I sit on my desk and do some paperwork When suddenly the door jumps open and Erwin comes in. ,,What do you want?", I ask annoyed. ,,I may have found something on the streets, you might like.", he answers and there I notice, that his left hand holds the collar of a brownhaired guy I just know to well. He ran away a few years ago from the company, but I never understood why. I've been looking for him since then, but was uncecessfull until now. My Eren. Now he's finally found. ,,How did you find him?", I ask Erwin and he smiles proud. ,,Found him in a little sidestreet in Shiganshina. He was resisting quite hard, but in the end I cought him.", he answers and Eren glares at him angry. ,,Well, thanks, I guess. Just leave him here." The blond noods, let's go of the tied up brunette and leaves my office, closing the door behind him. Now Eren looks at me angry and I sight. I stand up from my chair and walk towards him. He changed . A lot. His always so shiny ociancolored eyes are now dark and dark circles are under them and his hair, he always cared so much about is now long and messy tied behind his head. He also got much skinnier, but it also seems like he's grown. To be honest, he looks absolutely terrible. ,,Eren Yeager. What has the world done to you?", I ask and kneel infront of him. I carefully remove the tape from his mouth and he takes a deep breath. ,,Long time not seen, Captain.", Eren says and I sight again. ,,Why did you leave?", I ask and the brunette roles his eyes. ,,'Cause you're a crazy psychopath, that's why.", he answer and I can't help it, but grin a little. ,,Come on, we both know good enough you're not completely inocent eather, Eren.", I reply and lift up his chin. ,,May be true, but at least I don't kill just for fun." ,,But you torture and when I told you to kill, you always did a very good job. Come on, I know you love hearing the screams of your victims." ,,True too, but I just started having fun on it, because you made me like that." I bite my teeth together. This unthankfull, shitty brat. ,,Don't forget where you would be now, if I didn't take you in. I could've just left you in the trashcan I found you, but instead I took you with me and rased you pretty well.", I say and Eren grins evil. ,,You rased me to be a cruel seriall killer, I don't think that's what 'pretty well' means.", he replies and I tighten my grip on his chin. ,,And you've always been one of the best. That's why I started to likr you that much, Eren." The brunette looks away and sights. ,,I was afraid. That's why I left.", he says, now in a comletely different thone. ,,Of what?", I ask and Eren looks at me again. ,,I was afraid, I'll always be stuck at your side and will never be able to do something on my own, if I stay. And I was fucking right. If your weard ass friend didn't find me, I would've died in this sidestreet. Over those five years, I kept living on the streets and barely could get myself something to eat." I sight. ,,Some people just aren't made to be alone." ,,Well, thanks." ,,I always took good care of you and hearing you saying something like that kinda offends me.", I say and Eren furrows his brows. ,,Didn't mean to do that. But I just wanna get along alone, that's everything.", he replies and I role my eyes. ,,But you can't, except it! And now get up." ,,I can't, I'm tied up." Ah, yees, right. With a sight I pull my knife out of my pocket and sit behind him. ,,Hold still." ,,Can't you just untie it?" ,,There's no untieing this, believe me. And now don't move.", I say and slide my knife through the thick robes. ,,Get up now." Eren noods and slowly stands up. ,,Come on, I've gotta take care of your wounds and clean you up."
Carefully I wrap my thin jacket around me and lean against the cold stonewall. I don't know how many mothns I've been just wandering around in the streets and now I lost my last strenge, sit here and wait for death. ,,Hey, you!", someone suddenly says and I look up. There stands a blackhaired man who looks like 18 or 19. He wears a black suit and over it a big jacket. ,,What do you want?", I ask quitely and wrap my arms around my body. ,,What's your name?", the man asks and I shrugg my shoulders. ,,Eren.", I answer and he noods. ,,I'm Levi. Do you wanna come with me?" What? ,,Why would you do that? I'm just a random kid out of a trashcan, other adulds don't care a thing about me." ,,'Cause I'm coming out of a trashcan too. If you don't wanna come with me, then stay here, but if you do, I'll give you a new life."
