stigma | minsung

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it was the day of the party and minho was shaking with nerves. he hadn't spoken to jisung since their mini dispute.

he knew he messed up. jisung had no idea, or at least minho thought jisung had no idea, of the feelings he was questioning.

but if minho was being honest to himself, he wasn't questioning anything.

minho has known he was gay since the seventh grade when his best guy friend got a girlfriend and he was jealous... he wished he was her.

he couldn't stand to see them together and he hated that she basically took his spot as the boys best friend.

minho has tried to mention it to his parents, but of course they are extremely conservative and religious, believing love is only between a man and a women.

minho tortured himself with the idea of love, denying himself of his true feelings and being too afraid to really accept them.

another thought minho was torturing himself with at the moment was jisung being uspet with him... having not spoken since yesterday it was eating away at him.

he needed to speak to the boy.

private message: @quokkasungie

minho
hey
are you feeling any better from last
night?

sungie
i guess

minho
did i do something wrong?

sungie
no

minho
i don't really believe you

sungie
i'll be fine minho
i'll see you in a couple hours

minho
can we keep texting for a bit?

sungie
yeah...
is something wrong?

minho
kind of
but i don't want to talk about it
i just want to talk to you

sungie
so you want me to just distract you?

minho
yeah

sungie
can you tell me what the subject is
so i know what not to bring up???

minho
is typing

a.n.
if it's centered and italicized like this then it's just 3rd person pov to explain thoughts and stuff while they text
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minho thought about what to say. he didn't have anything that didn't directly give away his feelings.

he wanted to tell jisung his feelings were making him upset, but if he mentioned feelings for someone jisung may not realize it's him and move on from minho.

it was a battle he was having internally with what to say, eventually deciding on something he probably was better off not saying.

minho
i'm upset about you

sungie
uh—
so how am i meant to distract you from me?
also what did i dooo?????

minho
i know something upset you last night
and i don't know what it was so
it also made me upset

sungie
so much for not wanting to talk about it🗿🗿

minho
well...
you asked
and i didn't know what else to say

sungie
i'm sorry, it wasn't your fault
it's something with me

minho
i feel like that's a lie

sungie
minhoooooo
just believe me
please
i don't want to speak of it

minho
but you're not mad at me right🥺

sungie
i don't know if it's even possible for
me to get mad at you

minho
don't say that, you'll jinx it

sungie
man and i thought i worried a lot

minho
are you saying i worry a lot ???

sungie
maybeeeee

minho
rude.

sungie
not rude, just speaking the truth

minho
noo you definitely worry way more
than i do

sungie
i don't know man
i don't think soooo

minho
i think so

sungie
i changed my mind
you can make me mad>:(

minho
no i can't 🥰

sungie
yes.

minho
no❤️

sungie
YOU IRRITATE ME
I WILL SEE YOU AT THE PARTY

minho
byeeee sungie🥰

sungie
bye minho.

minho
don't be a hoe

sungie
bye minho love u so so much🥰🥰
is that better?

minho
no because you didn't mean it🥺🥺

sungie
minhooooo
of course i meant it ✋😔

minho
lies.

sungie
you right
byeeeee

minho
whattt

>>sungie went offline

minho
what a whore !!

a.n.

sorry it took me so long to get a chapter out, ive been so so busy i'm sorry everyone 🥺🥺

but ummmm ex and any and b me are just dkeodbekoffi i cant

all the song teasers literally sound so amazing

can someone send me help bc i can't freaking breathe bc of skz