Owning My Ex (Published)

04

Life goes on. It won't stop just because you're sad or broken. At kahit nasasaktan ako, nagpatuloy pa rin ako. I've never been like this, hindi ako kailanman naghabol, hindi ako naghabol dahil lahat ng gusto ko madali ko lang nakukuha kung nanaisin ko. Kayang-kaya kong magpaikot ng isang tao para sa sarili kong kasiyahan. Pero pagdating kay Luhennce, handa akong maging sakim. Para sa kaniya, handa akong maging tanga.

"Miss Amanda?"

"Yes?"

"Meeting at 3 o'clock, miss."

"Thanks!" I nodded at her before fixing my dress.

Tiningnan ko ang oras at ilang minuto nalang ang natitira at magsisimula na ang meeting ko. Kailangan ko ng matapos, ng makaalis agad ako at magawa na ang paulit ulit kong gustong gawin. The meeting lasted for almost one and a half hours. After that, ay nagmadali na akong umalis, letting my secretary handle things for me. I'll pay her double for that.

I received a message from my tracker, nasa school pa si Luhennce. Good thing, maaabutan ko ang paglabas niya. Silly Amanda, it's becoming your habit to see his annoyed face. Tanggap ko na 'yon kesa nung limang taon na kahit anino niya, hindi ko nakita.

To hun:

Hey! Can we go out for coffee after your class?

To hun:

Just 30 minutes, my treat.

To hun:

Okay, 20 minutes? Just a cup of coffee nearby.

To hun:

10 minutes? Madali lang promise.

Sunod-sunod ang text messages ko sa kaniya, pero kahit isa'y wala siyang nireplayan. Nakakainis! Kahit manlang sana magreply siya ng ayaw niya! I tried calling him, but he didn't pick up the phone. Mabilis akong nagmaneho paputang Dastan. With my sunglasses on, I walked out of my car and leaned against it, waiting to see him. Pinagtitinginan na ako ng mga estudyante, but that doesn't bother me. I'm busy looking for my man.

My heart almost jumped when I saw him, hands in his pocket... wearing his uniform as a professor. He looks really hot with his glasses. Some girls like guys who completely have that badass style, but me. Well, Luhennce is my total type. Serious, a bookworm, intelligent, and charismatic.

The smile on my face vanished as my brows shot up. My lips pursed as I watched him slightly let out a smile while talking to someone. I might have accepted it if he were with Mitsuika, but he's not.

I guess that woman he's having a good time talking to is one of the faculty. She looks infatuated with Luhennce, and that is not a good idea, as much as possible. I don't want anyone to take him away from me. Mabilis akong naglakad para harangan silang dalawa. Ang ngiti sa labi ng babae, ay unti-unting mawala nang mapansin niyang nakaharang ako sa kanila. Luhennce's eyes settled on me, and his calm face became tense as his eyes glared at me.

"Hi hun! Have you forgotten what we talked about?" nilingon ko naman ang babae at mukhang napapahiya na siya sa akin.

"Who is she? A friend? Or another woman you want to bet on? She's not even your type."

"Amanda," mariin at nagbabantang suway ni Luhennce sa akin, pero tinaasan ko lamang siya ng kilay at nilingon muli ang babae.

"I-I have to g-go Luhennce..." mabilis na itong tumalikod and when Luhennce's about to chase after her, I immediately grab his hand to stop him.

"What the fuck are you doing, Amanda?!"

"What? I am just letting her know that you're mine."

"I am not yours, Amanda!"

"I own you, Luhennce." mariin na sabi ko.

"You owned me, yes! But it's all in the past now! I am not yours anymore, so move on!"

"You're still mine, Luhennce, all mine. And you can't just tell me to move on because you know I won't. You're not going to like it if you keep on pushing me away. I can be the bitch you always thought I was." humalukipkip ako sa harapan niya at matapang siyang hinarap, nanghahamon at naniniguro na kayang kaya kong gawin lahat ng gusto ko. Things will go my way. Luhennce, if you want to make things hard for me, I'll find a way to make it easier.

He ruffles his hair in frustration and says, "Now you sound like you're going to blackmail me? That's too cliché, Amanda! Stop acting like a child and accept whatever shit happened between us! You ruined us! So better shut the fuck up and leave me the fuck alone!" I stiffed the moment he said those words while pointing at me. Gigil na gigil siya sa akin ngunit hindi ako masyadong nagpatinag. He was about to leave me when I made him stop without even moving.

"Blackmailing you isn't included in my plan to get you back, Luhennce. But if you keep pushing me away, you'll see how cruel I can be. And when I become cruel, everyone around you will suffer from my wrath. " This entire conversation has shattered me a million times. I was hurt, in pain, and suffering deep within myself.

"Stop it Amanda, we're over! Gaano ba kahirap intindihin 'yon?"

"Yes, we were, but I am here to fix everything! I want you back. All I want is a chance to prove myself to you. Just one chance to fix what I've ruined. I know you still love me, but you're just mad at Luhennce. So please... I am begging you to please give me a chance. Don't leave me again, like how you left me without knowing my reason." napayuko na ako, I don't want him to see my eyes. I never cried in front of him. Siguro kung may pagkakataon na nakita niya akong umiyak? Noong lasing ako.

"Do whatever you wanted to do, you want to ruin me? To show me how cruel you are? Go on, I am so full of your bullsh*t that I am starting to get used to it. Go on, Amanda! The floor is all yours. I am not even bothered." pagkasabi niya noon ay mabilis siya naglakad papalayo at lumapit sa natitiyak ko'y kotse niya.

Galit na galit akong pinanood siyang magmaneho palayo. My hands fisted as I stomped my feet on the ground because of irritation. Ramdam ko ang pangingilid ng luha ko, kaya agad kong sinuot ang sunglasses ko to hide it. I pursed my lips as my jaw tightened. Let's see how long you can take, Luhennce.

Kung hindi kita makuha sa pakiusapan, kukunin kita sa paraang hinding hindi mo na mahihindian. I am not called a bitch for nothing. Malas ng mga babaeng lalapit at aakit sa 'yo.

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