I close my eyes
And it's still thereMocking me
Locking meIn a grip of
Sadness and griefSinister smile
Bearing teethWondering when
It's going to leaveThe squatter stays
My life replaysIn the fog of
My mind's eyeDeep, deep sleep
Preparing to dieIt's shadow
Still lingeringFeel confused
Peace refusedPolluting my
Every strideRestricting me
With utter prideIt mixes in
With all of meI can't tell
It's like hellIt's no longer an
Unwanted guestBut a lifelong thing
Which gives no restNo I can't
Just save myselfIt's too strong
Journey's too longSo why don't
I just end it hereAt least that feeling
Is sincere
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paper aeroplanes | poetry + prose
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