i'm on holiday in sri lanka and the area we're currently at is few hours out of colombo (the city) and i have no internet rip so this is most likely published when i am back in the city xx
anyways enjoy the pic attatched of the beautiful view i have from the tea estate !!
I didn't get a blink of sleep last night. There was too many things to think of. I pulled my legs up to my chest holding the cup of tea with my left hand. I had woken up really early, might as well if I didn't plan on sleeping.
I didn't know how I was going to just sit around holding his type of news. Derek needed to find me. But how is he going to find me again? It's not like I go out frequently and if I keep asking to will Liam get suspicious? Even if he does allow me to go out it's never alone and I'd rather not risk it and be tagged along to go with Harry.
Another situation that kept me up. He was so inconsiderate for my feelings. He acted like I was the one to blame because I was acting crazy. How ridiculous is that. And I feel so mortified for admitting that I liked him. He's probably gaining pleasure by knowing he played with me.
"You're up early."
I turned around to see who the person who's captured my heart.
I rolled my eyes and turned away again bringing the hot tea up to my lips to slightly blow on it a bit. I could hear Harry shuffling around in the kitchen but I made no movement to look.
"I know you're angry Liv but—"
I scoffed. "You don't know anything Harry." I say with an edge to my voice placing the tea in front of the coffee table. "I have enough on my mind so please save the dramatics for another day." I snapped looking back at his face.
His hair was messily pushed around. He was shirtless and wore a Nike tracks and he looked good. Better than good actually..
"I'm sorry Liv." He mumbled walking towards me.
I crossed my arms and looked away staring at the view a few meters away. I could see tiny people moving around near the buildings closer to us. It was still early so I was surprised to see people already up and at work.
"Liv." I felt Harry's cold fingers on my back. A shiver went down my skin at his touch. "I'm sorry." He breathed out into my ear. He knew exactly what he was doing. He was trying to get my body to react to his touch but I wasn't going to fall for it.
I pulled myself away from him.
"Liv." He repeated grasping the back of my neck gently. Goosebumps rose on my skin making me frown. "Don't me mad." He whispered pulling his face down and murmuring it into my ear.
"I don't know what you want me to do.." he stands up straight and his voice is firm making me looking at him in annoyance.
"Nothing. I want nothing from you." I mumbled also standing up. I was shorter than him obviously— maybe up to his shoulders.
I brushed by him heading into the kitchen with the teacup I was holding but his hand reached out and grasped my arm. I turned around with a sigh. I really didn't want to get into it with him because I have already enough on my mind. Plus I had a headache which was pounding my head.
"I'm sorry." His voice holds regret and he did genuinely sound sorry.
But I couldn't let go of the feeling of anger I was feeling towards him. He left me on the night of our first sexual encounter. Then he doesn't tell me where he went which annoys me beyond words. I knew that we weren't dating or anything but he took me out that night and it gave me an impression he liked me.
"Not good enough of.." I say with a saddened tone trying to pull my arm back.
"I'm not used to staying the night in someone else's bed." He says suddenly. His hand loosens around my arm. I stay silent not knowing what to even say. "I didn't mean to hurt you Liv.. that wasn't my intention." He mumbles slowly.
Now I felt bad.
"Look—"
"No." He cut me off. "You're angry at me and I want to explain. I have never slept in someone else's bed. It makes me uncomfortable." I watched as he pushed his hair back, a nervous habit of his. "I was avoiding you." He admitted after a while, "and you should know I've never taken a girl out before either.." he trailed off.
I took a sharp breath. I wasn't expecting him to reveal so much to me. But I was glad he did because I thought it was something that I had done which made him leave me the night before. It had been eating away at me..
"You've never taken a girl out?" I asked surprised. This was shocking because Harry was really attractive. Too attractive that it was actually unfair. I'm positive that girls have thrown themselves at him so why hasn't he taken a single girl out? Did they really not meet his standards? And I did?
He shook his head. "No. You can't trust anyone let alone date. Everyone's a spy."
"Oh."
Soft footsteps made me look behind me to see Liam approaching with a tired look on his face.
"Why the fuck are you two bickering this early?" He snapped at looked down at his smart watch. "It's six in the morning Harry."
He headed into the kitchen and flicked on the electric kettle. The sound echoed throughout the place as I shuffled next to Harry awkwardly. Liam always manages to put us in awkward situations without even realising it. I swear that's his talent.
"Sorry about that mate." Harry moved past me grabbing the cup from my hands. "Just talking some things with Liv that's all."
"Right."
"And we have business to discuss." Harry mumbled so that I couldn't hear. "About you know.." he whispered but I couldn't hear the rest.
Liam nodded and picked the kettle up and poured the hot water into his cup along with a tea bag. And walked towards his office with Harry railing behind him.
I tried to make eye contact with Harry but he just brushed past me and they both disappeared into the room and the door shortly closed behind them.
Good talk Harry.
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Liam was drinking green tea btw hence why no milk & sugar hehe
