One Night Ride ( Chasing Romance Series #1)

Chapter 10

"Pano mo nga ba malalaman na may gusto kana sa isang tao?"

I'm really confused kung bakit ko tinanong sakanya yon. It made me realize na hindi pa pala ako nakaka-ranas kung paano magka-gusto sa isang tao. I like anime and that's it, and that's fictional characters too. I haven't experienced loving someone and those romantic feelings. Ayokong harapin, nakakatakot.

He mentioned once that he's having a crush on someone right now, maybe having a crush on someone. I can't imagine myself having a crush on someone, no, never. I can't let myself get hurt by these stupid feelings.

"May nagugustuhan kana ba?" Althea asked, habang nakuha ng pagkain.

Hindi ko sya sinagot at nagpatuloy lang sa pagkain. Do i? Meron ba talaga? Do i like him? Andami kong tanong na hindi ko masagot.

"Liking someone is like wanting something, Rome." Kiran answered. Kasama namen syang kumain dahil bumisita nanaman sya sa UP.

"Kung ako, kelan ko nalalaman kung nagkakagusto na ako sa isang tao. Yung tipong kahit existence nya lang hahanap hanapin mo, tapos kahit wala syang ginagawa napapangiti kana lang. Lahat sakanya, kontento ka yung mag-aalala kana din kung ano ginagawa nya iisip isipin mo kung ano na nangyari sakanya pag wala sya sa paningin mo. 'Saka yung magsasacrifice ka para sa kasiyahan nya," sagot ni Unique.

I shrugged. Hindi kona alam nangyayari sa akin at lalo na ngang lagi kona syang hinahanap hanap. Sino ba naman hindi hahanapin si Train? Hindi lang ako diba? Sila Althea din, hinahanap hanap sya of course.

"Kung may gusto ako sa isang tao, i'd be always here for her. Isang call o text nya lang kahit malayo pa sya, pupuntahan ko kaagad sya. I'm only one call away pag-dating sakanya," Kiran looked away after he said that.

"Parang ganoon na nga, parang nagmamahal ka lang. Hindi lang ganon na may label na kayo, gusto mo yung tao kasi nasisiyahan kana sakanya, masaya kana sakanya kahit may gusto syang iba. When it comes to loving someone naman," Kiran sighed, pretending that he was thinking of something. "Siguro ganoon din? Kahit masaktan ka, uulit ulitin mo lang. Ganyan pagmamahal 'e, hindi lahat puro masaya,"

Hindi ko na alam ang iisipin ko. Nasabi nila ang sakripisyo,pagiging kontento,sakit at pagiging masaya. Pain at sacrifice ang pinaka ayaw ko sa lahat.

I'm still new to this feeling. Ngayon ko lang nakaharap 'to, I haven't dated before, ni isa wala akong naging boyfriend. Siguro in Kindergarden masyado akong masiyahin at madaming akong nakausap 'non but, that's before my parents locked me up in my own prison. I've been on my own world since then.

"If ever naguguluhan kana sa nararamdaman mo, Rome," Kiran held my hand and softly brushed his thumb, smiling at me.  "I'll always be here."

"Sacrifice," I heard Althea whispered as she immediately looked away.

Now i get the idea of having feelings for someone. It's just that hindi lang ako masyadong exposed dito, i never loved someone before, except for my brother Ram. I love my brother dearly.

"Uy Train!" Kiran greeted.

Agad akong tumingin sa direksyon kung saan sila tumingin at tama ngang sya ang tinawag nila ng kumaway sya habang papalapit sa amin.

"Bakit? Parang may pinag-uusapan kayo na bawal kong malaman ah?" He chuckled as he seated himself beside me. Umusog naman ako para may kaunti syang space dahil baka malaglag pa sya sa inuupuan nya.

Nakatingin lang sila Althea sakanya at agad sumilay ang mapanuksong ngisi sa labi nila.

"Mutual understanding naba agad?" Althea teased, pointing at us.