Mr.Styles (H.S Fanfic)

Part 22

Harry's POV:

I couldn't sleep that night I kept turning around on the bed it's actually my pillow I forgot to bring it with me to here or it's just me trying to convince myself that I can sleep without them now but again I was wrong I needed them badly since back in Italy I didn't actually need them because by the time we get into the hotel I be so tired that I drink some medicine and immediately fall sleep but right now I don't need to drink medicine and I'm not really that tired

I set up on the bed giving up on trying to sleep sighing and looking outside the window seeing the tree branches moving it's probably gonna be raining tonight in this part of Carolina I learned that sunny weather is not always statement it can get really cold some nights and sometimes even storms happen but the next day the sun be so shining and warm like nothing just happened

Exactly like me and Maria. Our relationship is so unstable I don't know how to feel or think about it, I know we enjoy what we're doing and we are crossing so many lines but there's something more to it... at first I thought it's all sexual tension between us but after she called me few days ago to come to her house and when I hugged her until she fall sleep between my arms I felt something different like I shouldn't be there but I was, there's some painful twisting I feel in my chest every time I see her crying I feel the need to protect her I feel the need to be the one who wraps their arms around her and whisper soothing words until she calm down

I never in my entire life felt that attraction to anyone not even my ex girlfriends all I felt towards them was sexual needs but with Maria there's a flame burning every time we kiss or simply touch and I may sound ridiculous but I sometimes feels my heart skip a beat every time we made eye contact in the classroom

I rubbed my face with my ring less hands and pushed my hair back from my eyes seeing I should probably get a hair cut soon since it started to grow longer

I pushed the covers from my body and get up I wear my white sweater that I left on the chair next to the bed since I sleep shirtless but I can't sleep without my pillow to begin with.

I put the hoodie on my head hiding myself and putting both of my hands in my sweater pocket, I thought about smoking a cigarette outside maybe it will relax me and help me go to sleep

I opened my door quietly stepping out into the dark hallway seeing Maria's room is dark and there's no light coming from beneath the door telling she's probably sleeping
I closed the door and slowly started walking downstairs the coldness of the dark house surrounding me as I tried to find warmth in my sweater pockets

As I walked down I saw the many pictures hanging on the wall or on the far tables family pictures everywhere I see how happy they all look in each and every single picture there's no shade of sadness there's no disagreements they look so perfect the kind of family you could wish for but again here is this family falling apart slowly and I know if I didn't think fast we may loose the cause and the parents would divorce. The worst thing ever can person go through let a long a two teenage girls and a college boy is a parents divorce

They would never be the same I saw acts from Maria I never thought I would see one day at least not out of emptiness knowing she's hurt and only need a distractions by this act, I saw Noor the girl I used to see always happy, joyful, alive and always pain in the ass I saw the dark side of her I saw the shadows in her colors I saw her personality get ruined slowly and painfully and she don't deserve this, it's not her choice it's not anyone choice, I bet even Joe didn't have a choice in this she didn't want to feel unsafe she didn't want to feel weak and used by her own husband the person she loved and trusted the most just broke her trust and heart easily, I don't blame her but I also know divorce is never the solution