Recap
I don't belong in the League, you know that." I whispered back.
"I know. But it doesn't have to be the League. We can go anywhere. If giving up the League, giving up that ideology is what it takes for us to be together I'll do it in a heartbeat! Please Kimi. I love you and we can ran away together. Anywhere. We can go to ... Iceland! You always wanted to go there right? We could see the northern lights, live in a cabin somewhere. We can leave all this behind. Just you and me. Have the future we always dreamed of!" He reasoned, his voice coming out hushed but fast, as though he could see the future he had just painted before his very eyes and it would disappear once his words stopped.
"Touya ..."
Kimi's POV
"I know it's crazy doll but we can start again! I don't regret walking away from my father but walking away from you was the biggest mistake of my life. I love you doll and I'd give anything to be with you again."
"Okay."
"I understand I'm asking a lot and ... did ... did you say okay?" He asked with wide eyes, his scarred lips parted in surprise.
"Touya ... you were everything to me once. When you left it was as though a piece of me went with you and when you came back it's like- like a huge piece of myself came back too. But Keigo ... he doesn't deserve this." I stumble feeling sick with myself.
"Look me in the eye and tell me you love him more than me. Do it Kimi and you'll never see me again, I'll ... I'll let you go!" He whispered back, cupping my face between his rough palms, the staples cool against my skin. I stared up at his face, illuminated by the dim security lights outside my door, the electric blue of his eyes still gleaming in the darkened room. And I kissed him. Without thinking about Keigo or my family, or my responsibilities. I pulled him in by his jacket and poured every ounce of myself into the kiss as though it might have been my last.
"Say it." He breathed out as we pulled apart for air, foreheads still resting against one another.
"You know I can't say that Touya. Because ... I love Keigo ... but he's not you." I say weakly, my voice cracking at the admission. I care for Keigo, I love him and in another life maybe that would be enough. But Touya is and always has been the love of my life. I lost him once. I can't lose him again.
At hearing those words he let out a small sob before pulling me once again into his arms, shaking slightly with new found emotion.
"I-I can't just leave them without telling them though, I have to ... write letters or something?" I reasoned even though the thought alone made me feel sick with guilt.
"Yeah, of course I get it. Umm I'll go pack some supplies and sort out tickets whilst you write what you need to. I love you doll." He said placing a firm kiss on my forehead before pulling away, his eyes which shone with new found life, never leaving mine until he finally left the room. I took a deep breath to steady myself before reaching for the stack of paper inside my bedside table and began the heart breaking process of writing out goodbye letters to my loved ones.
I had been up for hours, pouring my heart out on the pages until my hand ached. I had decided to write letters to Sho, Fuyumi, Natsuo, my parents (with whom I left Peanut), Tamaki, Eri, the staff of UA and finally the longest and most difficult, to Keigo.
Every letter made me cry but none so much as Keigo's did. I explained how sorry I was. How I would always love him but I can't lie to myself and he deserved someone so much better than me. He deserves someone who will love him unconditionally, with a full heart that isn't torn between him and a past love. I had read a quote somewhere that if you fall in love with one person and then another, you never really loved the first. I had always believed it but now found myself disagreeing with it. I do love Keigo and I always will but a part of me never really got over Touya and it's not fair on either of us for me to still harbour these emotions. I slipped the promise ring into the envelope, hot tears cascading down my face as I thought of the future we had planned out. It hurt to do this but in the end, it was always going to be Touya and I. We were inevitable.
***Time skip***
It was unusually cold this winter, even for Iceland. A thick blanket of snow covered the ground outside the porch, illuminating the otherwise dark world around me. I had set up a small cozy spot on the corner of our porch with blankets and pillows covering the mahogany swinging seats. It was the one part of the porch where the roof dipped in slightly and the sky above was clearly visible with whisps of purple, blue and green swirling overhead as the aurora borealis lit up the world above.
"I thought I was supposed to be the cold blooded one?" Touya asked with a smirk, coming up behind me with a bag of marshmallows in hand. Without waiting for a response he knelt down and used his quirk to light a small fire in the portable fire pit that sat before us. Kissing my round stomach whilst he was still knelt down.
"This is your doing isn't it? Making mommy the snow queen before your even born?" He chuckled littering feather light kisses along my stomach and causing the baby to kick as she usually does when she hears her father's voice.
"And what makes you think she won't have a healing quirk?" I ask as he comes up to occupy the space beside me, wrapping one arm around me and beginning to toast marshmallows with the other.
"I hope she does actually but you've been craving nothing but ice pops since you got pregnant so I'm thinking we have a little snowball in there!" He laughed, kissing my shoulder lovingly.
"For you my lady." He smiled offering me a marshmallow on a stick which I happily started munching on.
"Why thank you kind sir." I returned kissing his scarred cheek before looking up at the colourful stretch of night sky.
"Who do you think she'll take after?" He asked me softly resting his head against my shoulder and placing delicate kisses along it, which of course sent familiar shivers down my spine as they always did.
"I mean I am amazing but I want a little red head" I smiled running a hand through his tousled red hair now that the black had grown out of it completely.
"We wouldn't want them having a face like mine." He scoffed gesturing to his scars and causing me to slap his chest lightly, making sure my marshmallow wasn't going to fall before doing so.
"Excuse me I happen to like your face Mr Todoroki. Besides if we are talking scars I'm not exactly perfect myself." I said softly gazing down at the pale white scars that littered my arms inflicted by Overhaul.
"Excuse you Mrs Todoroki, you are more perfect than you can ever imagine doll." He whispered cupping my face and leaving a familiar lingering kiss against my lips.
This. This is where I belong.