•"I know there is a compliment somewhere deep inside of you and I'll take it."
•"You piece of shit."
•"Ah, there it is."
Silently, Sunghee glanced to the side as she tried to hide her blushing cheeks.
She hated admitting it, but holy shit...
Trouble...
"Are you sure? Because if you need anything, I will make sure I get it. I don't care about Taeyong's curfew. You just have to let me know."
Another silence settled between us, though my own heartbeat seemed to break it. I remembered the moment before this call. After staying in bed all day long I had gone to the bathroom, doing my business and fixing my appearance. On my way back I had crossed Yeeun, the guild automatically rising in me all over again.
That guilt still lingered within me, causing me to act without thinking twice and chose the life I've known instead the life that I wanted.
"I need you to-" I took a deep breath in and closed my eyes, still playing with the hem of my shirt while my feet tapped continously against my matress " to leave me alone... Please stop messaging me."
These words were enough to make my heart shatter into a thousand pieces, warm tears gradually forming in my eyes as my hand holding the phone started to shake a little. That was the boy I loved- The one I had fought so hard against at first and tried to keep him and his gang away from me as far as possible, but ironically fell for even harder than for anyone before.
"I don't want to see any of you again."
It was now the older brunette who stayed silent, not sure what to do next. I once again thought about ending the call, but Donghyuck was fast enough to gain his composure back, suddenly a bit angered about my words. After the time we had spent together, we really had gotten closer to one another and especially after our kiss, it felt as if we were starting back at the beginning.
"What are you talking about?" he got a bit louder, not understanding how I changed my mind that quickly. "What is the problem all of a sudden? "
"You are!" I yelled at him without realizing. I hadn't expected to raise my voice at him like that, but it just left my lips. Not because I was mad at him. I was mad at the fact I was ignoring my own feelings, scared to stand my own ground.
Without being able to stop it, several tears started rolling down my cheeks, dropping down on my lap while I didn't feel the need to wipe them away. "You are part of NCT, we can't be friends!"
"I don't want to be your friend!" he quickly shouted back at me, the hurt tone in his voice clearly noticeable, causing my heart to ache even more.
"I like you, Sunghee!"
My shoulders automatically tensed up while I tried to surpress a bitter whipper, instead listening how he exhaled deeply in order to calm himself down.
"I don't care how many times I have to say it, I like you. I really do... and I know you like me too. Why can't you just give us a chance?"
"Because-" my voice suddenly cracked and I hated the thought that he was right. I couldn't keep my thoughts to myself anymore though and started yelling out loud what had been on my mind lately.
"People are dead because of SVT and NCT! My entire gang hates you and your members from the bottom of their heart and I don't even know if I can fully trust you! How on earth can I give us a chance?"
I could tell that he was trying to comprehend my rant just now, hoping that he could calm me down and talk things through with me. I knew that I was weak for him though and couldn't risk talking to him any longer.
"Please let me-"
Before he was able to finish his sentence I had already hung up and threw the phone aside, bursting into bitter sobs right after while burrying my face in my hands.
Why couldn't I have met him like a normal teenager? Walking around town, accidentally bumping into him and maybe even spill a drink on him? It was clichéd, yes, but I would've preferred it that way.
If SVT and NCT hadn't caused the accident back then, would it now change anything for me? Would I choose Donghyuck, if I knew that NCT hadn't caused the accident, despite him being a gang member? Maybe, maybe not.
I wished there was one last reason that would push me to trust Donghyuck completely, but as much as I wanted to, there wasn't. I had done the right thing, but why did it feel so wrong?
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Okay okay, first of all I'm sorry for that sad shit lmao butt I'm really excited for the next chapters🤧 Kinda worried too, but I hope you will like my ideas
Anyways, that's the last chapter for today😊 Take care my lovely readers!!!!💚💚💚
