Mikayla Reyala @mikayla: See? That's why you shouldn't judge without knowing the other side of the story.
#HannahIsInnocent
#ProtectHannahAtAllCost
#MilanIsTheRealEvil
Leah De Castro @leia: Ano na kayo ngayon? Mga solid Milanatics? Nga-nga?
Trisha Simon @sociallychic: May pa post pa. Defend mo pa sarili mo tapos.... awit ka Milan.
Holly Martinez @hollya: Nagsitaguan na mga Milanatics. Mga bobo amp. Mana sa idle nilang attention seeker at pa-victim.
I heave a sigh as I read posts about me, Milan and Fahren on Twitter. I activated my social media accounts just today coz it's my birthday, I want to atleast read the birthday greetings of my bananas. Yun lang sana ang sadya ko, kaya lang, I unconsciously visited the posts that used to break me. Not only me, but the people close to me. They were attacking my friends too, my relatives and Khalil. It broke me more thinking they were dragged here when they have nothing to do with this in the first place.
Hannah Suarez @hannahsuarez: As much as I want to keep silent and not add fuel to the fire, I can't just zip my mouth and let you guys throw nasty subjective comments to the people dear to me. Once and for all, I will tell you guys this. I did not cheat. I am no longer in love with Fahren. Yes, it was my account. My real account. But, it was hacked. I already found out who the hacker is but I am not going to drop her name here. After everything that has happened, the respect I have for her remained. I hope you'd respect me too. If not, then at least please stop dragging names that have nothing to do with this issue.
I posted that on my Twitter, Instagram and Facebook. Marami ang nagpahayag ng suporta sa'kin, even big people in showbiz industry. Marami rin ang nag-sorry. It was overwhelming but I am not that fulfilled. Nakabuti nga iyon sa'kin, naging big blow naman iyon kay Milan. Nilinaw ko sa stories ko na hindi siya yun at hindi ako nagsalita para idiin siya but people chose to believe she's the master mind behind all of this. She's being attacked now the most.
Hindi ko rin naman pwedeng sabihin na si Rina ang may pakana ng lahat para linisin ang pangalan ni Milan. She's not in her normal state of mind when she hacked my account and I understand that now. Besides, ayokong mas palalain ang sitwasyon niya.
Right after I told Khalil what I want to do with Rina, he immediately sent her to the mental hospital. Akala ko, aangal si Rina. Thankfully, hindi naman siya nagwala o pumalag. She became silent and acted like she was expecting it to happen. Kaya ayun nga, pagdating doon, she was diagnosed with Obsessive Love Disorder. The psychologist said she must undergo psychotherapy to manage unhealthy thoughts and reactions. Rina is under observation and treatment.
Natigilan ako sa pag-iisip nang biglang mag-ring ang phone ko. My eyes widened in fraction when I saw it's my mom.
"M-Mom,"
I feel like my throat ran dry. It's my first talk with her after a couple of months!
"Anak, happy birthday."
My lips parted and before I knew it, my tears were already rolling down my cheeks. Parang may kamay na humaplos sa puso ko.
Hindi ako agad na nakapagsalita dahil sa gulat, lungkot at saya na pinaghalo. I've been waiting for this moment. Miss na miss ko na si Mommy.
"T-Thank you 'my... I love you...." my voice broke as I cover my mouth with my palm for a sob
"I love you too. Huwag ka nang umiyak anak. Birthday mo ngayon eh. You should be happy..." she was saying that but I can sense she's crying too
"Where are you? Can we meet? I miss you so much na..." I pouted as I wipe my tears
"I'm in Hongkong anak eh. I'm sorry. Maybe some other time. I will surprise you. And oh, I'm buying your gift today. You want a Birkin, right?"
Umismid ako at umiling sa sarili.
"Yes mom but I want your hug more."
Natigilan siya saglit.
"I want to hug you too, dear. I miss you so much but we can't meet now. I'm really sorry."
My heart sank but I still tried to tell her it's okay. I guess I just have to deal with this for now. Atleast, nagkausap kami, right?
"Okay. But I want to facetime you 'my. You can't say no or magtatampo na talaga ako."
That was what I did for almost an hour. Nakipag-usap lang ako kay Mommy tungkol sa mga bagay-bagay. Marami siyang sinabi sa'kin, kabilang na ang mga pangaral tungkol sa current issue ko. Nabasa niya raw iyon at apektado siya kaya lang dahil nga sa gap na meron kami, ngayon lang siya nagka-lakas ng loob na tawagan ako. Nakakapagtampo, I must admit. But I understand, ako rin naman may pagkukulang. Maging ako ay natakot mag-approach sa kanya.
