I woke up this morning with Marisa hugging me per usual...
But her face is way too close
And strangely enough, I don't hate it...
Probably the only person that is been close to me is Stella...
Wait... She is the only one I've interacted with
I always made sure that all of my conversations are at least an arm's length of distance
And I always tend to fade away if Reimu or Rinnosuke intrude on my personal space
Even Kasen can't enter it though she probably thinks that I'm very bad at close-up conversations and knows that distance is important
Unlike a certain shrine maiden who will shake you because you won't give any money
Is it just me or is she closer than before?
Did my sense of distance worsen because I think too much?
Well... I guess let me reminisce about my past since I don't know what to do right now except wait for her to wake up
My relationship with my father is been like that from the start
No talks, and no intimacy it's like a stranger you see in the streets just passing by and forget about them the next second
I grew up like an orphaned child despite I'm inside of my home
Honestly, I guess I should be orphaned rather than stay there
When I was two I realized the kids that I am with is my brothers and sisters due to the similarities in our appearance and I am sure the majority of children were from an orphanage too
I guess it's hell if you aren't born into a normal family
Each one of us has a maid some of the maids are good while some are bad I'm stuck with an abusive type who always complains how their life suck
And they use me as an object to release their rage like we can change position if she wanted
Apparently what they want isn't a child but a pseudo soldier that will be loyal to the 'family'
Various drugs have been injected into our bloodstream and our numbers are faster dwindling
From an original 80 people to 45
I'm one of the people who got quite a bad side effects from the drugs
It made me feral like a chained wolf will bite and scratch everything whatever has closed to me
I'm sure I will get disposed of but instead, a doctor takes interest in me on how I didn't die
And a form of new torture implements on me
It hurt very bad every session until I can't take it anymore and trashed everything that it made the chains snapped and metal was destroyed by me
But too bad the guards are very swift that I'm sure I've been shot that it made me feel it's not bad to die
But despite it being shot I made sure to return the favor by making the one that shook me metal fragments that I forcefully put into his mouth after I throw the metal bed on him
It's an indirect kill since the metal is the one that killed him
As I lost consciousness-
Ehhh?!!
What just happened?! I felt something soft just connected to my lips
It's very quick but I felt it
I look quite intently at Marisa and only see her closed eyes
She is quite very close!!!! This is a danger zone already
I'll try to create a pillow when I arrived in Kourindou
It's Marisa's lips accidentally connected to mine
I'm not overthinking about this kind of stuff because accidents happen and I'm not bent-
Oh, wait I am bent...
Since when?
From Stella I guess- wait no
There's this girl that I am friends on the internet who has a profile name called Asakaze when I was 12
She is quite a pessimistic person that hates life and is suicidal probably I'm not sure, to be honest
I've been recuperating my mental stability since Stella is with me helping me
That Asakaze person is a girl she confirmed it by words
Anyway because I'm being influenced by Stella I kept spouting some inspirational quotes to her
Until she suddenly send me a text that she wanted to marry me it made my heart race and I can't stop thinking about her
I know its a joke so I showed it to Stella but the phone slipped from her hands and she apologizes for it but seeing her quite sorry so I forgive her
I forgot about the existence of Asakaze because I've become a Capo before I got a new phone
I felt Marisa waking up so I feigned sleep because I'm not sure I could look her straight in the eyes
I heard her footsteps and the curtain getting opened
And my dark vision becomes red as the sun hits my eyelids so I open my eyes and see her smile at me
"Good morning Ibaraki"
"Good morning Marisa"
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I am currently hunting nests because down is commonly found on them...
What is down you say? It's the fluffiest parts of feathers from ducks or geese
It's a popular stuffing material due to its softness
Wait... It's still winter and now it's Satsuki which is May in the modern times
The year starts in April which is Uzuki and it will end in March which is Yayoi
I need to do something drastic if I wanted to make a pillow now
"You crow come here!"
"Wait! I swear I'm just passing by"
"I apologize so don't burn me!!"
Ahh... I forgot that I traumatized her in some way
"you are overreacting you are too fast for someone like me"
"ehh... That's right! I could just run anyway"
"what do you need Ibaraki?"
Wah..... A complete hundred eighty-degree shift of attitude
"you have down?"
"ehh?"
"I'm pretty sure tengu lays eggs and since the geese are probably confused with the season they will lay very late"
"I need your stash of down"
"But I don't have feathers in my chest area"
*tsk*
"Ahh...! Sexual harasser Oni decided to hit on a tengu that's a nice scoop"
"You little shit!!!"
This is a mistake, meeting a tengu is a mistake
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In the end, I made a pillow using spider silk as a stuffing
So I showed it to Marisa and I got her dissatisfied looks
Weird... Maybe she doesn't like the casing
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In the domain of reflection
Kusa is being started by Sol and Luna
"no wonder you choose her despite many much more tragic people in the world"
Said the man as he nodded sagely
"can you tell us why you still find her when she made your life worse after she ignored you?"
With a curious tone the beautiful lady
"no she didn't ignore me at all, it's because of Stella she can't contact me at all"
"I mean, I meant that as a joke because we are friends or I hope we are"
"but because of that, I wanted to know what happened to her so I find her"
"but to think she experienced that and still could give me some brief flash of hope..."
"I will return the favor towards her"
"wait... You didn't delay their reunion because you have spite on Stella?"
Sol asked with a hint of mirth in his voice but it made the girl flinch which made both gods facepalm
"Seriously?!"
Luna said in frustration
"I know it's very petty! And I know if it wasn't for her I may not here be a god"
"but she made me think Sofia is a bad and fake person and I didn't like that"
"But you have feelings for Sofia in the past?"
Kusa breaks the stare and mumbles
"I mean... She is there in my darkest time and she made me happy even though it's on the internet stuff..."
"I wanted to marry her..."
"how about now?"
Pitch in by Sol
"I would! But I'm satisfied having five amazing wives already and it's my fault for not seizing the chance to know the truth earlier"
"maybe Nyx will confront her"
"the you from the darkest timeline?"
Sol asked amusedly
"where you are so bitter and want to become an Emo?"
Said Luna with a teasing tone
"I hate you guys..."