School Rumble: Miss Panicking vs Don't Panic Prof

SR. 15

True to his words he left me alone, he comes to my aid when I need something but before that it has to involve alot of shouting of 'Sir, I need you' before he comes. That is frustrating because he smirks at me and at the fact that I need to communicate with him even though I hate him. I should be happy that he leaves me alone after I sought for his help, but I'm not. Damn that blasted dream! It is to blame for all this internal turmoil in my mind. Gone was the peace of mind that I wanted. I wanna be at peace but no, he had to ruin everything.

Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko, hindi ko naman masabi yun kayla Xyra kasi tutuksuhin lang nila ako ng grabe. Kapag sinabi ko sa kanila itong problema na to, sobrang naguguluhan na ako. Lalo na kayla Nicole at Sterne kasi sasabihin lang ni Sterne I TOLD YOU SO at ayokong marinig yun. Kasi ang magiging pagkakaintindi niya dun may gusto na ako sa bwisit na yun kahit wala naman. Pero wala nga ba? Ayokong isipin na oo kasi hindi matatanggap yun. Hindi katanggap tanggap yun sa'kin.

At sasabihin pa nila indenial ako, yung confusion ko binubuhos ko na lang yun sa diary ko. At sa pagbabake ng kung anu-ano. Kaya dumadami pimples ko eh. Hay naku, kailangan ko lang siguro ng boyfriend para mawala na yun sa isip ko. Tama kailangan ko lang talaga ng boyfriend! I am so smart talaga haha. There are plenty of men naman eh I just need to find the perfect one.

"My ears are bleeding na. Stop this nonsense its like listening to a pig sing in an opera house. Stop before I break your voicebox" I know I'm mean and I love it haha. "Feisty like a tiger" you know who he is na. "Taray mo talaga 'te" kaya nga wag akong galitin di ba? "What do I need to hit you with an over ripe tomato for you to stop? Don't test my patience you don't what I can do" aba these stupid baboons are making me look like a bitch.

"I don't have a problem making you taste hell's wrath in less than an hour," I flashed fake bitch smile, this section really is annoying a bunch of big babies. Like hell two of my classmates are mothers already they should know how to handle a bunch of rowdy teenagers. "Nakakatakot na si ate Yvaine ate Xyra pakalmahin niyo kaya si ate" oh no you didn't pup "I wouldn't blow up like this if you can't take a hint to shut up. Oh my god you're college students already act your fuckin' age because the way you're acting you're like preschoolers" he's looking at me I don't care.

"Know your fucking place, you're just a student in this school not a professional yet. You haven't graduated yet you have nothing to brag yet. Don't you fuckin' feel it when the teacher gets disrespected when you chatter loudly? You not only disrespect them you step on their pride to as an individual. Hate me I don't care I don't live for you."

With that nag-walk out na ako then I cried binuhos ko lahat ng frustrations ko sa kanila. "God, what's wrong with me?" I feel like a ticking timebomb out to explode any minute now. "Walang mali sa'yo Yvaine" ano bang problema niya dapat nandun siya sa mga bwisit na yun hindi dito? "Shouldn't you be in the lab teaching those idiots?" I need a breather from all this madness good thing the school's almost over.

"Mas kailangan mo ako, kung may problema ka man nandito lang ako" Ikaw ang problema ko "You don't need to know" because you're the cause of it. "Hindi ko kayang lumayo mahal kita alam mo yan lahat gagawin ko para sa'yo sana lang bigyan mo ako ng pagkakataon na mapalapit sa'yo" so the dream wasn't a dream its real that really happened. "I'm sorry I thought what happened that day was a dream"

"Hindi panaginip yun Yvaine, mahal kita. Mahal na mahal. Ngayon ano bang gumugulo sa isip mo?" Ikaw nga sabi eh. "I thought that's only a dream but its real please stick to what we agreed on"

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shinriah