I was totally shook by pan's letter and his generosity, I browsed the items on my desk, I took out one of the smaller brushes and the paints.
An hour or so later I had a beautiful abstract painting of the ocean and the sand, the sky. I signed the bottom and decided maybe I should write him a letter only a short one tho, I grabbed a pencil and scrap paper,
"Dear pan,
Thank you, thank you very much.
I love the painting things I made you this though if you don't like it I apologise, I'm sorry I left you.
Your always, Wendy M. Darling"I grabbed the note and painting and placed them on pan's desk and left the study. Lucas was sat outside "hey L" I shouted "yo d how's you?" He ask "I'm fine thanks" and walked further away, I finally reached the shore and sat on a rock close to the water.
~~~~~~~time skip~~~~~~~
"Pan says to meet him near the willow" a boy says from the bush "when?" I say turning to see Dylan, "come now" he said and I get up I wonder what pan wants I finally make it to the willow and pan pulls me down I'm on all fours "pet—pan" I say remembering, pan stays silent for a moment as if he expected me to call him peter "just hush" he finally replied, he grabbed my wrist and pulled me to a familiar spot, "The fairies" I say happily, I look into the hollowed log, two tiny pixies dance hand in hand, I smile observing them I feel pans eyes on me, he looks away as I look at him he smirks as he watches he finally turns around and offers his hand bowing "again?" I ask and chucked he bows and I curtsy, he begin to dance as we once did, swaying and spinning in each other's arms.
"Thank you" he whispered in my ear "for what?" I ask "the painting I love it" he says "I thought you couldn't love" I say "maybe I lied" he replies and room falls silent for a minute.
The kiss he'd given me so long ago still hung around my neck and pan held it between his fingers "that saved my life once, you saved my life" I say and he runs his finger around the small hole created when I had been mistakenly shot.
"Ye I guess it did, why'd you keep it?" He asked letting it fall and looking back at me "because it was from you" I say embarrassed "and?" He says, frustrated I anwser "I love you", "I mean loved I loved you" I quickly corrected though I don't know if I was correcting myself or trying to justify my choices, Pan immediately pulls away "don't say that", "don't say what peter",
"The truth," I say " you don't want the truth I love you and I'll always love you with all my heart, you refuse to believe in love though It was what saved me and you" I begin to raise my voice "Wendy I don't love you" he says coldly " I read the letter" I say and anger flows through him "you what?", "I didn't mean to I found it I'm sorry but peter we loved each other" I say "BUT YOU FUCKING LEFT" he shouts, "YOU CHOSE TO GROW UP RATHER THAN stay with him" he shouts though he seems rather hurt after the last bit " all these people class me as a demon but your the real monster" he says, "I'm sorry" I say "sorry will NEVER be enough to make up for what you cost me" he flies away, 'oh my' ' what have I done'.I walk back to camp and to my room Lucas is sat on my bed "hey you good?" I say concerned he looks nervous "hi we need to talk?" He says "okay sure what's up?" I reply he stands up and take both my hands "I like you Wendy" he says his eyes never leaving my eyes, "oh wow" I reply surprised I wasn't expecting that, "oh wow?" He questioned "I'm sorry Lucas I was just a little surprising" I say looking at my feet "wait surprising, damn I don't think anyone could not like you, your kind, funny and drop dead beautiful" I blush at the sudden rush of compliments but I wasn't ready for this after the conversation id just had with Pan, "I'm sorry Lucas I just don't think it'll work" I say and I see the hurt apparent in his beautiful eyes,
"thought so" he mutters "wait what?" I ask, he turns around and says "you just have a rep for breaking hearts around here" he says and Pans words finally sunk in,
"And maybe I am a monster after all" I finally say to myself quietly.
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•it's going to hurt all over again• Peter Pan and Wendy darling fanfic
Fanfiction2ND BOOK IN PAN/WENDY SERIES (SEQUEL). Wendy ends back on her butt in Neverland, this time peter wants revenge not love. and this time, he's wiling to kill her for it. Wendy battles through her demons and tries to survive Neverland this time with n...