when you give life a proper treatment, life will give you hella damn problems.
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Porshia's POV:
Nakatulala ako sa kawalan habang unti unti nanamang nalalaglag sa pinlano ko ang buhay ko.
"He did not fucking signed!"
Sigaw ko habang tumilapon ang unan sa pader. Gigil na gigil na ako at di talaga ako makakain o makatulog o makaiyak o magalit! I'm so frustrated.
Napagdesisyunan ko maghanap ng bukas na pharmacy to have some Diphenhydramine. I need some sleep, hindi ako makatulog sa sinabi ng aking ex- uhh BASTA NI AARON! Byuda na dapat ako ngayon.
"HE'S ALREADY DEAD TO ME PERO BAKIT PARANG SYA PA YUNG NAGMOMOURN?!"
I banged the horn of my car. Hindi ko kaya yung ganitong frustration. Ang hirap mafrustrate ng may fixed feelings. Hindi ko kinakaya yung sarili ko na maput up sa ganitong stress. Kailangan kong magingat para sa sarili ko.
Because who will be the one to take care of you, appreciate you, and love you the most, more than yourself? WALA NA SIZ!
So I instantly drove wherever I want to and stopped in a pharmacy. Yun lang bukas dito, I dunno. I was doubting at first,BUT I TRUSTED MY INSTINCT. HULI KONG GAMIT NITO MAY BABAE YUNG ASAWA KO AND BOOM TOTOO NGA.
I went in the counter and who the fvck did I saw there? A PharmaBITCH I mean, ugh. That freak got a degree? BITCH HOW?
"Oh look what we have here"
Sabi ni Anya na may taas baba ng tingin sakin na parang matitignan nya ako sa paa. Huh! Over the wood counter.
"Hi, do you have some Diphenhydramine?"
Inismiran nya ako na para bang di sya professional at wala sya sa shift nya. I was looking at the cameras and I was just smiling. People will never know how mean you are if you make yourself look like the most innocent one.
"Why? Para idaan sa tulog ang pagiging ahas mo?"
She said with confidence. I mean, look who's talking. Hindi ko nalang talaga alam kung naririnig nya ba sarili nya o hipokrito lang sya.
"Look, I just need a good sleep, bawal ba yun?"
Tinignan nya ang nails nya na parang it's worthy to flex to. Halata namang cheap salon ang gumawa. Why is she even trying so hard?
"Makakatulog ka sa mukhang yan?"
I smiled, seryoso ba sya? wala na bang ibang pharmacist or assistant ng pharmacist dito? Professional na ba talaga to?
"Oh honey, I love your look. Usually kasi yung mata mo lang nakikita ko, nagaabot ng lobo, sa may imburnal... saying Georgie?"
Teka, baka hindi nya magets, baka hindi nya pinanood yung IT.
"Excuse me?!"
So ayun nga salita sya ng salita tapos pag ako na yung nagsalita sakanya halos mamatay na sya sa galit. Sinasabi ko na nga ba, pag ako yung nagsalita, depressed to.
"I need some medicine, Just do it"
Inirapan lang nya ako at gusto na yatang magtaas ng middle finger sa ere. Seriously girl? In your workplace? you dare to do that?
"Can't you read? it's fundamental. Nasa Pharmacy ka, you buy medicines here."
I laughed. Ewan ko, napupuno na ako. Stressed out ako and all I need is a sleeping pill.
"Although reading is fundamental, matuto ka muna magspell you illiterate fuck"
Napaawang nalang sya ng bunganga. Told you, mahirap ako tapatan. Inilahad ko ang kamay ko. Sign na kailangan ko na talaga ng gamot.
"Alam mo... you're talented, you're beautiful, and smart, and attractive.... all of those things are inside your box..."
Ngumiti sya bigla, bitch I'm not yet finished
"....under missing"
Ngumiti akong evil at lalong natuwa sa ginawa ko. Hindi ako nagsisi na dun ako bumili ng gamot.
As soon as I went home, I tried my best to sleep kahit ang hirap hirap makatulog kapag stressed out.
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