Gu Yu leaned against the window and stared into the distance.
He unconsciously rubbed his fingers, his thumb was against his index finger, and his fingerprints rubbed against his fingerprints, which was as rough as gravel.
Not long after he joined the army, the thin cocoon had climbed up to his fingertips.
The most confused thing in this matter was Moore. As soon as he was promoted to major, he was confused when he received the dispatch order, and he became Gu Yu's third adjutant.
To be honest, Gu Yu didn't want to pull the innocent into this bad debt.
He didn't want to pull Lu Shen in.
Thinking of the young general, whenever and wherever he is, he can't help smiling. His eyes are full of the sweetness of love, and the bitterness should never belong to the one he loves.
But this rainy season was too depressing. The rainstorm washed the defense line in the bottom of my heart. The suffocation buried deep under the soil was turned out like earthworms and struggled to breathe in the mud. The heart and throat are choked, and it is difficult to go up and down.
Gu Yu couldn't figure out the problem. Why it seemed so difficult to stay with Lu Chen for life.
The female father said in his childhood that he hoped that his future female would be his favorite worm. He did it, but what if he likes it? Do you just like it but it's fruitless? The female father couldn't teach him how to guard it after he liked it. How much can the weight of guarding be?
The first half of Gu Yu's life was scattered and arrogant, and everything was not at will, so he pretended to be fearless, so he was arrogant.
In the face of the arrogance of the male insect protection association, it gradually became no longer unrestrained. With weakness, it was engraved in the heart, and it could no longer be fearless.
The negative emotions that surged up at this moment dissipated the joy of promotion. Gu Yu tried his best to adjust, thought of some happy things, and tried not to bring home bit by bit of negative emotions.
He wants to give his best love to his major general.
Even if he is not good and perfect, he will be afraid and weak.
Lu Chen hasn't replied to the message on the communication interface yet. Gu Yu guessed that his major general may be busy designing the drawings. As soon as he is distracted, he will forget the outside world and forget the time.
He rubbed his fingers and wanted to smoke a cigarette for a while. He opened the drawer, took out the cigarette box, took a look at the communication interface again, and finally put it back.
He hardly smokes. Now that he violates the precepts, he will smell when he goes back.
The young master will notice something strange.
Gu Yu didn't want to tell Meng Shen that this bad account was bad to Lu Chen. He didn't want the major general to worry about it anymore.
He pulled the drawer back and the communication rang.
He suddenly looked up, his eyes lit up briefly, and he clicked in for a moment, but it was not Lu Chen.
It's his brother Gu Xi.
Gu Yu was not in such a good mood. He lacked the strength to support his head with his hands. His forehead was against the cold and hard desktop, he lay down lazily and clicked on the voice communication.
Gu Xi always seems to have endless energy, no matter what he shouts, he shouts.
"Brother! I heard from Meng Liu that Meng Shen knew that he was coming to you!"
Gu Yu didn't even have the strength, and he still didn't move at all, with his forehead against the table.
Gu Xi: "Say something! Squeak! What's the matter? Meng Shen knows what he said to you? Alas, don't take anything to heart about what he says. He is just a worm, smiling tiger, two-faced. If you listen to him, you will lose!"
Gu Yu is not in a good mood, but he still doesn't want to talk to him.
Gu Xi: "Oh, I said, are you listening or not, Gu Er is stupid? Is this a blow? Who spoke righteously with me at the beginning and resolutely refused to marry other females?"
"Oh, you can't stand it. Then I think you'd better struggle less and marry the other female insects home. Look at you lazy, how good it is to marry other females, and you don't have to continue to force yourself to work, and you can hold the beauty back. Why not?
"If I were a male worm... Humph, I still need to look at the other worm's face and entangle these things..."
It's rare that Gu Xi is not noisy, and the background no longer seems to be a bar and nightclub.
In the calm, Gu Xi also opened the chat box. It seemed that in front of his brother, he never understood the falseness of adult insects.
"What is love?" Gu Xi said.
"Do you have enough to eat? Do you sleep well? Can you get any practical benefits? To put it bluntly, it's just a spiritual medicine. If you have it, you can live. If you don't have it, you can live. If you don't have it, it's different. Is it different.
"Is there a difference between sex and love? - Yes, I admit there is, just the old argument between the soul and **, right?"
"But if the soul is too heavy and becomes a drag of a thousand pounds, why don't I get rid of it and be happy and relaxed?"
"Gu Er is stupid, I'm talking seriously. Your brother is out of tune, but I want to take it seriously - don't find a block for yourself. Love is never a necessity, not in any era, on any insect."
"Let me say something selfish, the eternal truth of the universe - always, loving yourself is the most important thing."
