Diary of an Introvert 2

7: Under the starry sky

I've been staring at these stars for quite some time now. I wonder if wishing to them will make me feel better. Haa~ 

After meeting Jay last night, the pain in my heart won't stop. I thought I filled the empty spots with new memories but hearing his voice made me realize that I'm missing something; someone.

"Calvin..." 

As I said his name, tears came flowing next. I guess I'm still a prisoner of my dream.

I spent another few minutes staring at the starry sky and finally decided to do a night run. 

"Alas otso na, Cee. Plano mo pang tumakbo? Magpasama ka kay Ivan." Utos ni papa, pausing the movie he's watching.

"Pa. Kaya ko nang mag-isa at saka safe naman ang lugar natin eh. Dito lang ako sa area tatakbo, hindi ako lalabas ng subdivision." 

"Kung ayaw mong isama si Ivan, pakikiusapan ko nalang si Jay."

"Si Jay? Nagtataka na talaga ako kung bakit grabe ang tiwala niyo sa kanya."

"Kilala namin siya ng mama mo mula pagkabata kaya alam naming hindi ka niya sasaktan." 

Hindi niya ako sasaktan? I wonder if it's true. 

"Hay, okay na. Bahala na kayo sa gusto niyong gawin. Basta ako, aalis na."

I plugged my earphones on and started doing some light walks. After doing one lap of light walks, I started running. 

I kept running for 15 minutes with short breaks in between. I slowed down as I felt the cry of my legs and heard this song in my mp3.

I sat on a bench and looked at the stars again. 

Are you there? 

"Cee, ikaw ba yan?" It's Jay, on his running gear. "Anong ginagawa mo dito?"

"Ikaw? Pinapunta ka ba nina papa?"

"What do you mean?"

"Tinawagan ka ni Papa para samahan ako dito di ba?"

"Oh. Haha, sorry pero kanina pa ako nandito at naiwan ko yung phone sa kwarto ko."

"Ah, okay."

"Are you here to relieve some stress?" He asked and waited for my reply but I stayed quiet. "Hay, hindi ka pa rin nagbabago." 

"Why are you acting like you know a lot about me?"

"Hah~ I don't need to act because I really know you, Cee."

"Talaga? Bakit? Ano ba kita?" This time, he became silent. "Ba't di ka makasagot?"

He sighed and gave me a half-smile. "Nothing. Naalala ko lang na magkapitbahay lang pala tayo ngayon. It's okay, Cee." He placed his hand on my head. "I'm just glad you're back. Thank you for waking up." 

It really hurts hearing his voice.

I shoved his hand. He looked hurt and surprised.

"Can I ask you something?"

"Sure." He said with a confused look.

"Please, stay away from me." 

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