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"Boss wants her." A man with a strange accent yelled.

"Yes and you'll get her when your boss' end of the deal upholds." I froze, I felt Harry's body stiffen too. It was an English voice.

It belonged to Liam.

My mind went back to that conversation Liam was having with that man while Harry and I were crouched behind a wall escaping from the gunshots. I finally understood what it had meant. The boss Liam was referring to was Ambasso and I knew he wanted me now from now he tried to force himself on me. But what I didn't know was what the deal Liam had made with Ambasso.

How can it even hold up now? I'm pretty sure Ambasso was dead. And even if he wasn't he didn't get to.. rape me.

And last night.. the way Liam held me against him as I cried and cried into his shoulder. I was so overwhelmed with what he was telling me. How we were both the same and that he controlled me. I couldn't deal with it. I couldn't deal with him. It makes me sick just thinking about it.

My mind then went back to the night that Harry kissed me. I didn't get to think much about it because so much happened after. Why wasn't I disgusted when he kissed me? He was older than me as well yet I allowed him to kiss me. I even kissed him back. Reluctantly but I still kissed him.

I wanted to yell and scream but instead I sat on my bed deep in thought. I wondered if my mother was looking for me. I feared for her health because she stressed herself so easily.. is she okay? I wanted to let her know that I'm okay just to give her some relief but I knew that was never going to happen. Liam or Harry would never allow that.

I was stuck here.

My door flew making me jolt up. Harry entered. His eyes landed on me and I quickly sat up and pulled the short top I was wearing down. I wanted to cover myself from his eyes. I was still shaken up by the recent male experiences I have had.

"Just wanted to check up on you." He mumbled and scratched the back of his neck. "I.. wanted to ask.. I.." he sighed and collected his thoughts together as I stared at him with no emotion. "That night I saw Ambasso's hand.. under your dress and I have been meaning to ask did.. he.. touch you?"

His question threw me off guard. I had not expected him to barge in my room and wonder if Ambasso touched me. Why the hell did he even care? He probably knew what was happening to me in that room.

"As if you care." I snarled.

He frowned and crossed his arms. "Actually I do. Why the fuck would I ask otherwise."

"You allowed that to happen to me! Why the fuck are you in here asking if Ambasso touched me when that was yours and Liam's plan."

He crossed the room in seconds and grabbed me. I let out a shriek as I nearly lost my balance on the bed and landed on Harry. His arms snakes around my waist. "I didn't allow that to happen." His breath fanned my face. His eyes were dark and his lips were set in a frown. "I swear I didn't know Liam had that planned."

I placed my hands against his chest and pulled away. "Why are you trying to play the good guy?" I asked. It was a genuine question. I didn't understand why Harry would save me. He was Liam's right hand man. I'm sure he's done much worse things than allowing a girl to get raped. "You're not a good guy Harry. Why are you doing this?"

His eyes analysed my face. "I'm not trying to play anything." I opened my mouth to comment against his statement. "Why the fuck aren't you thanking me? I saved your sorry ass from getting raped by some old fuck."

I laughed. Actually laughed.

His frown deepened at my response. "Thank you? Why the fuck would I thank you?" I snapped. "You abuse me. Emotionally and physically! You literally threw me against the floor that time I tried to escape you and Liam! You- you kidnapped me and I'm supposed to thank you? What the fuck is wrong with you?"

"What's going on?" My eyes glanced at the doorway to see Liam standing. He was wearing a suit like usual and his eyes stared at us in curiosity. "Harry what're you doing mate?"

Harry snickered and literally shoved me away from his hold. I shrieked as I landed roughly onto the bed. My hair fanned above my face as I laid there collecting my breath at the harsh shove.

"Nothing. Your stupid bitch is ungrateful." He grunted and walked out.

I propped up on my elbows and stared.

Liam slowly approached me and placed his hand on my thigh and squeezed it. "Olivia —"

"Kill me."

The words fell from my mouth before I could even stop myself. They were so quiet and gentle I thought Liam didn't hear it but I was wrong when I felt his touch freeze on my thigh. The words hung in the air.

"Kill me please.." I repeated. This time I was fully aware of what I was saying.

"What?" Liam asked frightfully beside me.

"I'm asking you to kill me!" I suddenly screamed and pushed his hold from my thigh. "This isn't a fucking life! I don't want to live in this anymore! I don't want to be your family! I will never be your family!" I screamed much louder. I didn't realise I was struggling to breathe till I was gasping air into my lungs.

"Olivia.." Liam mumbled as he watched me have a panic attack.

The feeling was all too common. My lungs burned and my eyes started to water. I kept gasping like a fish out of the water. But it felt like air wasn't entering my lungs. "Olivia what're you doing!" Liam yelled as he watched helplessly at me clutching at my chest. I fell to the ground on my knees still gasping.

"Fuck move!" I heard Harry yell before he appeared in my vision. "Fuck ok." He snapped his fingers in front of my face so I was watching him clearly. "Watch what I'm doing ok." I nodded frantically. He slowly inhaled a deep breath before exhaling loudly. "Do it with me now," he inhaled again and I copied his action. He held his breath in for a second before exhaling and I followed.

This continued for a several minutes until I regained myself. I stood up and wiped the tears from my eyes. Liam was staring at me with fear etched in his eyes.

"I'm okay.." I mumbled.

"Olivia I—" Liam started to approach me but he was blocked by Harry.

"Mate I think she needs to rest." Harry frowned at Liam who stared at me for a few seconds before nodding. He quickly left my room and left Harry standing there. "Get some rest Liv." Harry nodded before also disappearing out of my room.

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