"Mom, I hope it's okay if I ask this. How are you and Dad?" lakas-loob kong tanong
Kumuha ako ng unan at inilagay ito sa aking kandungan. I am now sitting on the bed, facing the magnificent sunrise peeking from the curtains.
"Saka nalang natin pag-usapan, anak. I don't want to ruin your day-"
"Come on Mom... sabihin mo nalang sa'kin..."
Bumuntong-hininga siya kaya napalunok ako.
"Nagkasundo na kaming maghiwalay anak."
I've expected that answer already but it hurts differently now that I'm hearing this from her. Parang dinaganan ng napakalaking bato ang puso ko. Of course I don't want them to....
"Wala na ba talagang pag-asa 'my?"
"Your father doesn't want me in his life anymore, dear. Hindi ko naman pwedeng ipagsiksikan ang sarili ko...."
I shut my eyes tight as I felt it heating up again. Pinaypayan ko ang aking sarili at pinigilan ang mga luhang pabagsak na naman.
Ang sakit lang. Ang sakit sakit marinig mula kay Mommy na ayaw na ni Dad sa kanya. After all these years, kung kailan ang tagal na nila, saka pa aayaw si Dad? I know toxic na ang relasyon nila... but, can you blame me if I wish they'd get back together again?
"Mom... do you... do you still love Dad?"
"Of course..."
"Then... why can't you fight anymore..."
My own words broke me.
"I want to fight, dear. God knows how much I want to fight... not for myself but for you. But, how can I fight for a relationship alone? Dalawa dapat ang lumalaban sa relasyon anak. Kung ayaw na ng isa, hindi ka na pwedeng lumaban pa. Battling for an already dead relationship is useless. It's futile."
Kinagat ko ang aking pang-ibabang labi at tumango-tango. I get her...
"Nakapag-file na ang Daddy mo ng annulment, dear. Napirmahan ko na. Approval nalang ng judge ang kailangan, mapapawalang bisa na ang kasal namin." she added using her frail voice
I gasped. I could no longer hold back my tears so I let it flow again. Those words crushed me into tiny pieces.
"Don't be sad na... it's your birthday! I told you we should not talk about this ngayon eh..." mom said to lighten up our conversation
Pinunasan ko ang aking luha at ngumiti sa kanya.
"I admire your spirit, Mom. Know that I will always be here for you. Sa inyo ni Dad. If your annulment will both set you free, then I will accept it. Be happy, mom."
Ngumuso siya at nagpunas ng sariling luha.
"You know what will make me happy?"
"What?"
"Get yourself another man."
Kumunot ang noo ko.
"Ano?"
"Nothing, anak. That was just a joke." bawi niya agad
Pinaningkitan ko siya ng mata. Maya-maya pa, nagpaalam na kami sa isa't isa. Tamang-tama rin dahil nakita kong pumasok sa kwarto si Khalil. He's wearing a black shorts and white button down short-sleeved polo. He's wearing a leather chunky sandals. Tuyo ang kanyang buhok so I couldn't figure out kung naligo na ba siya. But by the looks, mukhang ready na siya to start his day. But wait, why is he so casual anyway? Why isn't he wearing his usual tuxedo if he's off to work...
"Good morning..." bati ko at ngumiti para itago ang namamagang mata
He eyed me for a minute.
"Maligo ka na." aniya, instead of greeting me back or greeting me a happy birthday
Nakakatampo, huh. Na-cancel lang ang trip namin, nakalimutan na niya ang birthday ko. Not that I am expecting him to mark his calender for me....
"I'll eat breakfast pa, Kai."
"Okay. I'll join you-"
"What? Hindi ka pa ba aalis?"
"Sabay tayo."
Lalo akong nagtaka.
"Saan naman tayo pupunta? We don't-"
"Basta. Come on, sweetheart." he offered me his left hand
I glared at him.
"You're weird." I commented
That made him smile, tho.
"Kumain na tayo."
Tinanggap ko ang kamay niya. Hinila niya ako ng marahan upang makatayo. He then wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me closer. Napatili ako ng bahagya nang yumuko siya at bigyan ng halik ang aking pisngi.
"Good morning..." he greeted after kissing me, with a boyish grin. He looked amused with my reaction.
Agad akong lumayo at hiniyawan siya.
"Ano ba! Don't do that again! Wala pa akong toothbrush!"
Nakakahiya. Ang bango-bango niya, tapos ako...
