Kylie's POV
Christmas was already done, hayy how i wish na ganon lagi ang pasko. Im so full of love. Love from my family, friends, and love from my man.
Kinda emotional lately and decided to have a quality time with my self.
I booked a 3 days staycation in batangas.
I didn't say to my fam the real reason why I traveled alone.
I told them that I have a business meeting, since I have my own cafe that my dad gave me. I told them we need to fix the cafe strategy para mapalago pa ang business namin at magkaroon ng maraming branch.
At hindi naman sila nagtaka at agad akong pinayagan. I told my assistant na kapag tumawag sila yun ang sasabihin nya.
Dale didn't know also about this.
I am the only who know this. Tsaka ang assistant ko.
I need to be alone to understand my self.
Christmas and new year already passed, and it was great. I had a fun time last year. Full of love.
Flashback.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
Kasama ko ang boyfriend ko habang magkahawak ng kamay at nanood ng fireworks. Magkakasama kami ng mga kaibigan ko at sila mama.
Ang sarap sa pakiramdam na kasama ko ang mga mahal ko sa buhay ng pasko at bagong taon. Wala na kong mahihiling pa. Salamat po Lord.
Habang nanood kami ng fireworks ni Dale ay tumingin sya sakin.
"Why?" I said.
"I don't want to lose you."
"And I'm afraid to lose you too"
Hinawakan nya ang muka ko.
"Hindi ako mawawala sa tabi mo"
"I trust you Dale. I trust you."
Wala ng lumabas sa bibig nya at hi hinalikan nya ko.
"I love you"
"I will never leave you"
"I'll stay.
"Kahit anong mangyari"
"Magkamatayan na, Hinding hindi ako aalis sa tabi mo"
He said. Im flattered. I want to be with my man until my last breath.
"Hinding hindi din ako mawawala sa tabi mo. I will stay with you."
"I love you." I replied
End of flashback.
But suddenly I realized that, things will never be permanent. Its just temporary, all of this is temporary.
Masakit isipin but that's life. Temporary lahat ng nasa paligid.
I need to grow. I need to be mature. I need to settle. Im not a kid anymore to play. Im already a lady next month.
I need to fix everything. Hindi dapat ako makampante sa mga bagay na nassa paligid ko dahil hindi lahat ng ito ay hanggang dulo. Hindi lahat ay permanente sa mundo. Hindi lahat ng kasama mo ngayon ay kasama mo hanggang dulo.
Kailangan kong maging independent para sa sarili ko. Oo independent na ko pero kelangan mas independent pa.
Im not the old version of my self. I can already say now that I am a lady. I don't want to play games anymore. I want to settle things.
Kailangan ko tumayo sa sariling paa ko.
I need a peace of mind. I need a quality time with myself. I need to unwind. That's why I did this.
"Ma'am do you want some juice?"
"Ma'am?"
"Oh sorry, What?" Di ko namalayan na nakatulala ako habang pinagmamasdan ang taal volcano.
"Do you want some juice ma'am?
"Ahm, oh yes please, do you have a buko juice?"
"Yes ma'am"
"Okay i want that"
"Just a minute madam" saba ngiti nito at ngitian ko din.
This resort is nice. They have a beach, and also a pool. They have the beautiful view of taal volcano.
Actually this is a private resort, kaya tahimik at makakapag isip ka talaga.
This time I'll treat my self.
Sa ngayon kailangan ko muna ng katahimikan.
Lately puro saya, and yeah im happy, 100 percent.
Pero nababahala ako sa mga mangyayare sa future like sa susunod ba puro saya padin?
No one can say what's in the future.
Di na ko bata. Kailangan ko na magpaka ako. I mean I need to better for my future. Kailangan ko na iwan ang Kylie na puro saya at kilig lang ang gusto. I need to more matured.
Life is war, kailangan nating lumaban.
We need to fight for our self, for our future.
Life is not a party na puro saya at tawanan lang.
I have my bestfriend now, but soon magkakapamilya din sya.
Yeah we're always going out, I have an amazing time spending with Samantha.
But naisip ko na hindi laging ganon, sa mga susunod, hindi na kami laging magkasama. I mean she also need to be alone sometimes, she need to do her things.
Samantha is the only one na tinuring kong kaibigan.
I have trust issues. Hindi ako basta basta nagtitiwala.
But now I have more friends. Sila Nathan.
Konting buwan nalang at maghihiwalay na kaming magkakaibigan. I mean pagkatapos ng ilang buwan iba ibang daan na ang tatahakin namin, Kuya will have soon his college degree. College na ko sa susunod, kaming magkakaibigan, kami ng jowa ko, ibang daan na ang tatahakin.
I just can't stop overthinking. But I know I can handle this. I need to be strong. Yes I am strong.
Thats life. Kailangan nating magpakatatag at magpakatotoo.
A/N: Enjoy reading! Merry Christmas! Have a happy holiday!
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