"If you feel sorry for Lieutenant General Lu, you'd better not think so. If love becomes heavy, then you have to think about how to be worthy of yourself.
Gu Xi's voice was hoarse and vague in the second half, and could not be heard clearly in the rainstorm outside the window.
After saying this, both sides were silent.
"What you said may make sense." It's rare for Gu Xi to be so serious. Gu Yu also thought about it carefully and replied to him.
"If you just seek pleasure in your life and hope to live a carefree life, you really shouldn't care about anything else. It's best to be worthy of yourself."
"I can't say what love is. You should ask the philosopher about this question, but I still know the basic truth. No love will only bring you happiness, and will never make you confused, bitter and sad."
He lowered his voice, even in the thunderstorm, he was afraid of waking up a dream.
"From the time I decided to love him, I have made up my mind to accept all the positive or negative things brought by this love."
Gu Xi was still silent, as if he was listening quietly.
"Thank you... brother."
Gu Yu got up from the table and slowly stretched out. The "Brother" shouted out, and both sides suddenly felt a little.
"Thanks to your call," Gu Yu paused briefly. "Otherwise, I have to be at the same as my major general."
He went on to say.
"I always believe that the happiness he brings to me is far greater than all the misfortunes in front of me."
Gu Xi at the other end was silent for a long time.
"Yu Yu," Gu Xi finally said before hanging up, "I can't change your mind, but if you think it's right, then do it. At least, there will be no regret in the future."
"But--be careful, Meng knows it."
"Be careful of your estrus."
Gu Xi no longer remembered whether he told his brother about his love that ended without illness when he was drunk.
He often breaks up after drinking too much, and often can't remember what bastards he hasn't said.
He and Meng Liu have been classmates since primary school.
In primary school, he is in Class 2, his brother is in Class 3, and Meng Liu is in Class 2, just like him.
In junior high school, it's not the same class. When we got to high school, we came back together.
Meng Liu has been a good student since he was a child of other insects since he was a child. Gu Xi is clearly distinguished from Meng Liujing. The only place where Meng Liu's name can appear at the same time is that at every parent-teacher meeting - the teacher praises Meng Liu by name, and then criticizes Gu Xi by name.
Meng Liu's father held his head high and raised his jaw proudly. His female father, Shine, apologized and humbly accepted the teacher's admonition.
But when he got home, Sine never said no, and he could always find out his good from the teacher's criticism.
For example, Shihne will say that the teacher of this parent-teacher meeting criticized you for passing the note in class and not criticizing you for not handing in your homework on time, which proves that we Xiaoxi is a good child with progress.
But Meng Liu is different. No matter how well he does, he will always be criticized and warned when he returns home. His female father always seems to be able to pick out the bad problems of the little male from the teacher's praise, and strictly correct him.
The next day after the parent-teacher meeting, Gu Xi came to school happily. His deskmate Meng Liu was always listless and occasionally had red eyes.
Gu Xi felt sorry for him. He got full marks in the exam. His parents were not satisfied. So how can he be satisfied? Isn't the male insects all specially taken care of? Why is his family so unusual?
Children's friendships are always established quickly. Later, you come and go, and you become a partner all the way home.
Meng Liu always envies their family very much. Occasionally, he comes to his house as a guest. In the face of the gentle Shihne, he, who is usually a little adult, will be so nervous that his face turns red and he can't speak.
Later, Gu Xi learned that Meng Liu had a lifelong enemy - the female son of the Cherix family, who was seven years older than Meng Liu, but he was always compared by his parents.
Schine said that the feud between the Cherix family and the Meng family spread from the ancestors. The sons and grandchildren also compared with each other. Later, not only the male and male insects, but also the male insects began to compare between males and females.
If Meng Liu is Gu Xi's child of the other worm family, then the big brother of the Cherix family is Meng Liu's nightmare from childhood to adulthood. The child of the other worm family will always be used as a benchmark for comparison.
Gu Xi admires this male insect very much. It is not easy to maintain mental health in such a high-pressure environment. In contrast, as a male insect, his brother Gu Yu is too uncompetitive and too comfortable, isn't he? With his brother making a strong comparison, Gu Xi was very respectful to this aggressive male insect oil.
Later, how did their relationship change from a good friend to what it is now?
Gu Xi casually thought that it was from the day he gave birth to a love that he shouldn't have.
But he can't remember exactly when that day was. That love seems to grow over time, and no one cares about it. When it is noticed, it is already deeply rooted and difficult to pull out.
Unfortunately, he hasn't even said the word he likes it. Less than half a year after graduating from high school, Meng Liuyue was not from a university. When he came out to meet, he told him that he was about to get married.
