Finding me

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Edited: Luvhani Dathi-Praise Mudau

Cover: Caprynda Munyai

Photo: Alilali Raliphada as Rudzani

If you find any misspelled words, contradictions and errors please leave a comment.

I am here to turn myself in, I wish I could say that to keep her nosy ass quiet.

"I am supposed to be meeting someone" I say

She nods and looks away

"Do you have a case?"

Does she ever keep quiet?

"I killed my boyfriend" she smiles

I didn't know killing someone is a joke, I am convinced I should have kept quiet.

"I wish I had killed mine too but unfortunately I'm not a killer and so are you" her

I am interested in the story maybe because I will feel better and less alone if he died and she is the suspect just like me.

"Mrs Maake, a pleasure to meet you" the Constable

Don't tell me he is responsible for her case too, because it will just be a sad case.

"I'm guessing she's waiting for you and I'm curious how you were so certain that it's me" her

The Constable blushes, I told you that this guys are flirty. I don't blame him she's pretty with an afro and her adorable smile. They have a brief conversation and the constable now noticed me and signaled me to follow him.

"You are early Mrs Madima" Constable
He says as we enter his office at the back.

"Any leads on the case, you said I'm supposed to be here today" I explain

He looks at me and then at the door, the afro lady have been standing there for a while I'm guessing.

"You need a lawyer because your fingerprints all over the crime scene and most of all..." he stops

"His body? Obviously" I say angrily

The afro lady walks in and stands next me.

"Miss?" her

"Tshinondiwa Madima" I say
She nods

"I'm Molly Maake" she switched from Pedi to Venda in an instant

"No one wants your case so I will be your attorney, but I will tell you what. The next time you talk to the cops make sure I am present" Her

"Please excuse us" her again

She's referring to me, I walk out and stand in the hall way.

I have been standing here for almost half an hour and still no sign of her. What are they are talking about? She walks out smiling at me, I am sure she read my expression as quickly as she walked out.

"Let's walk through this" Molly

She is quiet and I am dying of suspense and I also want to know why she agreed to take my case.

"So his family does not like you, you depended on him and also your family too? How was your relationship? " her

Where do I begin to explain this long story that has a terrible ending?

"We fell in love in Varsity, UL and after graduation we moved in together and I wasn't lucky enough to get a job" I explain

She laughs and look at me like she's inquisitive.

"Our relationship was good but his family thinks I'm a gold digger who killed their son for his money" I explain

Her phone rings and she looks at me before answering it and that was good enough to cut this conversation.

"Ni murema ane acou pomokiwa u vhulaya muthu, asina tshitori tshau pfala. You don't have enough options maybe you don't see that" she says that and answer her phone

I have many voices in my ear telling me what I'm supposed to say or do to a point where I don't know what to do or say.

"You can have my numbers incase you want to tell me something" she hands me a card

This time she has a smile on her face. How unpredictable that she switched from the mean girl to the adorable afro lady.

"Mrs Maake..." I call running after her

I am hesitant to even say this to her, maybe because I know it is inappropriate as fuck.

"I need your help" I say in shame

She nods.

"I need a job, I know you are my lawyer and all that..." she cuts me with her hand

"You can give me your CV if you have it" Molly

I take it out of my bag and give it to her, she takes it.

"You want a lift?" she asks getting in her car

I can't say no because I will be saving money, I walk to the passenger door.

I am depressed enough to even go out and look for a job anymore. I think I have to give up I can feel it.

KNOCK ON THE DOOR

I will explode when I open this door, who be banging on my door like this.

'What the fuck Nondi?" she push me aside as she gets inside

She wants the latest update on the case and I want nothing to do with anyone on my business. I close the door and walk to bed.

"Why are you locking yourself up and ignoring everyone?" Rudzani

She is my childhood friend, her life turned out differently from mine. She is a dentist with her own practice but I wonder why she is still friends with me because we are not on the same level.

"I want peace and I'm not going to get that with everyone in my business, there's no update okay"

"Una called me yesterday..." Rudzi

"About my Mom?"

I am supposed to answer to her now since she has been helping me with my family ever since Thabelo died.

"She wanted money, I did send her but you can't keep everyone out of your life forever. I know you feel like you are alone but I am here for you and so is your family"

I am already in tears, I am tired of being strong. It's hard being strong when you are broke and hungry.

"I am here for you" Rudzani says as she embrace me

"I might go to jail Rudzani" I cry