Backfire (1)

Chapter 15

 " Aren't you coming to the party ? " Seth asked worried .

I paused and sighed , running a hand through my hair .

" Maybe. " I replied  , not looking back as I walked upstairs and laid down on the bed . 

I just laid there a moment . I hadn't realized I'd fallen asleep until I heard a knock on my door . 

" Hmm ? " I asked , rolling over . 

I was still in my sweat pants and I was groggy and not really feeling like much . Rosalie walked in with a slight smile and sat on the edge of the bed .

" Are you alright ? " she asked , looking a little worried . 

I sighed . 

" Sure ... " I said , trailing off not really sure if I was or not .

I'd been having alot of nightmares lately and I hadn't been eating as much as I should .

" You don't look alright . " she said in a big sisterly way .

I smiled a little . Rosalie seemed like she was someone I could get along with pretty well . Alice was a little to perkey for me , but Rose seemed just right .  

" I just haven't been sleeping .... it's nothing . " I replied quitely 

" Kate, that's not a good thing . " Rose said gently .

I shrugged . 

 " I'll be fine . Just not tiered . " I lied , trying to change the subject .

Rose nodded and took the hint , sliding over a dress to me .

" I thought you would like this . Alice want to get you pink , but I didn't think it was your style . " she laughed a little .

I nodded .

" Thank you . You're right . Pink really isn't my style at all. " I said , laughing along with her .

After that , Rose helped me slide into my tight black leather dress . She was brushing my hair out and trying to decide if she should put a clip in it when there was a knock on the door . I grabbed my chapstick and was tracing my lips with it , as Rose walked over and got the door . I heard her hiss a little bit and then Jacob pushed passed her and walked in . 

" Hey , Kate . You look good . " he said , looking me over as he sat on the edge of the bed across from my vainity .

" Hello , Jacob . " I said plainly .

He cleared his throat a little .

" Can I talk to you ? Alone ? " he asked , shooting a glare towards Rosalie .

She looked like she wanted to kill him .

" Sure . Rose , can you give us a minitue ? I'll be down in a bit . " I replied with a nod .

She grumbled , but respected my wishes and walked out .

" What is it ? " I asked , turning to him with a cocked eyebrow . 

" I just wanted to make sure you knew that we have your back . " he said , looking over at me as I opened up a lipstick . 

" We ? " I asked , wanting to laugh slightly .

" Me . I .... have your back  . I wouldn't let anything hurt you , Kate . " he explained , motioning awkardly with his hands . 

" So does Damon . And that's really what this is about , isn't it ? " I asked , with a raised eyebrow . 

Jacob looked down. 

" Isn't it ? " I asked  , turning my whole torso around to face him . 

He looked up . 

" Yeah . That's exactly it . I don't like you hanging out with him . I don't trust him . The pack could protect you better then he could . I could protect you so much better then he could . " he said , looking down at his feet . 

" Jacob .... I ....... " I trailed off , not knowing what to say as I looked down.

Jacob reached over and grabbed my hand . 

" Kate , please let me protect you . Please. If something went wrong ...... " he trailed off .

" If something went wrong .... " I said , trailing off again .

 "I would never forgive myself if something happened to you . " he said .

I laughed dryly and pulled my hand away slowly .

" Jacob , thank you , but the last thing I want is you to feel guilty if something happens to me . " I replied .