRIAN!" Alyssa screams, bending over and sobbing into the ground. "Where the hell is Shane?!" Glenn asks, tears forming in his eyes. "Practicing shooting with Andrea! Shit!" Rick stomps his foot. Shane's car pulls up and him and Andrea step out of the car. His eyes land on Daryl and Hershel carrying a body, Alyssa on the ground sobbing, Rick looking around, trying to figure out what to do, and Glenn trying to hold in his tears.
"What the hell is going on?!" He yells, his heart pounding.
"Adrian overdosed." Glenn whispers, Alyssa whimpers at his words. Shane feels his knees buckle and he leans up against the hood of the car for support. Rick runs over to him. "Oh my god..." Andrea whispers, covering her mouth.
"Hershel got here just in time. He's gonna help her." Rick says, trying to reassure Shane. Shane looks at Rick. "What. Happened." "I don't know. The only person who might is Alyssa and I don't think she's going to be telling anyone anytime soon." Rick looks at Alyssa who is crying so hard, her nose is starting to bleed, Lori runs over and hugs her, rocking her back and forth. Dale stands up and walks away from Alyssa.
"What the hell do we do?" He asks. "We wait." Rick answers. "She'll wake up." Shane reassures Rick, or himself. "She did before, she will again."
"Before?" Everyone but Rick and Glenn wonder.
(End of third person view)
I groan and turn my head, the world finally coming into view. "Adrian!" Alyssa whisper-yells. I can't even move my mouth, I can barely even open my eyes, I just groan.
She breaks out into a sob. My dad stands up too, leaning over me on the opposite side of the bed from Alyssa.
"Jesus Adrian, what the hell happened?" My dad sighs, rubbing his head.
"Dad! Be glad she's alive." Alyssa's voice cracks. When it finally hits me what I've done, I begin to sob. I can't tell if it's because I survived or I put everyone through that...again.
"Alyssa." I sob, wrapping her in a hug, my dad joins the hug, trying to hold in his tears.
"I thought you were dead Adrian, again!" Alyssa bawls. "I know, I know." I whisper.
When we break the hug, I look down and see my wrist wrapped in a blood-soaked bandage. I whimper at the sight.
"You wanna tell me what the hell happened?" My dad asks. I shake my head, my lip quivering. "No...not really." He nods slightly.
It hits me that I have no idea how long I've been asleep for. "How long have I been out for?" "Almost a day, it's 'tomorrow morning'." My dad uses air quotes and points outside.
The morning light seeps through the blinds on the window.
I groan and try to get out of bed. "Woah, woah, woah." Shane says, lightly pushing me back on the bed. "I don't want to be laying in this damn bed all day." I say, shoving his hands off me and trying to stand up but black seeps into my vision and I hold onto the cherrywood headboard.
"Adri!" Alyssa exclaims. "I'm fine." I wave her off. She huffs, "Look Adrian. I get it, you're angry that you survived. You're angry about Gl-what happened." She looks at Shane and then back at me. "But you cannot shut me out! You can't be angry at me because I practically saved your ass!" "Language." Shane warns. "Shut up about language!" She screams. "I thought you were dead and you just wave me off like I'm a burden! You are my best friend Adrian! You can't just give up like that! You promised! YOU PROMISED!" I end her sentence by hugging her, she wails in my arms.
"I know, Alyssa." My voice cracks. "And I am so sorry. But sometimes, those old thoughts crawl back into my fucked-up brain and take control over me." I cup her face, "But I will never do it again." "But you-" "I know. But I'm putting it on your life." I hold out my pinky.
She hesitates, tears still falling. Reluctantly, she wraps her pinky around mine and we both kiss our thumbs.
"Now can I please go outside. I feel cramped in here." I plead. Shane nods and all three of us walk out of the house.
We walk to the area where our tents are and everyone's heads turn towards me. "Adrian." Rick whispers.
I nod, "Alive and wel-alive." He smiles and approaches me, cautious if he's allowed to hug me or not. I hug him first instead.
He hugs me tight, like a bear hug.
He breaks the hug and cups my cheek, "You feel okay?" I nod.
"Adrian." Glenns voice speaks from behind me. I turn to him, seeing his face makes my lip quiver and my eyes begin to water.
He goes to hug me but I hesitate, trying to think if I can even hug him.
I do.
We wrap each other in our arms and when I feel his arms around me, I feel like all of my problems go away. Like they've evaporated. Walkers don't exist, Nick never existed, my wrist isn't wrapped in a bandage, my tent door isn't cut open, nothing.
When we break the hug, he smiles a close-mouthed smile and steps back.
I turn and Lori hugs me tight. "Jesus Adrian." She whispers, hugging me even tighter. "I know." I whisper back. When we break the hug I walk over to Daryl.
"Thank you." I whisper. "Sh." He shushes me. "And I just wanna say I told you so." I scoff and nod, smiling. "Yep, you were right."
When I finish hugging everyone, Rick hands me a bowl of soup and I sit around the fire.
(Summary:) Adrian witnesses Glenn and Maggie kiss, which breaks her heart. She realizes that she is, in fact, in love with Glenn but she realizes that too late. She runs to her tent and takes multiple pills and cuts her wrists. Because she zip-tied the door, Daryl has to slice it open, per Alyssa's cries. Hershel and Daryl heave Adrian to the house to get her patched up. Alyssa finally lets her anger out on Adrian.