"Hindi ka naman mabaho, ah." he said with a ghost of smile in his lips
I felt my cheeks heated so bad. Inirapan ko siya at nagmamadaling pumasok sa banyo. After fixing myself a bit, dumiretso na ako sa veranda kung saan dinala ni Kai ang breakfast namin.
"Where's Josie? Our kids?" takang tanong ko nang hindi ko mahanap sina Kala at Bala sa condo.
"They went out for a walk."
Tumango nalang ako at pinagtuonan ng pansin ang inihanda niyang breakfast. It was a special one kaya kahit papaano, naibsan ang pagtatampo ko.
Okay lang na hindi ako binati, pinagluto naman ako ng breakfast.
"Sweetheart,"
"Hmmm?"
Nasa couch na ako ngayon sa living room. Naghihintay kina Josie.
"Magbihis ka na. We're going somewhere."
"Huh? I thought you were joking earlier. Ni hindi mo sinabi sa'kin kung saan tayo pupunta." angil ko
"Basta. If you don't want to change, then we can go-"
"No! I can't go out like this! Oo na sige na magbibihis na ako. Nakakainis ka ha, ayaw mo talagang sabihin sa'kin saan tayo pupunta. Paandar karin." I ranted
While I was rummaging my closet, my phone rang. My heart leaped when I saw it's Daddy.
"Dad, good morning."
"Happy birthday."
I bit my lips as I felt my heart warming with his simple greeting. Nakapag-usap kami saglit ni Daddy. It made my day.
I changed my clothes from my silk pyjama to a white short bubble sleeve dress. It was squared neck and it ended just above my knees. It's so cute coz it has cute daisies embroidered around it. Birthday ko naman, okay lang maging kikay.
I clipped my hair with my pearl hairclip and wore my small gold hoop earrings. I sprayed a fresh-scented perfume before wearing my white Chanel bow sandals.
Naabutan ko si Khalil sa sala. He's eyeeing the gifts sent to me by the brands I've worked with, Youtube friends and bananas. Maraming cake at maraming flowers.
"Let's go." Kai smiled as he offered me his hands once again
Tss. Hindi ko alam kung maiinis ako o ano. He saw the gifts pero parang wala siyang nakita, ah! Manhid or nananadya?!? He's so bastos. He could have greeted me with a simple HBD.
"I-a-IG story ko pa 'to-"
"Mamaya na 'yan, sweetheart."
Hindi ko tinanggap ang kamay niya. I saw how his forehead creased.
"Okay ka lang?"
Ewan ko lang sa'yo.
"Tara, Han." alok niya uli
"Magpapaalam muna ako kina Bala-"
"Huwag na. You'll see them, anyway."
"Ano?"
Hindi na niya ako sinagot. Hinawakan niya ang aking kamay at pinagsiklop ang aming mga daliri. Wala akong nagawa nang hilahin niya ako palabas ng unit. Lalo lang akong nagtaka nang mapagtantong papunta kami sa rooftop.
My lips parted when I saw his chopper on the helipad of the tower. Pinapalibutan ito ng mga bodyguards ni Khalil at binati naman kami ng piloto.
Pinisil ko ang kamay ni Khalil at sinamaan siya ng tingin.
"Saan ba talaga tayo pupunta, ha?"
He chuckled and leaned to give me a brief kiss on the forehead. Gustuhin ko mang umiwas sa halik niya, hindi ko nagawa. Ang bilis, eh.
"Somewhere peaceful."
Mukhang ayaw talagang sabihin. Inismiran ko nalang siya at sumakay na sa chopper. The whole ride, I was silent. Nagtataka, natutuwa at naiinis. I don't know how to feel.
"Welcome to Coron Palawan, Sir, Madame." bati ng piloto
My eyes widened. I look down to see the beautiful turqoise seas surrounding the enchanting island. The fragile bubble of annoyance popped so fast. Napalitan ng kasabikan ang iritasyon at pagtatampo ko. Nasa Palawan nga kami!
Ohmygosh....
Gulat akong tumingin kay Khalil. Nginitian niya lang ako. He raised my hand which was intertwined with his and kissed the back of it like it's his prized possession. I lost words.
Lumapag ang eroplano sa tapat ng isang resort at lalo lang akong nagulat nang imbes na resort staffs ang sumalubong sa'min ay mga kaibigan ko. Wawa was holding the banana cake. Bench was holding a large bouquet of sunflowers while Claudine was holding the camera. Hindi lang sila ang naririto... maging si Kala at Bala rin! Karga-karga sila ni Josie....
"Happy birthday Hannah!" they all cheered