Ishq-e-khairaat ✔️

31| Sorting Confusions

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ZAYAN AAHIL

My life is a complete mess now, I cannot believe myself how can I be so stupid? I always thought I was mature and could take decisions wisely and I proved myself a complete idiot. I always adored Zooni, my Chanda never have I loved anyone like I love her it took time for me to realize this. But now I'm stuck in a situation I don't know how to get out of, I shouldn't have proposed to marry Amirah. I did that because I saw all the potential qualities of a spouse in her which was the first mistake I made. I thought I would fall in love with her after marriage ain't that how all arrange marriages work?

But then I started to feel empty when I didn't see Zooni's cute smile towards me like she used to do to make my heart flutter. She won't talk to me and the need to see her even from afar grew in me each day. I longed her presence in my life, she is the moon that gives light to my every night and seeing her ignore me breaks my heart. Every night I thought different ways to approach her but then the guilt of deceiving Amirah will eat me from within. I woke up each morning tired and restless torn between two feelings.

when I met her for the first time years ago she was so small and fragile it made me want to protect her and as I got closer to her I realized how cute she was and when after years she returned to India she is a completely different, so beautiful I almost couldn't realize it was the Zooni who had puffed chubby cheeks and anger stored on her nose. Every act of hers just brings me closer to her, at first I wasn't ready to give up to my emotions I wanted to believe that all I feel towards her is a brotherly protectiveness cause even now she is soft, fragile and I would always have to protect her she is too precious to get hurt. From the past few days she has become quite to herself and also quite mature Whenever I talk to her now her replies are so witty and matured and this whole new Zooni made me feel for her something I haven't felt in my life ever. She is like a diamond to me, too precious and I want to have her, protect her till my last breath. It didn't take much time for me to realize what it is to be in love, it's the Longing of your heart to be with the one, I wanted Zooni by my side, she was my happiness, the way her eyes would light up with the smallest of things that makes her happy or the way her lashes flutter with shyness when someone compliments her how can someone not love a person like Zooni?

I was going to bury my emotions thinking that Zooni wouldn't return my feelings also it would be unfair to Amirah if I call of the wedding, it would destroy her completely so the only thing I could do was compromise but seeing Zachariah confess to her stirred something in me what angered me further was that Zooni loved me too  yet she never said anything to me. That Zooni who would come to me to tell her simplest of secrets that she wouldn't tell anyone, that Zooni who would come to crying when someone would make fun of her, that Zooni who always came to me when she's hurting was in pain now but didn't consider our relation that was deeper than the ocean. She trusted me with herself and I didn't do anything but hurt her in return.

I felt so relieved when I finally opened up to her but seeing her cry broke me further, my relief was short lived when Amirah witnessed everything, I didn't wanted to leave Zooni but right now it would be wise of me to explain everything to Amirah, so I followed her into her room

'Amirah please listen to me, I am So-'

'You love Zooni? My sister?' she asked me directly

I sighed in defeat there was no point in lying now, 'Yes Listen I'm so-' I was cut off again

'YA ALLAH SHUKAR! (Thank God)' she exclaimed

I was confised now, totally confused 'Amirah are you okay?' I asked softly I was worried now and very much confused, yes.

She turned to me with wide eyes and jumped excitedly, 'I'm more than okay Zain! You don't know I feel so relieved right now I don't know if I could've managed to break off this wedding knowing it'll hurt cause you love me and stuff but NO you love my sister! How perfect can this be?' she clapped, her happy grin was weirding me out

'So you're not mad? Like at all?' can this women clear my confusion?

'Ofcourse I'm mad, because even though being an adult how can you not tell if you're in love or not? Without a thought you proposed marrying me in front of everyone and now you love someone else that's not me and I love someone that's not you yet we're going to get married!' she slapped her head I was trying to process everything that she just say but something in perticular caught my attention

' You love someone else? ' I folded my arms

She turned back to me smiling more or less blushing, 'yeah, now don't act like you're hurt or anything it's not like I'm in love with your brother' she laughed awkwardly

'Who is he?' I narrowed my eyes

'Why do you wanna know?' she shrugged

'No I mean it's fair now that you know whom I love so it's equally fair I know with whom you're in love with' I am liking how this is going so far

'You're right I suppose but you cannot judge me or tell anyone okay?' I chuckled at her bossy behavior reminds me how similar these sisters are even if they don't want to acknowledge the truth

'Okay madam I promise, now if you tell me that name we can move to another query' I said

'Right' she nodded, 'I'm in love with Zachariah' looking at my reaction she quickly added, 'Now didn't start with all the flaws you see in him, I know you don't like him but that doesn't concern me. Also you don't choose who you fall for you simply do and you've to accept it, I don't know what he thinks about me but I'm trying not to bother that right now. For now we should think about how we will disclose this to our parents and get them to stop our marriage because no way I'm going to marry you, no offense! But knowing we love someone else I don't think we can live happily, ever we may compromise but you know I'm not among those girls. I stand firmly on what I want and I live for my happiness. So how do you think we should stop our marriage?' she turned to me I was surprised by the way her eyes were shining speaking about her love, I've never seen her smiling like that to me. I know I shouldn't be upset but I'm not complaining

I'm actually proud how she's so firm about her wants and confident with her desires. And Zooni was going to give up on me! No way in heaven am I going to let her do that, Zachariah must've Confessed to her about his desire of Pershing her but she'll be mine and I'll make sure of that.

'I don't know what to do, our parents won't take this lightly' I said

'the shortest and hardest way is to speak to them directly, if we try to do some antics then it'll just be a waste of time. We both don't want this and the have to respect out choice'

I don't think they'll respect our decision so easily not that they'll accept our choices but I'm praying for the best. The first hurdle was solved much easily than I thought all thanks to Allah Swt. I hope I can pass this hurdle as well.

I won't loose Zooni so easily not when I know she loves us too

Mohabbat Mein haar Chalo Maan bhi lete
Lekin ye jo ishq ki aatish hai
Use kaise bujhaau?
Kismat ka kharishma tou dekh
Jahan ek darfaa mohabbat Mein jee lete
Wahan ek doosre se ishq Mein dekh
Kaise haqeeqat ko thukraake
Tujhse door rahoon?
Ab tou ye qasam hai mere
Tujhe paake hi saanse lenge hum
Ishq ki aatish hai, mohabbat ki qurbaani
se nahi bujhegi

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Assalaamualaikum beautiful readers!

Your comments on previous chapters are really endearing, some of them made me laugh while others made me cry. I'm so greatful for the love you keep showwring on me and my character Zooni. We both truely appreciate your support.

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Should Zain be given a chance and be forgiven for his one mistake?

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