FLOWER TATTOO (JoongNine)

11- ZERO CHANCES

"Earth? Oi! What are you doing there?" I groaned as i watched him stand there like a statue with widened eyes as if he saw something so horrifying. What did he even see? Like, inside the janitor's room?

He snapped out of it when i almost got the chance to slap him awake.

"N-no! I-i mean, it's no-nothing! C'mon! Let's go! The library is waiting for us! C'mon, Joong! Hurry!" He tried to drag me away but i stood still. I wanna know too!

I tried to take a a peek from where he was looking at earlier but he stood infront of me, completely blocking the view.

I whine, "Earth! What were you looking at? I wanna see, please. You look so terrified, earlier!"

He laugh nervously. My right eyebrow raised at that. He's acting weird.

"W-what do you mean? Hahaha, no i wasn't!" I got the chance to pushed him away without any much force so that i could now see what he was staring at inside the janitor's room. There was a small rectangular window attached to it's door.

He quickly grabbed my arm before i could take a look, clearly.

"Joong. You might not want to see that." He said sternly which made me stiffened. Earth has never been this serious before.

Now, it only made me more curious.

I shrug his hold on my arm and smiled at him, "It's okay, Earth—"

I stood there frozen.

I couldn't move. It feels like my whole body's so heavy that all i could do was stare.

What..what is he doing here? H-how?

I clenched my fist and gritted my teeth as i watch how P'Josh whispered something to P'Nine's ear. He was so dangerously close to him.

What the heck?! Since—since when did they get this close?! What are they even doing inside the room in the first place?! How dare he do that to P'Nine when he has a fvckin' girlfriend?!

I could feel the anger rushing throughout my whole body. My breathing coming out, rapidly.

I was about to barge in when Earth stopped me, once more.

"Joong. Stop. Whatever you're thinking stop it. Don't." He looked at me straight in the eyes as he spoke to me. My subconscious slowly spoke to me right then.

He doesn't even want to be your soulmate, Joong. You don't have the right to stop them.

He doesn't fvckin' love you back.

I couldn't seem to look away as i watch how P'Nine put his hands at P'Josh's shoulders. He looks happy.

I glance at Earth with tears wanting to spill from my eyes.

"Earth. It hurts." I clenched the part where my heart is beating. It hurts.

His eyes softened, "C'mon, joong. Let's just get out of here." He grabbed my arms once again.

But, i couldn't help but steal a glance at them.

As i watch with tear strained eyes how they were both giggling while their faces are so close to each other made me realize, how perfect they look together.

I bit my lip trying not to cry out loud.

Then, suddenly, P'Josh eyes catches my own. He smirked and put his face even closer to P'Nine's.

My heart stopped for a beat and a tear fell from my eyes.

I want to punch his face. I want to pull him away from P'Nine. I want to barge in and say right in front of his face that "that's my fvckin' soulmate, don't touch him!". I want to yell at him, scream at him to stop stealing what's mine.

But, was there even a 'mine' to begin with?

I sigh shakingly.

"Earth. Let's just go." I rush as i tugged him with me and we ran away from that area.

I lowered my head down to prevent others from witnessing my current situation.

We stopped at the garden and took a seat at a bench far away from the students.

"Joong. You can cry. It's okay." As soon as Earth caress my back, I couldn't help but bursts into tears.

"I-it hurts. Earth, it—it hurts. I—i just want—i just want him P'. Why—why does it hurt so bad?" I sobbed as i covered my face with my hands.

Why can't we just fall and be happy? Why is it so hard to find happiness?

Earth softly removed my hands from my face and made me lean into his shoulder.

"Shh. It's gonna be okay, joong. I'm sorry. I'm sorry that you're feeling this way. Everything will be okay soon. Shh." I continued to cry as i let Earth soothe me with his caring touches and calming voice.

But, no matter how he tries to calm me down, there's always this feeling of something missing inside of me.

Like a puzzle that's waiting for the right piece to complete it.

And i know where that piece is.

It's just that..the right piece already found another puzzle to complete.

"Earth, I really really love him. More than anything else. Even, more than myself." I murmur, curling further into his warm embrace.

"I know, Joong. I know."

I sniff as i stare at the sky helplessly.

A flash of their body being close to each other suddenly popped up again into my mind.

I put a hand on where my flower tattoo is.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry because this time..

i'm giving up.

A loud gasp suddenly came out from my lips as i clutched my heart specifically my tattoo.

"Joong?! Joong! What's wrong?! What's happening? Joong!" I could hear Earth shouting my name but all i could focus is how the pain is slowly taking over my whole body.

"Ear-earth! My—my flower tattoo. Hurts. Something—wrong...."

Those were the last words that i forced to let out as i slowly feel my body falling into the ground and darkness consuming my vision.