Maybe If I Disappeared? (Thomas x Reader x Newt)

Chapter 27

∼ Y/n's perspective ∼

I can't believe this. Why would Thomas, of all people, not want me to go? Doesn't he believe I'm strong enough?..

After Minho asked me to leave, I made my way towards the farms with rapid steps.

Of course he wouldn't believe in me... Most of the time I don't even believe in me...

The gladers tending to the farms came into view, including Newt. My pace slowed down after seeing him, as I found myself getting unsure if my company was wished at all.

However, I didn't allow the thought to last long and instead walked up to him as normally as I could.

"Hey, need any help?" - I leaned my hand on one of the wooden pillars.

Newt sat on the ground, hands covered in dirt.

"No, I'm alright" - He said without looking up.

The feeling from before came back, since I now felt sure of him not wanting me around.

I let my hand slide off the pillar and turned around to leave, but stopped after hearing him speak again.

"Wait, I..." - He looked up at me, a little apologetic.

"I could use a hand" - A shy smile grew on his lips.

Without hesitation I walked back and sat down next to him. I couldn't help but smirk.

"Don't get too confident now" - He joked, now smiling just as much as me. I snickered, making him do it too.

He seemed back to normal, and my mood was much better do to it. Yet, I still wasn't completely alright and let a sigh escape me.

Newt gave me a glance, as he and I continued pulling weeds.

"Tell me"

I looked over at him.

"Tell you what?" - I asked, not being sure of what he meant.

"The thing that's bothering you"

I stopped working. Newt stopped as well.

"I don't think Thomas believes in me..." - I looked at the ground, feeling a little embarrassed about being sad in the first place.

"Why wouldn't he do that?"

"...I don't know... Maybe because I'm weak?" - I didn't want to look up at his expression, but did so anyway when I heard him laugh.

"Weak?! Y/n you are one of the bravest people here" - I looked at him in disbelief.

"I am?"

Hearing him say this made me feel warm. It made me think that maybe I was as brave as I wished to be.

"Absolutely. You're also one of the dumbest"

My train of thought stopped.

"Wha... Hey!" - I gave him a shove as we both laughed.

"Y/n" - Minho came walking towards us, gaining my attention. As he came closer, I felt my heartbeat fasten.

He's gonna say it... I'm not a runner anymore.

"Get ready, the doors open soon" - He continued, and walked right past us.

Wait what?..

I looked at Newt, shocked. My body tingled from relief.

"You're running today?.." - Newt didn't sound as ecstatic as I felt.

"I guess I am" - I said with a laugh, quickly getting up from the ground. I dusted my legs off and touched Newt's shoulder.

"See you when I get back"

"wait" - Newt got up from the ground as well, grabbing my wrist.

With a tug, he pulled me into his chest and wrapped his arms around me.

"Promise you won't do anything reckless" - I felt his breath on my neck.

I smiled, moving my head back to look at his face. "Alright, I won't" - I answered, as I kissed his cheek and walked away.