Alone

Break

Carla
I decided to go down to the basement where all my dad's stuff was.

I wasn't looking for anything in particular but I just missed him. Harley was the one who made it easier for me.

Now that she's gone too all I have is he's stuff.

I pushed Jayden away while I was mourning Harley. So we haven't spoken that much.

My mum on the other hand, after the first day she stopped caring. She just went back to work as usual.

Donny's getting worse he spends most of he's time at the hospital now.

And that's why I'm alone all over again.

While going through my dad's stuff I found a bag and an envelope inside.

As I was about to take a look at the envelope my mum came from behind and pulled it out of my hand.

"What the heck mum". I said out of shock.

"What were you doing?" She said looking troubled.

"I was just looking through dad's stuff".

"Well I don't want to ever see you down here again let alone going through he's stuff". She said

"Why can't I go through he's stuff?" I asked dumbfounded.

"Because I say so now get out of here". She said pointing at the stairs.

"Unbelievable" I said as I walked up the stairs. I saw her tuck the letter back in and take the bag.

I really didn't pay much attention to that. All I thought of was how she was acting.

As I walked into my room I saw Jayden sitting the bed.

"What are you doing here?" I asked him still trying to avoid looking at him.

"Well hello to you too. And yes I missed you too". He said sarcastically and I just rolled my eyes at him.

"I'm serious Jayden".

"Okay, I'm sorry. But honestly I've missed you Carla. And I know you're going through a lot but why are you avoiding me". He said as he walked up to me.

"I'm not avoiding anyone". I said still avoiding eye contact.

"You know I'm always here for you no matter how many times you push me away. I love you Carla". He said while placing he's arm on my shoulder.

I brushed he's arm off " I know you love me but"

"But what Carla"

"I just need to be alone for a while okay. You could do at least that much for me"

"What are you tryna say?"

"I need space. I think its best if we take a break for a while"

"Carla you gotta be kidding me. A break". He said I felt he's rage build up while he tried to control it.

He always controlled he's rage in front of me but this was the first time he almost let it out.

"Please Jayden this is the least you could do for me. I just need to think and set my head straight".

"Fine. If that's what you want". He said then walked out through the door instead of using the window.

He walked passed my mum without saying a word.

"Why on earth was that boy in your room. I only allowed it once because Harley had just died. Its totally unacceptable now". She kept blabbering while I wasn't really paying much attention.

"Mum please not now".

"What do you mean not now. I'm talking to you. If you're gonna live under my roof you better behave".

"Yes mum". I said just to shut her up before she left the room.

All I could think about was what I just did. If it was the right thing or not. It wasn't Jayden's fault but I ended up punishing him instead.

All he wanted to do was to be there for me when I had no one. But I pushed him away.

I guess I'm better off alone.