The male insect hopes that his good friend who has grown up together since childhood can give him heartfelt blessings.
The marriage partner, no one could have thought that it was the seven-year-old female insect of the Cherix family, Randall Cherix.
When Meng Liu talked about his female king, he couldn't help but show his face, the kind of smile called happiness that suddenly made Gu Xi painful.
The marriage was obstructed by the two families, but because of Randall's bright future, it became an opportunity for the interests of the two仇 families to connect. No matter what happens behind it, at least two grooms are sincerely happy for this union.
It's just that the happiness didn't last long.
Less than two years after marriage, in an accident on the battlefield, Meng Liu's female lost the possibility of having children forever. Meng Shen, president of the Male Insect Protection Association, was also Meng Liu's uncle, and forced Meng Liu to enter the door.
That time may be the most painful moment for Meng Liu.
But Gu Xi just implied a little hope. Maybe Meng Liu is not the female who loves him so much. Maybe he will have a little chance.
On the day later, Gu Xi will always remember it and will never forget it for the rest of his life.
Randall went to several galaxies on missions. Meng Liu was brought into the Male Insect Protection Association by his grandfather's excuse. After that, what Gu Xi received was Meng Liu's request for help.
His estrus was catalyzed by drugs. He gritted his teeth and sent a message to his friends in the Capital Star for help before his consciousness collapsed.
Gu Xi didn't expect Meng Shenzhi to know that as Meng Liu's uncle, he could make such a trick. He came in a hurry and forced him in with the obstruction of a group of officers.
Finally, in the room, he saw the black-haired male, full of cold sweat, the blue veins of his hands holding the sheet, like a desperate beast, curled up, red eyes, and warily looking at any female insect trying to approach him.
Gu Xi took a look and his reason left his head.
He insulted Meng Shenzhi like crazy, insulting these female insects to roll up. He approached tremblingly, and his heart was unbearably painful, like a knife. Meng Liu, who was on the verge of collapse and had lost his reason, was wary of all insects, but did not refuse his approach.
Perhaps because he sincerely trusts the female who has this breath.
The male insect, who was on the verge of collapse, pulled the corner of his clothes and struggled with **, painful and desperate, pitiful and pathetic.
Gu Xi should have broken away. He knew that the male insect had lost his mind, and he didn't even know who he was. He just trusted his breath.
But the out-of-control estrus makes the male insect look too painful. As an uncle, Meng Shen knows that it is cruel enough. If the dose is not completely resolved, it may even completely destroy the male insect's body.
The male insect wanted him to come and take him out of this desperate place. But Gu Xi knew that he had failed his trust.
After that, I don't deserve his trust for the rest of my life.
There is a saying that if you know a mistake, you can correct it. But the mistake is like a snowball, which will only roll bigger and bigger. If you start your head, you will make mistakes again and again.
Gu Xi later learned that he was just a chess piece in Meng Shenzhi's hand - using Meng Liu's trust in him, he pried open the hard shell of the male worm.
Randall Cherix, the only natural s-level female in the empire, once got the sight of a black-haired male who had always followed him with his gentle pride. But on the contrary, he finally injured both of them with his irressible pride.
From the day Gu Xi entered the home of Meng Liu and Randall, this family has gradually moved towards its doomed to a desolate and strange ending.
The endless cold war, accompanied by occasional quarrels, lingered in this increasingly strange home.
Later, it seemed that in order to prove that Gu Xi was not the only special one, there were two other maids in the family. The relationship between the male worm and the female seems to have eased a lot, and the female seems to accept the reality, accept the incompleteness of love, become gentle, return to gentleness, and always have a decent smile on her face.
But the gentle Randall became busy, and the number of times he arrived at home was gradually few. At the busiest time, he didn't go home almost all year.
Gu Xi can't see through too much.
He knew that he was a sinner, but even the love in Randall's eyes was a luxury that he could not get in every ten thousand.
He couldn't understand the relationship between the two insects, and he didn't want to get involved anymore.
He no longer expects any love, and he doesn't deserve any love.
He might as well be a selfish worm, a respectful and named female servant, mixed with Meng Liu's acquiescence, and lived in this world heartlessly.
However, Gu Xi never thought that he had lived so long without heart, and he could live like this all his life. The same thing could happen to his brother again.
Gu Xi didn't want to see that his brother would become Meng Liu's ghost in the future.
Gu Xi was trapped indoors during the rainstorm season. He looked out of the window and sighed gently for a long time, as if he was comforting himself.
"Gu Er is stupid... After all, it's different from Meng Liu, isn't it?"
"Lt. General Lu is also... different from Randall, isn't he?"