A.N.
I wanna sit next to him ;;
So badly ;;
. . .
Huuuuuuu
Anyways, on with the story ^^
Your POV
Oh god...what...what was that....
I slapped my hands to my cheeks as I felt myself blush madly into them.
My heart is racing...it's been racing the whole time...but now...!!
I looked up to take a quick peek at Giyu, his situation wasn't much better than mine which made me feel a little better.
The memory of a kiss kept playing through my mind over and over, only further causing me to blush harder.
Butterflies filled my stomach as I thought about it.
It was so...so vivid it felt real...
I slowly uncovered my hands from my face and looked up and Giyu.
He was looking down at his hands as he also fought the blush that was on his face.
I began to notice little things about him as I stared. The way his messy hair was lazily put into a ponytail, the way he quirks his brow when he thinks.
The way his voice sounds, soft and gentle, it's soothing, and reassuring.
His deep blue eyes. The way they glistened in any light, always making them more beautiful.
Giyu's eyes were definitely the most memorizing part of his for me. I feel so calm when I stare into them, like I'm standing in the ocean.
Thinking about it now, I would like to go and see the ocean again. Just to feel the waves crashing against me, and to feel the sand being pulled from under my feet as the waves go back.
"(L/n)-san."
"Huh?" I snapped out of my thoughts and realized I had been staring for quite sometime.
I nervously rubbed the back of my neck.
Maybe he didn't notice?
"So...uh...did you see that too? I'm guessing you did because of your reaction an whatnot..." Giyu rambled on, but his voice drowned out as I continued to stare into his eyes and zone out once again.
He's so cute when he rambles-
Wait, what am I thinking!? Get those thoughts out of my head!! I can't be creepy!
"(L/n)-san." Giyu called once again startling me.
"Sorry! It's just that it's so easy to get lost in your eyes-" I slapped a hand over my mouth.
God did I really just say that out loud!?? Dammit (y/n) what are you doing!!?
I continued to knock my head until Giyu pulled my arm down.
"Why would you hit yourself like that?" He asked as he pulled my hand away from me.
I began to zone out and I realized another memory was showing.
Memory
We walked around for quite a bit and the sun was starting to set. We were on the outskirts of the town and found a stream of water that led to a big cherry blossom tree.
I stared up at it in awe as it was the biggest Sakura tree I've ever seen.
"It's been awhile since I've seen a Sakura tree..." I trailed.
"I bet it has...I think we saw them maybe twice on the way here. You kept getting distracted by every little thing." ---- lightly chuckled. I looked down and walked towards the stream feeling a little down
"Is everything okay?" He asked. I knelt down and looked into the water seeing my faint reflection.
"If I'm going to be honest...no...I feel like I've lost a chunk of my life. And that was one of the most important parts for me. I don't have the slightest memory of what's happened these last two weeks. It's almost like I had disappeared."
"(---)..."
"Maybe if I hadn't ran that night...maybe if I was just honest with myself about I about my feelings...I wouldn't have turned and I wouldn't be a burden on you." I folded my arms into my chest.
"I could never consider you a burden, (---). If anything, these past two weeks have been some of the greatest weeks of my life. I know you don't remember them, but just know, that you have made these two weeks so much happier."
I slowly stood up and thought about how I should put my words together.
"What do you mean...I don't understand how a demon could make you happy..."
"Yes, you're a demon, but you haven't attacked anyone. You protected me from demons when we were attacked. I hate to say this...and I never thought I would have to say this, but, I almost thought I'd have to kill you."
I felt myself tense up and a shiver go down my spine.
He was...going to kill me?
"You made me change my mind within a fraction of a second. I didn't have to kill you. I don't even think I could bring myself to do such an action...and I'm really, really glad I didn't."
"If we go back, are the other hashira going to kill me? ----...am I going to have to die?" I felt myself begin to shake, but felt him wrap his arms around me. He...was also shaking.
"I won't let them...and I won't let you die. I can't be without you and I don't know what I'd do if you left." He whispered into my ear, making me blush.
"Thank you...I mean it, for everything, ----..." I turned around and hugged him back.
We held each other as we both tried not to break down. Leaving us with the comforting sounds of soft breathing, breeze, and running water.
I'm glad...that you gave me a chance, even when I became a monster
End memory
I felt someone lightly shaking my shoulders, and when my vision returned, it was Giyu.
"Did you have another memory?" He asked and I nodded my head.
"Can you summarize it?"
"Uhm...maybe? It was a lot..." I trailed.
Giyu looked at me with a strange curious look as if he were a child waiting for something amazing to happen. Once again giving me the thought that he was cute, but I kept that to myself.
"Well, uh..there was a Sakura tree...and tonkatsu...a boy, and a girl who's a demon...uhh...I can't really recall. It's all fuzzy..." I say scratching my head.
"I've had that memory too...I don't know what it means though." He said.
Why am I feeling this way...are these memories, of some other life? Who is that boy I see, his name is always blurred...and his face I can't see....
Why do I get the feeling that Giyu and I used to be so close? Why do I get the feeling that we're supposed to be together...closer. Closer than friends...?
All of these thoughts at once bombarded my head. It was suffocating, and it only got worse as I kept thinking.
Giyu was still asking me more questions, while I was asking questions myself. He wants to know if I've had any other memories, why I'm being so quiet right now.
The thoughts and his questions became louder and louder with each passing second. Even the time got louder, the pounding in my chest filled my ears as well and it was becoming too much to handle.
"I think we're supposed to be together!" I blurted out of frustration and confusion.
Giyu stopped asking his questions and looked at me for a moment.
"I'm sorry...what?"
The way he said that sentence made me shy away once again. I could feel the fear flood through out my body.
Why did that come out of me? Of all things!
"Well..uh.."
"(L/n)-san, we've barely known each other for two days." He spoke again.
"I know that! But ever since that first feeling, I couldn't help but feel like we are supposed to be something more." I explained
Giyu stood up and ran a hand through his hair. He then turned to me with a stoic expression as usual.
"I know we've both been going through this weird thing, but I don't understand why you think we need to be together." He spoke.
I flinched at his words, I have never heard him speak so harshly before.
"Tomioka-san, it sounds crazy, believe me I know. I was hesitant on saying it out loud, but my heart is telling me that we're supposed to be something more."
Giyu's face flushed as I explained, and I could tell the more I spoke, the more I flustered him.
"It's weird, and I don't know how to go about it...but－agh..." I sighed in frustration.
Way to go (y/n)...way to go...
"How did it make you feel...?" Giyu spoke softly.
"W-what exactly?" I asked.
Giyu looked down out of embarrassment, and moved his gaze around.
"The...the kiss..." He said a barely a whisper.
I felt my body tense up at the sound of him mentioning that.
I c-can't just straight up tell him it felt like it was between us...!
"It...it made me feel...like there was s-something there..." I tried to explain but my words came out weird and hard to understand.
"Where exactly?" He asked another question.
A cold sweat broke on my forehead as I tried to plan my words.
. . .how else can I say it?
"I..." I sighed in defeat, "It felt like there was something between us." I admit.
Giyu stood up straighter, and let in a sharp breath.
"Uhm...I'm sorry..I've got to go..." He said swiftly heading to the door causing me to shoot my head up.
"W-wait!" I said chasing after him.
Slam
He was gone.
I fell down to my knees in confusion and being hurt. Only, I wasn't physically hurt, emotionally. They didn't exactly feel like my emotions either.
Why did he leave me?
What did I do wrong??
Dammit! Dammit (y/n)!! I ruin everything!!
A.N.
Ayyyy I updated.
I don't have much to say other than stay hydrated.
. . .
So do that.
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