I'm Just

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by UniqueToh826

by UniqueToh826

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Para sa mga nagmamahal sa Bestfriend nila

: I'm Just 📇

#onesidedLove

"She hurt me"

We are sitting in the bench of our school near in the office when he told me that line.

Honestly, I heard that line if I'm not mistaken, I think it's almost ten or eleven times at kung tatanungin niyo ako ayaw ko na sanang marinig pang muli ang mga salitang yun. It's not that, I'm tired of listening to him or I have no times for those kinds of talks, its' just that, if he was hurt that much my entire body felt double of it.

He was my bestfriend when I was in high school
Nakakahiya mang sabihin but some of our classmates and schoolmates thought that we have an intimate relationship more than friendship but He always laughed on it and tell them that

"We're only friends"

Every time He said that line, ngumingiti lang ako sa kanya and tried to keep the Pain in my eyes.

'Yes, I was hurt!'

I must admit He is so chick boy
He always have girlfriends in left and right of his hands to the point that he would forget about me
But the saddest part of that.
He's the only one who get serious on their relationship and by that he always got hurt. When he finally left of his girlfriend and obviously when He finds no one on his side and felt alone
He always run to me and cried
That's my role, a best friend and a tissue paper!

I really don't know what to do when I saw the little drops rushing down on his eyes
I felt my heart teared and little by little become helpless

"I don't know if I'm going to love again"

He said.
I sighed

He really got with his latest ex-girlfriend,
He haven't told me that line before and I think he really got hurt and need me, not as a lover but a Bestfriend

"I don't know who's going to love me seriously"

'Me! me!'

I want to shout that, gusto Kong sabihin na ako nalang, gusto kong sabihin na nandito lang ako, na nangmamahal sa kanya. Gusto kong sabihin na
sana ako nalang! na ako nalang ang mahalin niya.

But I know He will only laugh at me and surely say

"Anu ka ba, magkaibigan lang tayo!''

And I must admit. I can't accept those words. Hindi ko yun matatanggap.

Tumayo siya and wiped his tears without saying anything.
He walked away and left me as He always do everytime na magkasama kami
He always and always don't give such attention for me

I'm always at the least of his priorities.
Suddenly, I felt raindrops fall on me
I felt alone and eventually warm droplets roll on my cheeks..

Yes! I cried harder and pour out all the bad feelings I kept for almost four years of my life with him.
Suffering with this unwanted feelings for a guy who can't even noticed me. Who can't even see me kahit ibalandra ko pa ang sarili ko sa harapan niya.

I cried this much because I know no one can see me crying
No one except this rain that keeps on falling throughout my whole self!
Siguro nararamdaman din ng ulan kung gaano kasakit ang nararamdaman ko,
Palagi kasi siyang bumabagsak every time I'm crying
Kung kaya ko lang sana tanggalin at pigilan tong feelings ko for him
Matagal ko na sanang ginawa.

Kung ako nalang kasi sana ang minahal niya
Hindi sana kami parehong nasasaktan!

Kaya lang...
wala eh!
I'm just His bestfriend!

I'm just.....

"If I can give you one thing,
I give you the ability to see yourself through my eyes..

Only then would you realized
How special you are to me "

✒@UniqueToh 📝