Breaking up with Brandon [FIN]

Chapter 15

Chapter 15

I wish I have Anakin with me today. As a fan,naging kuntento na kami sa patingin-tingin lang sa malayo. I wouldn't say na kaming dalawa yung pinakaloyal sa mga fans ng Before Sunrise but we did our best as their supporters. Masaya siguro if hindi lang ako yung fan na mabibigyan ng chance na makilala yung iniidolo namin on a personal level, yung walang nakaharap na cameras and all. 

I wanted her to see na tama ang desisyon namin na suportahan ang mga taong ito. They are the type of people that goes beyond the physique and appearance. Hindi ko maiwasan na humanga sa bawat isa sa kanila whenever they say something or share their experiences. Mayroong depth, mayroong sense and still, with empathy and humility pa rin. They're so down-to-earth. At biruin mong, never nilang pinuna yung itsura ko. Mukha akong hindi naligo. I still have a pimple eraser cream on my face. For heaven's sake, hindi naman kasi sinabi sa akin ni Brandon na makikilala ko yung banda ngayon. 

On the other hand, never nilang pinaramdam na naiiba ako. I felt like I belong to them. Nanghihinayang ako kasi gusto ko din maranasan ito ni Nakin. Tsaka talagang gwapo sa personal si Westley. Hindi ako makaget-over. If I was Nakin, I'll fall in love with that man. Maloko lang ng kaunti because of his mature jokes but still, he's so dreamy. He looks at you in the eyes kapag nagsasalita ka. I'm a hundred percent sure that my friend would melt on that spot. 

Don't get me started with Hazen. That guy has an impeccable sense of humor. Promise may sense yung sinasabi niya but matatawa ka sa way of delivery niya. He's a witty man tapos samahan mo pa ni Greece. Para silang kambal. One does what the other does. 

And then there's the other two, Calhen and Sotto na parehong tahimik. They gave off a certain vibe na akala mo uncomfortable at first, but they were just really silent. My best guess is they were both introverted. Although hindi ko talaga maiwasan na hindi maintimidate ng presence nila. Dati akala ko kay Sotto ko lang yung mafifeel, pati din pala kay Calhen. Well, Calhen kasi was the super-smart guy in the band. It showed naman kasi kahit minsan lang siya magsalita, the rest of us were intently listening to him. Yung all ears talaga. As in. 

"What are you thinking?" Brandon asked me. 

Nandito lang kami sa loob ng tinted na kotse na nakaparada hindi kalayuan sa condo building na tinitirhan ko. It's already late pero wala sa aming dalawa ang gusto pang magpaalam. It's like we're both stretching the night so that we could spend time a little bit longer. Ngayong kami lang dalawa, it dawned on me na we hadn't seen each other for weeks pero hindi kami masyadong nakapagusap ngayong gabi. He was just sitting beside me all night and subtlely taking care of me. Akala niya siguro hindi ko napapansin yun. Kaya buong gabi ko din tuloy tinatago yung kilig ko. 

"Ang gwapo talaga ni Westley." Biniro ko si Brandon. 

Eto na talaga yung nag-iisang effective way para mainis siya. The proof of his annoyance is the thing he's doing right now. He's rolling his eyes at paminsan-minsang tumitikhim.