Damn, why do I remember this right now?That was years ago and I haven't thought about it for so long. Why now? I feel the hot water running down my back and sight. When I turned 14, one year after Levi took me, he started to train me and one year afterwards he took me on my first mission. Over the years I started to have feelings for him. When I turned 18 I finally confessed and then this whole thing with us started. Out of our very distanced relationship became pure lust and there wasn't a single day where we didn't fall over eachother like two animals in heat. I really enjoyed his fucks and to be honest, I missed them when I was gone. But in these two years, Levi never confessed to me. Maybe he doesn't feel anything for me, but I never really cared. Just being so close to him made me feel happy. ,,Eren? What's taking so long?", I hear him suddenly shouting and I sight. ,,I'm coming.", I reply and hear the bathroomdoor closing. With a sight I turn the water off and step out of the shower. There I notice some fresh clothes on the heater, which weren't there bevore. Did Levi leave them here for me? Probably. Slowly I start to dry me up and put them on. I quickly tie my hair together, bevore I leave the bathroom and see Levi sitting on his black lethercouch with a first aid kid next to him. ,,Come here.", he says and I look at him confused. ,,Why?", I ask and the raven sights. ,,I need to take care of your wounds." ,,Ah,ehm..okay." I sit down next to him, not sure what to do. ,,Take your shirt off." ,,What?" ,,Take your godamn shirt off." I nood quickly and do what I'm told. Levi carefully starts to take care of the many cuts and bruises on my body. After he's done with my torso he takes my hands, which are really completely damaged and full of deep cuts. Carefully he sterilises them and wraps some bandages around them and a little bit around my fingers. ,,I'm done.", he says then and reaches me my shirt. I put it back on and sight. We sit like that for a while, until I suddenly feel Levi's hand on my shoulder. ,,Eren?" ,,Levi?" In the next second I have his lips pressed against mine and instantly lean in. Shit, I missed this feeling. The whole thing turnes into a big making out session, when I suddenly get an idea. Slowly I slide on the floor between his legs and grin. ,,Can I do something? Yes or no?", I ask and place my fingers on the buttons of his pants. ,,Do whatever the fuck you want.", Levi replies, slightly annoyed, but I can hear some sort of exitement in his voice. Slowly I start to unbutton his pants, pull his underwear away a little and pull out his dick. ,,Are you planning to blow me, or what?", Levi asks and I nood. ,,That's what I was trying to do.", I answer, bevore taking him in as much as I can. The raven lets out a short, surprised moan, what makes me grin, while I slowly start to bob my head. I feel Levi's hands running marathons through my hair, what turnes me on even more. ,,Slow down or else-ah! I come in your mouth.", he says suddenly after a while, but instead of stopping, I suck even harder, until I finally feel his cum filling my mouth. I pull back and spit it into my hand. ,,Look at how much you came.", I say and notice Levi's red like a tomato, but he doesn't say anything. Fuck it, I need to put my dick inside his ass. I sight, bevore laying Levi over my shoulder and carry him into his bedroom. ,,Hey, I can walk by myself!", he shouts and bangs his hands on my back, but I just ignore him. I enter the bedroom and nearly get kicked by Levi, but luckily he misses my head. ,,Let me down!", he shouts and I smirk. ,,Okay."; I say and let him down on the bed, instantly going on top of him. ,,Seriously? You wanna top me?" ,,Yep." ,,Come on, I let you top at once and you were absolutely terrible." ,,But you came." ,,And? I didn't really like it and now get off!" ,,No." The next few minutes mostly contain me trying to undress Levi, while he just keeps resisting and hitting after me, but misses every time. After he's finally fully undressed I lie on him again and pin his wrist on the matress. ,,I want you.", I say and start to kiss his neck. To my surprise Levi doesn't say anything and just lets me do. He probably excepted his faith. I kiss down his entire body and explore all the parts I never was able to look any closer. All these little scars from probably long ago are covering his body like a map and I'm ready to trace them all. Maybe not today, but on another day. After a while I sit up and look at Levi, who's blushung very hard. ,,Prepair yourself." ,,What?" ,,Yes, you've heard me right. And you better do it well, 'cause I won't have any mercy on you." Levi sights annoyed, bevore he slowly slights his right hand between his legs and inserts one finger inside him. Then a second and then a third. He lets out a few half held back moans and I grin while watching his fingers thrusting in and out. ,,That should be enough.", I say after a while and Levi slowly pulls his fingers out. Quickly I bend him over and sit on his ass. ,,Come on, this position is hella weard!", he groans and I role my eyes. ,,Just shut up and let me do!", I reply and start opening my pants. I'm way to impatient to fully undress, so it has to work out like that. After my dick is free, I notice Levi's looking