Behind-the-scenes

Chapter 26 | let him grovel

"No, I don't want her. I don't like whiny bitches. Pera lang naman pala habol niyan eh. Wag na."

I feel like floating but stuck like stone at the same time. What happened to the warm and fuzzy guy who saved me twice this week? I never felt so weak and helpless in my life. I am a bucket of mixed emotions... I feel mad because that is one feeling that I know Jax Rizo elicits in me. But there is something else. Something that burns my chest, making me hard to breathe. From the past experience, I would have classified this as hurt - but I refuse to let Jax Rizo hurt me. He does not deserve it. So, fuck it.

I moved. I walked pass Direk Boy who asked if I am okay, I didn't answer and just walked out the door. I saw Rizo, pressing the elevator button non-stop.

I charged towards him; he must have heard me approaching because he turned around to face me. He walked towards me. Closer. His eyes were different from the cold as stone asshole he was a while ago. Now, he actually looked sorry for what he did. But sorry asswipe, too late...

He opened his arms in surrender and said, "Nati, I'm so..."

SLAP! I slapped him so hard that his head twisted to the left. I pointed a finger at him, "Don't you dare call me names again! Hindi ako katulad ng mga babae mo who will take all kinds of crap from you. Sure, you saved me but that doesn't give you the fucking right to talk down on me. Hindi mo ko kilala, Rizo. If you want to live, stay far away!"

I didn't let him talk or explain or finish his apology. I am done. I refuse to subject myself to hurt especially not for Jax Rizo. Asshole extraordinaire. I walked away. It was the best decision of my life.

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"You slapped him?" Yas is back in my apartment. I've been throwing tantrums for the past hour and she's been patiently listening to me.

"Ang lakas talaga ng tama ng lalaking yun!" I threw myself on my bed next to Yasmin. "Babastusin ako tapos magso-sorry din?"

"Let him grovel..."

"Ha? Grovel? Don't worry. He won't be pestering me. I'm sure he is somewhere spilling his guts to girls who actually care..." I said, I took the lotion bottle and apply some on my skin before I go to bed.

Yas stifled a yawn, "What if he's looking for you pala to apologize?"

"Well, he knows where I live."

We lay on the bed, Yas and I are facing each other.

"Are you really going to do a movie?" Yas asked.

"Supposedly..." I sighed. "Pero takte tong si Jax eh. Kung yun pala ang kapalit ng project na to. Wag na. Para narin akong bugaw."

Natawa lang si Yas, "Hahaha, sana bugawin din ako ni Jax..."

"Yuck naman, Yas!"

"Joke lang, sa'yo na yun friend. May Logan na ko."

"Hayop Yas, ano ba? Seryoso ka ba talaga na gusto mo si Logan?"

Yas let out a short laugh, "Ano ka ba? I'm not that naive no? Alam ko naman na chickboy yang Logan na yun. Pareho tayong matalino sa pagpili ng lalaki. Difference lang natin, kaya ko mag-risk ng puso ko."

I looked at her questioningly, "Difference? Kung magsalita ka as if hindi ko kayang magmahal."

"Kaya naman, ayaw lang subukan."

I shook my head at Yas, "Tsk. Tama na. Matulog na tayo. Maaga pa ko, may pasok ako bukas. Deadline na ang project namin sa school."

Yas yawned again but before sleeping she said, "Oo, group project na ikaw lang ang gumawa."