CHAPTER THIRTY
just to siblings sitting in a cell
"So," I say, throwing my head back till it hits the wall, "this is a nice change of scenery."
"It's a cell, Brizo."
"I was being sarcastic."
"Yeah, no shit, Sherlock."
"You think JJ has a plan to get us out?" I say, turning my head to the side. John B is sitting on the bench next to me, with his head resting against the cold wall and his eyes closed.
"Probably." He sighs, "Why didn't you tell me you two almost broke up?"
"Oh, uhm..." I scratch my right arm, "Well, you were off with dad... And then the whole kidnapping thing happened... He just had a panic attack, he got scared and tried to- Tried to run, I guess. We're fine now." I shrug.
"Yeah, but you should've told me. I would've killed him."
"Kiara almost killed him for you." I chuckle, remembering all the stuff she had thrown at his head.
"Good. Remind me to get her a cake or something to thank her." John B finally gives me a lopsided smile.
I scoot closer to my brother. I tilt my head, resting it on his shoulder letting out a heavy breath. I feel the weight of John B's head on mine when he mimics my gesture. He quickly places a soft kiss on the top of my head before going back to letting his head rest on mine.
"We're gonna save dad." I tell him, cause I know that's killing him from the inside.
"I know."
"He's fine, John. If something had happened, we'd know."
"How can you be so sure?"
"'Cause I always know when you need me." I smile lazily, "I'm sure it works the same way with dad."
Well, that wasn't true at all. I don't know if our father is dead already. But I'm hoping he's still alive. It would be a bummer if I got robbed of saying goodbye for a second time.
I've made peace with the fact that I'll probably never forgive our father for what he's put us through. I still love him, though. I'll always will. He's my father after all.
It's honestly a pretty messed up feeling. I know I don't owe him anything. John B and I basically raised ourselves, after turning twelve. Hell, we're not even eighteen yet and we're still looking after each other because we're the only family each other has left. That's not right. No kid should ever feel like this.
Still, after all this trauma, I can't help but feel a kind of heartbreak when thinking about him gone forever.
Am I being too mean? Am I really forgetting everything good he's done for us?
Maybe if we get to South America... Maybe if we get there on time to save him... Maybe everything can be different. We could start over. The search for El Dorado could stop. We already found the Merchant, reporting the wreck can make us rich in a second. That should be enough for a while for our dad.
Maybe I still can graduate. Maybe Pops will be there, sitting next to the Heywards, watching and clapping and yelling that's my kid as I walk the stage to get my diploma. That would be really cool.
And celebrating our eighteenth birthday, that's gonna be awesome. He can't miss that. John B and I have been planning it since we turned fifteen. It's gonna be epic. Best party The Cut has ever seen. Dad can't miss it.
And, I'm not planning on getting married before my twenties, but it'll happen eventually, I hope. Dad has known about JJ forever, he can't miss the day he finally proposes. Am I supposed to have my wedding without my father? Hell, no.
It doesn't matter how badly he has screwed up. He's still my father. And I can't imagine my life without him. Who would I blame for all my troubles then?
"You've been quiet for a while. It's weird. You're creeping me out." John B whispers.
"Sorry," I laugh. "I was just thinking."
"About what?"
"About dad." I inhale, filling my lungs with air, before letting it out in a heavy sigh. "I'm gonna give him a second chance, I think."
"You are?" John B asks surprised.
"Yeah," I chuckle, "I just... I don't think I can handle it if he... You know."
"Yeah, me neither, Bee J."
"You don't have to call me that, John B."
"Why not?" He laughs, "The Pogues call you that now."
"Just 'cause you weren't there that night."
"Did you really throw Topper to the floor and drive his truck?"
"You can bet your ass I did." I state proudly.
Neither of us can help it. We burst out laughing, sitting together in a cold cell with multiple officers looking our way with frowns on their faces, startled by our sudden outburst.
Shoupe comes into view, raising his bushy eyebrows looking at us. We shut up, clearing our throats. The older man just rolls his eyes, and pulls his keys out of his pocket, unlocking the door.
"We can go?" John B stands up quickly.
"Yeah," Shoupe nods his head, opening the door for us. "But y'all stay out of trouble for now, all right?"
"Can't make you any promises, Shoupe!" I cheer, running out of the precinct.
John B and I run together, waving goodbye to the cops that look at us with disappointed frowns. We honestly couldn't care less. We're jumping, singing, yelling at the top of our lungs.
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hello! this a very very short chapter, i know. i've been trying to finish writting the whole thing, and i only have one chapter left. the idea is to then post them all at the same time creating a very chaotic event.
anyway, i've also been having a few weird months so that's why i've also been a little gone. alsoooo... (i can't seem to catch a break) i've been writting a stranger things fanfic that i'm so excited to eventually post here so that's another reason why i've been a little bit over the place.
i'm very very very excited about this new fic, if you love brizo as much as i do you'll love the new main girlie, she's even more badass and sarcastic than my girl Bee.
so yup. that's what up with me. as taylor swift would say, a lot going on right now. but yeah. i think i've been trying to avoid finishing writing this, because everytime i finish writing a obx season i get extremely sad about not writing about brizo and her friends. it's kinda crazy how us, rational human beings can get so attached to fictional beings, isn't it?
well, i have nothing else to say i think, so yup. thank you guys so much for reading! i hope you're all okay and as happy as you can feel. i'll see you on the next chapter!
-circe