𝗗𝗲𝘃𝗼𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻

twelve

"DAMN WE UP HIGH HIGH !!" D'Nyah yelled.

"On god this is- OH SHIT !!" Xay yelled as the roller coaster went down the hill.

"BAE IM FINNA FALL I TOLD YOU I WAS TOO SMALL !!" D'Nyah screamed as the roller coaster hit all types of twist and turns.

"NO YOU NOT- MY WIGGG !!!" D'Nyah cus Xay off screaming as Xay laughed.

"Just in case these are my last few moments on this earth, thank you for making these last past five months moments that I won't ever forget !! I like you !!" D'Nyah yelled as the roller coaster approached yet another hill.

"I like you too !!" Xay yelled as D'Nyah laid her head on him.

*Flashback Over*

"Niggas really outchea playing with the wrong bitch's emotions." I shook my head as I stopped at the park hoping that no one came looking for me.

I got out and went to the nearest bench.

"Hey da, I know this ain'tcho gravesite or our to go spot, but it's a park tho." I chuckled. "I feel dumb. Like a failure to you and my mama. I still feel like it's my fault that you not here and these demons ain't making shit no better." I frowned

"I miss you da. I wish I could bring you back but I can't." My voice cracked. "And it's all my fault." I cried.

Once I pulled myself back together, I walked to my car, let the window down, and rolled a blunt.

Music played lowly and I just sat there with my feet on the steering wheel thinking about life.

Nothing good comes from this shit really. Came in the world by myself and imma leave by myself too. Don't know why my mama din abort me.

I just wanna end it all right about now.

I should've let that truck hit me.

I don't deserve life.

My mama should hate me because i'm the reason why my dad isn't here right now.

I'm the reason why he won't see me graduate.

Or have my first child.

Or walk me down the aisle when I get married.

I'm the reason why there's a piece of my heart missing.

I started crying all over again just praying to god asking for my dad back.

"Da please !!" I sobbed. "Shit is hard without you." I cried.

"A-and it's my fault." I started breathing fast trying to control my sobs.

I sat there with tears streaming down my face smoking another blunt then someone walked up to my car making me look out the window.

"You know Desmonte ?" Some nigga asked.

"Fuck is you speaking on my da for ?" I scrunched my face up.