An: Get ready for a lot of updates. I have lots of my old stories ready to be published. I'm not changing any of them so please keep in mind that these were written over 2 years ago. Once I get all my old ones published I'm going to be writing new stories.
The day you were kidnapped was like any normal day. You were working a case with the team and went out to check a dump sight. While there someone approached you, and offered to help. You started talking and the next thing you know, he knocked you out. You woke up in a basement, stripped down to your panties and bra. You were there for days. The torture you went through was horrible. It was almost unbearable. You were physical abused day after day, hoping the team would come and save you.
They found you. After three days. Spencer was the one to get to you first. He was the one to carry you out to the ambulance and sit by you in the hospital. You guess that's why you chose him. After your kidnapping you hated being touched, but he was allowed to touch you. You were scared to leave his side, afraid that you would be taken again. You don't even think you're capable of this job anymore. You just work and hope you can do it.
When you saw your old best friend on a case, they didn't think twice before they were pulling you into a hug. Your arms hung limp next to your body and your breathing started to get shallow. Spencer's back was turned to you, talking to Hotch. Hotch saw your friend hug you, instantly getting Spencer's attention. Spencer turned around to see your friend embracing you in a hug.
"No, don't touch her." He warned.
He knew he was too late. Your friend already had their arms wrapped around you. As soon as they heard Spencer they let you go. Spencer and your friend noticed your glossy eyes and heavy breathing. Spencer reached his arms out, not exactly touching you just in case. He wanted you to make the first move for his touch so he doesn't set you off more. You walked into his embrace, breathing in his scent to hopefully calm you down. He ran his hand through your hair, hoping that would help.
"It's ok. You're safe. I'm here." Spencer whispered.
You cried silently into his embrace, holding him tightly. You don't understand why you're like this. You're scared of other people's touch. Afraid they're going to hurt you, but you trust Spencer.
"Why am I like this?" You asked.
"You're scared that anyone will hurt you. You only let me touch you because I saved you. You connect me to freedom. I'm the person that saved you from the most traumatic experience of your life and that's why instead of being scared of my touch it comforts you." Spencer explained.
You nodded and sniffled. You just hope this will get better. You pulled away to see the person who used to be your best friend standing there very confused.
"Sorry, I just don't like anyone touching me. I only let Spencer touch me." You said.
"It's ok. I'm sorry I hugged you, I didn't know." They said
"It's fine." You said.
"Well it's good to see you again." They said.
"You too. I have to get back to work, see you around." You said.
They nodded and you left. You got in the back and Spencer joined you. You smiled at him and he returned it. You were coming to a scary conclusion. You were in love with Spencer Reid. You were in love before you were taken but it's gotten stronger since then. He makes sure you're taken care of at all times. He makes sure you're safe and that nothing is bothering you.
You didn't think he had the same feelings. He let you cling to him because he was the only person that you were comfortable with touching. He was your only source of human contact and he couldn't take that away from you. He knew you were safe in your own apartment, that's why he never went farther than staying with you all the time at work and when you go out. The only time he stayed at your house was the following week after you were taken. You were scared someone was going to be able to get you from inside so he stayed till you felt safe.
Spencer POV:
Being in love with the person who clings to you is hard. I love Y/n, so much. I loved you before I was the only one aloud to touch you. I almost lost it when I found out you were taken and seeing you almost dead was heartbreaking. I'm glad I'm the one who found you. If I wasn't I'm sure you would be scared of my touch too.
Of course I would never tell you that I love you. I don't want you to think I'm taking advantage of me being the only one you're comfortable with. I don't want to ever make you feel weird around me. I know you can't feel the same about me. You think of me as the person who saved you. You can't have feelings for me, that's not even a possibility in my head.
When we arrived at the bullpen you went to your desk and I needed to go get something from the conference room. I walked to your desk so you could know where I was in case you needed me.
"Y/n, I'm going to be in the conference room if you need anything." I informed you.
"Mk." You said.
Third person POV:
As soon as Spencer started to walk away you needed to ask him a question. You saw he was already up the stairs and walking into the conference room. You stood up and followed him. As soon as Spencer entered the room he saw Derek sitting at the table.
"When are you going to tell her?" Derek asked.
"What?" Spencer asked.
He was confused. He didn't know what Derek was talking about.
"When are you going to tell Y/n that you love her?" He clarified.
Spencer stopped in his tracks. How did Derek know? Was he that obvious? You had also frozen. You were about to walk in when Derek asked that question. You knew you shouldn't listen to their conversation but you had to. You had to know if Spencer felt the same as you did.
"How do you know that?" He asked.
You held your breath. He felt the same way. You could scream so loud.
"You think I'm an idiot? I see how you look at her. And I saw that without a doubt she feels the same about you." Derek explained.
"I don't think so. She just trusts me. I'm the one that saved her. I was the one who got her out of her nightmare while the rest of you were getting the unsub. She senses safety with me because I helped her, not because she loves me. I'm not going to make her think that I'm using her trust in me to force her into a relationship." Spencer rambled.
Of course you felt the same. You hoped that he would believe you when you told him. You hope that he doesn't think you're just saying it to make him feel better. You knocked on the door and then entered, not giving them enough time to say come in or anything. You could see the fear in Spencer's eyes as soon as you walked in. Spencer's heart dropped as he saw you walk in with a bashful smile on your face. Derek knew you heard and was already on his way out the door before anyone could notice his absence.
"How much of that did you hear?" Spencer asked.
"Um, all of it." You answered.
"Oh god. I'm so sorry. I didn't know you were there. I know that it's wrong to love you. You trust me and know I feel like I'm using that against you. I mean I loved you before you were taken and nothing changed since then but I don't want you to feel like you have to love me back." Spencer rushed out.
"Spencer, calm down." You said.
"I just feel like I failed you." He said.
"How did you fail me?" You asked.
"I broke your trust-" He started.
"How did you break my trust?" You interrupted.
"You trusted me enough to be the only one who can touch you and I let you down because the whole time I have been in love with you." Spencer explained.
"I don't think finding out the man you have loved for years loves you back is a let down." You said.
"I think so, wait what?" Spencer said.
His confused face was adorable. He wanted to make sure he heard you right. You took a few steps forward and played with his tie.
"I love you too." You said.
"Are you sure? I don't want you to say that just because you think you have to. I promise it's ok if you don't-" Spencer never got to finish his thought.
You had grabbed his face and pulled him into a kiss. His lips were soft and he kissed you with such caution. He tasted like coffee, probably because of his addiction to it. You pulled away and both of you had huge smiles on your face.
"Yeah, I definitely love you too." You said.
Spencer let out a small laugh and pulled you into another kiss. This was going to be something good. You were happy he was the one who saved you because you don't know how your relationship with him if it wasn't.