The Plus Side of Negative Thinking

Intro

Hello, readers! Thanks for checking out this book. It's been a long time since I've started a brand new novel (years and years!) and I'm very excited about this one. I've drawn a lot from my own experiences and I hope you find it enjoyable. I'm open to all critiques and feedback, so please feel free to leave comments, and vote if you like it! I'll be trying to update one chapter a week, on Sundays most likely.

Below is the cast and playlist if you want to check it out. If not, feel free to move on to Chapter One!

Cast:

Playlist:

You can find the playlist on Spotify by searching "Mathletes" (the one by agirlinport)

The link is also in the inline comment here:

1.     "Illuminate" – Kid Runner

Here's a girl with the lights down low
I didn't know I was barely breathin'
I realized that I lost control
Always a reason not to believe in me

2.     "All Alright" – fun.

I've given everyone I know
A good reason to go
But I came back with the belief
That everyone I love is gonna leave me

3.     "Wrecking Ball" – Mother Mother

I made a wreck out of my hand
I put it through the wall
I made a fist and not a plan
Call me a reckless wrecking ball

4.     "Let It Happen" – Jimmy Eat World

I have a ringing in my head
And no one to help me answer it
Even with you close enough to kiss

5.     "Can't Lose" – We Are Scientists

I'm breaking my own rules, becoming someone else
Well everybody says I oughta get over myself
I'm thinking I can't move
If there isn't somewhere else to go

6.     "Tangled" – Maroon 5

There is nothing left to say to you
That you want to hear
That you want to know
I think I should go
The things I've done are way too shameful

7.     "Someone To You" – BANNERS

And if the sun's upset and the sky goes cold
Then if the clouds get heavy and start to fall
I really need somebody to call my own
I wanna be somebody to someone

8.     "Train Wreck" – James Arthur

It's not too late to build it back
'Cause a one-in-a-million chance
Is still a chance, still a chance
And I would take those odds

9.     "Shoulders Back" – Honest Men

I'm the one with the problems
Couldn't admit in the first place
I kinda wanna be honest
When people ask if I'm okay

10.  "Hiding Bottles" – Bear's Den

Think I hear what you're saying, think I need a drink
Yeah I'm keeping it together but you don't know the half of it
It's starting to show, no I'm not on top of this

11.  "Surviving" – Jimmy Eat World

Never was your fault but still a part to play
You carry it so close you can read its name
In a lot of ways you're still that lost kid
Yeah, you can still survive but not exactly live
No, not exactly live

12.  "Remember Who I Was" – James Arthur

I'm just waking up now, in the tears of the ones I love
It's quiet, I'll bet that everybody thinks I'm done
I need to get up now, I've been down here far too long
Two years I've been lost, now I remember who I was

13.  "Too Much" – Magic Man

Take my burning heart
Just stay the night, and I'll keep my promise
But every single day that passes by is making me more dishonest
There's too much I make up, as soon as I wake up
There's too much I make up for me

14.  "Little Secrets" – Passion Pit

Mother I can tell what you've been thinking
Staring at the stars on your ceiling
Thinking once there was a power that you were wielding
And now I've hit the mark
Stabbing at the dark
And I cannot help but ignore the people staring at my scars

15.  "Inaction" – We Are Scientists

Counting on my relative friends
When this keeps coming up again and again
If everybody knows how it's gonna end
Why doesn't someone stop me?

16.  "Bad Liar" – Imagine Dragons

So look me in the eyes
Tell me what you see
Perfect paradise
Tearing at the seams

17.  "Let You Down" – NF

You don't wanna make this work
You just wanna make this worse
Want me to listen to you
But you don't ever hear my words
You don't wanna know my hurt, yet

18.  "Falling" – Harry Styles

What am I now?
What am I now?
What if I'm someone I don't want around?
I'm fallin' again
I'm fallin' again
I'm fallin'

19.  "when the party's over" – Billie Eilish

Don't you know too much already?
I'll only hurt you if you let me
Call me friend but keep me closer
And I'll call you when the party's over

20.  "Mean It" – Lauv, LANY

Don't kiss me right now
Don't tell me that you need me
Don't show up at my house all caught up in your feelings
Don't run me round and round
Don't build me up just to let me down

Thanks for checking out the story!! I hope you enjoy!