Jealousy || Yandere Hoseok FF

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(Apologies for the long time away! I don't want to make a long thing so let's just get into the book <w<)

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Kill her...break her...

°The only thoughts that flew through my mind as I walked down the street. My legs moved on their own and my hand continuously checked my pocket to feel the knife that poked out slightly but was concealed by my arm.°

°My eyes slightly glazed over. I felt like a zombie looking for brains. My mind told me something was wrong, that this wasn't something I should do, but my body continued to surge forward.°

°I wanted to stop. Really I did, but the urge to rip through her flesh, make her beg for mercy, watch her pained expression as I carve into her organs...°

Just a beautiful thought...don't you think? Why do I feel like I should stop though if it's such a nice thought? Maybe something beautiful isn't always the best...but still...just imagine her screams? The agony on her face?? Ugh why must I feel so conflicted...FUCK!!

°My legs move faster as the store comes into my sight. I go to walk into the store but I don't stop walking. I walk past feeling so many unknown uncomfortable emotions.°

Why...why didn't...I stop? Why can't...why can't I stop? Where am I...going? my head hurts...wait...wasn't I just at home?? Ow! What the?!?

°I stop walking and look down to see a knife in my pocket.°

What?!? When did I put that there?? Wait, where am I???

°I look around and familiarize myself.°

W-wha-

Hoseok?? Hobi??

I- y-yes?

You can hear me?!? You can????

Y-yeah?? Wasn't I just home???

Oh my god...HOSEOK YOU ALMOST GAVE ME A HEART ATTACK!! I WOULD HAVE DIED A SECOND TIME!! Jesus...fuck dude...what were you doing?!?? YOU DUMBASS!!

I...what was I doing?

H-huh?? You don't remember? Are you serious??

Y-yeah?

Hoseok...I...first go home...we'll talk after you get there...

O-oh okay...

°I hold on to the side of my head and go home speed walking. I didn't want anyone to see the knife, and I definitely needed to figure out what was happening.°

°I soon made it home and quickly opened my door. I slammed it behind myself and slumped down into the floor throwing the knife across the room making it slide across the wooden floor, maybe scratching it a bit in the way.°

This needs to stop...

I know! I know...but...how?!? I'm not going to ruin my life by admitting myself to a mental hospital only to admit I killed a man and now he lives in my head and I almost tried to kill a girl cause she tried to spread fucking rumors. Can you just tell me what happened...

{Josh explains what had happened and Hoseok can't help but think about the fact that the start of this was meeting Y/N. He realizes that his love for Y/N is way more then just a love. It's way more, more then just wanting to be with her, he almost wants to be one with her. He thinks of her as perfect in any and every way. But this love...no, obsession...it was way too much...way more then he realized he could handle.}

I can't do this...

Do what?

I can't be around Y/N, can I? I mean...She's the reason I've been acting so weird...

But she helped you! How are you going to blame her for thi-

I'm not trying to blame her, alright?! I just...fuck Josh...this is all too much. My feelings for Y/N are more then me just liking...or l-loving her...this is fucking crazy, and im starting to go down a dark hole that ive gotten way to deep into and that I shouldn't have ever even explored...This is in no way her fault...I mean...she doesn't even fucking know about anything at this point! But...I know that...if I end up being near her even more...this is only going to get worse...I know you care for Y/N, and I do too, and this would be the best for her...you get it, don't you??

I- fuck...I do...but don't just drop her...let her off slowly at least...just ghosting her will only make her more suspicious of you.

What do you mean "more suspicious"?

I mean, you have been acting weird. The party, the weird questions, just a couple little things that only certain people would notice, and she definitely would.

Shit...what the fuck do I do now?? now I have a weird little scandal around me, I have to try and avoid the person I love a lot, and try and keep a low profile after skyrocketing in popularity whether that's in school or just in a social status in general...fuck this...I should have just done it when I had the chance...

Don't say that.

You act like you know what I'm talking about.

I do though...

........wait what.

We technically, kinda share some thoughts since we are technically one...

Oh great, as if you weren't already attached to me enough.

Hey, it's not like I wanted this either.

W-whatever...

°I sigh putting my head back and letting it rest against the door.°

I guess for now...we just have to play...

"The waiting game..."

To Be Continued...