over his shoulder and looks completely terrifyed. ,,Don't worry, if you did a good job on yourself, it should be okay.", I say and lift myself up a little. I spread his asscheeks apart, place myself and grab both of his arms, bevore pushing in, causing him to arch his back and let out a loud scream. ,,Did you grow down there too or what?", Levi asks and I grin. ,,Maybe.", I answer hard breathing and slowly start moving. I get rogher and rogher with every thrust and just enjoy Levi's tightness and pleasurefilled moans. I've never heard him like that and I love it. ,,Fuck, Levi! You feel so good inside!", I moan and tighten my grip around Levi's arms. ,,Fucking hell, slow down!", the other male just shouts, but instead of stopping, I lean forward, so I can whisper into his ear. ,,Levi, give me more missions. We need to take out the bad guys, don't we? I'm gonna kill all of them.", I whisper and Levi looks at me over his shoulder. ,,You're a brat.", he whispers back and I grin. ,,Not anymore. I'm an adult now." ,,I don't care, you shitty brat." ,,Well, then I don't care, if you can't walk tomorrow." ,,No, Eren, wai-Arhhg!" Now I go as hard and fast as I can and feel Levi's entire body cramping. ,,Are you close?", I ask with a smirk, but bevore he can answer, he let's out a long, loud moan. ,,Already-oh fuck, already happend.", he says a few seconds and I smirk, bevore I release inside him. A few seconds later I pull out and role over, so I lie next to him. Fuck, I love this man so godamn much. Ah, yes. He doesn't love me back. ,,I've missed you.", I say after a while and curl one strain of his hair around my finger. Levi just says nothing and puts my hand away. ,,I love you." Now he looks away and sights. ,,Bullshit." ,,It's not. Why would you think that?" ,,If you'd actually love me, then you would've stayed with me. But you just run away and left me alone." Ouch. ,,You know...I lied to you. About the reason why I left." ,,And what exactly was the reason?" ,,I left because I never could stay with you, knowing you don't feel the same for me as I do for you." There I realise how fucking pathetic this sounds. ,,I don't get it.", Levi replies and I click my thoung. ,,The first year we had that thing, I was totally fine with just being so close to you, but then I started to crave for your affection, which I never got. I could handle it an entire year but then I couldn't take it anymore and ran away. It's okay, if you don't feel anything for me, I just-I just want you to tell me and then I'm not annoying you any longer." I feel tears filling my eyes. No, don't cry! Not now. Not here. ,,What the hell makes you think you don't mean anything to me?" ,,What?" ,,If I didn't care about you, then why the hell would I let you stay with me all these years and let you come so close to me? Usually I never let people come near to me." I shrugg my shoulders. ,,That's not enough for me.", I say a little to harsh then I wanted to. ,I thought every night about you. I looked for you day and night and was scared to death you might be already dead. I can't tell you how happy I was when Erwin brought you into my office today. I'm just not good with words and showing affection, you know." I nood slowly, bevore I open my hair and sight. Suddenly Levi grabs a strain of it and slightly pulls on it. ,,Do you want me to cut it?", he asks and I hecticly shake my head. ,,Never.", I answer and the raven roles his eyes. ,,But I can see your eyes better, if it's short." ,,You're exaggerating. I like it like that, so let me." ,,Ugh, fine." ,,Eren?" ,,Hm?" ,,I love you and I missed you. Are you happy now?" I smile widely and nood, bevore I cuddle into his chest. I stay like that for a while until I fall into a dreamless sleep. This whole night could've been so peacfull, if I wouldn't get ripped out of my sleep by some weard sound. I slowly open my eyes and see Levi sitting on the bed, his back directed to me. Over his head I can see a little cloud of smoke floading away. Is he smoking again? When I last saw him, he didn't do it for five years. Why did he start again? Now I have the bad feeling, it's my fault. No,Eren, not everything has always to do with you! Slowly I sit up and wrap my arms around Levi's torso. ,,Smoking again?", I ask, but Levi doesn't even look at me. I sight and rest my head on his shoulder. ,,Why are you even still awake?" Again no answer. What the hell is going on with him? Guess I have to resort to harder means now. ,,Since we're both awake now...Wanna do it one more time?" No answer. Instead I suddenly hear an alarming click and have a gun pointing directly at my nose. ,,Eren? Promise to never run away again.", Levi says, still not looking at me. I sight and smile slightly. ,,You're so kind.", I reply and shake my head. ,,Don't worry, I'm not leaving again." ,,Swear it." ,,I swear I'm gonna stay with you from now on." Levi puts the gun away and lays his hands on mine. ,,Now come here you little shit.", he says suddenly, turnes around and pushes me over. I can't help but laugh like this is the funniest thing that ever happend to me. ,,Haha, Levi, sto-ahh!", I giggle-moan when the other male starts to attack my neck. ,,Never again.", he just replies and I sight. Finally I'm here again. And I'm never gonna leave.