Portion Control

Chapter 1

This is for anyone who is struggling. You aren't alone. It's hard but people around you show their love and support. If not I will because I'm here for you. I'm not a licensed doctor of course though.

Kai is a teen and I would like for you to picture him honestly however you want but how I see him is a swimmer built body, brown hair, dark hazel eyes. You can picture him however just know I used these details to describe him in the future.

Thanks for reading !❤️

POV: Kai

"Kai get up." My mom says banging on my door.

I groan and rolled off my bed. I know, wow you have your mom get you up? You're almost 17! I'm lazy. I'm a teenager. I'll grow out of it probably. Hopefully?

"Kai, mom says if you don't get up in thirty seconds then you won't be having breakfast!" Alice yells though my door.

Alice is my little sister. She literally got all the good jeans from my parents. Good teeth, hair, face. She is talented in her sports. Her personality is good too and I just look like complete shit next to her. She's the better sibling.

"I'm up already!" I yell trying not to add, 'fucking bitch' after it. I get angry sometimes, well only with certain things. My mom tries to tell me I can control it but sometimes I feel I can't. She doesn't give me any instructions on how to. God how do I fucking control it?

I got up and changed into my uniform. I looked in my bathroom mirror after fixing my hair and looked back in disgust. I had been semi popular due to my social status and 'looks' according to my best friend Asher. But I never could tell why I got the attention from girls, that I got.

I rushed downstairs bumping into my sister who gave me a cold glare and moved along. I got to the table and my mom looked at me disappointingly.

"Kai you're gonna be late go grab a snack. You need to get up earlier." She says angrily.

"I know I know." I say getting pissed off. Like it's not my fault I can't wake up to alarms?

"No Kai. You don't. You think you know everything. One day you'll realize that and then I'll say I told you so." She says matter-of-factly. "Take your medication you are going to make your sister late!" She says grabbing my keys from the key rack and throwing them at me as I try to open my medication bottle. Frustrated with her rushing me.

"Okay." I say grasping the keys with my one hand and turning around to roll my eyes so she doesn't see me. I grab my bag and put it on.

I take my medication which is for my ADHD. Well ADD but I do switch in between. It depends on who you ask. When I'm more sad it's ADD. When I'm happy it's ADHD. It switches but my mom says I have ADD. Honestly for me I don't see the difference. Yet, I'm the one with the disorder.

I head out the door and get into the car where Alice is sitting already with her AirPods in looking at her phone. She looks up at me and her head tilts to the side.

"Where's your breakfast?" She asked me. Confusion laced through he voice.

I pointed to the clock which was about to strike 7:20. Continuing to start the car ignoring her say how excited she is for high school- Oh yeah today's the first day? Gross I'm a junior now? One more year after this boys and girls.

I walked into the building with bright florescent lights slowly as I felt numbness wash over my body. I cut across the hall and went to my home room to find my locker number. Truth is no one uses their locker. I just store my textbooks in there for fun. I grab the locker combination the teacher wrote on a slip and slipped it into my bag. I'm honestly hilarious.

As I walked into the hallway my two friends Asher and Machi rush up to me.

"Yo dude how have you been!?" Machi days while giving me a 'bro' hug.

"Uh- good. What about you guys haven't heard much?" I say Confused as to why they are hyper today.

"Bruh it's the first day and I saw these girls checking me out I swear." That's Asher for you. Asher is a lower class white family. He doesn't have mad money, but he ain't poor as fuck either. He literally got blessed with how he looks. He doesn't do sports yet his body never gains weight and stays toned.

Machi on the other hand rolled his eyes. Machi is a mixed boy who gets all the ladies. He's buff as fuck from football and smart as hell. His parents were druggies and his dad died when he was younger. This is why he is living with his single aunt in a run down house. He acts like he's poor but he has the latest iphone and a flatscreen TV in his room. 

"What are your first blocks?"

"Chemistry."

"Calc." Machi says with a sigh.

"Oh I have gym." I say disappointed we don't share our first blocks.

"At least we got lunch? I'll see you guys later I'm going to meet up with someone before class." Asher winked as he spun around heading the opposite way, leaving me and Machi alone.

"Im goin' to gym. I'll catch you later. I say as I left Machi him nodding and saying something about him going to calculus.

When I got to gym I went into the locker room getting my gym locker information. I wondered why I have gym in the morning. This will be hell.

"Okay everyone find you lockers and dress out!" The teacher who's name I still haven't checked on yelled.

I said hi to some people I know from last year. Girls waved at me and shared glances while talking with their friends. I felt almost, insecure? I walked into the gym and sat with Miles. He is a sophomore that I met last year. He is a pothead and is rarely caught sober in school or anywhere really. We talked and met with a few of my friends for the rest of class.

Lunch came around fast because of it being the first day. Asher and Machi get free lunch due to their household income. I don't but it doesn't bother me. I stared at the money my mom gave me for my lunch in my hand. Maybe I could save the money and not get lunch? I never really eat lunch due to my medication. I'm honestly never really that hungry?

I then realized I never ate breakfast. I shrugged it off and decided to just drink my water and go to the table and wait for Asher and Machi.

Shoving the money into my pocket I walk to the table I've sat at for the previous 2 years. I looked up when I saw this girl sitting at the end of the table by herself. Maybe she is a new freshman? Whoever she is she is about to get attacked by Chloe Norum and Kiki Cardinal.

Chloe and Kiki are crazy bitches. I usually don't use that word to describe women. They are quite the exception. Chloe told my first girlfriend that she had sex with me and pulled a video from the internet of people fucking and showed her. Kiki tried getting in my pants and touches me when I really am not at all interested. She also criticizes everything I do like it's her own life.

I sat there and wondered about the girl. Maybe I should ask her to come sit over here? Maybe I'll look crazy? Would I look like I'm stalking her? What if she thinks I'm ugly? I think she's really beautiful-

Wait.

What?

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Chapter 1 complete!

I was very nervous to write a story that deals with an eating disorder specifically. I didn't want people to think I was copy them or something but I'm not because this is no story other then my own.

Some may ask how did Kai come about? Kai's journey will have some of the struggles I had/still have.

It of course isn't my full story. Kai will have different struggles. He is going to grow and learn and I'm excited I can actually start writing.

I am hoping I get good feedback so I won't feel like abandoning this book. The only reason I abandoned my other book is because I've grown a lot from my writing.

This chapter is unedited as of 04/15/20 and I will get on that right away. Don't feel scared to comment if there is a spelling error as I have dyslexia and offer mix up certain words/letters.

Enjoy staying at home and be safe!

~Aly