Songs from the heart

my broken paradise

It's been three years
Since the first time
I've felt like this, it hasn't stopped
For three long years, it hasn't stopped

My life is fine, but I can't breathe
My problems solved but I can't think
I feel my lungs begin to shrink

And people say just be yourself
Or wear a smile and just pretend
The choice is yours, and either way
"we understand."

How can I just open my mouth
How can I let the words fall out
How can I say I feel okay
only when

My strength is gone
The light begins to fade
I'm feeling cold
My skin a bloodless shade
The moments flash before my eyes, my broken paradise
I feel like I belong
Like I belong

Don't wanna let
Their lives become
A before and after of what I've done
Wish I could throw away the gun

Can I delete me from their mind?
I won't leave anything behind
It will be better once I'm gone
They'll be alright

I rarely cry
I used to think
I'm so thick skinned and I am strong
Now I can see, I'm such a fool, I've been so wrong

I'm standing still
Cause noone tried
to bring me down but once I fall
I can't get up, can't even crawl
I won't be whole until

My strength is gone
The light begins to fade
I'm feeling cold
My skin a bloodless shade
The moments flash before my eyes, my broken paradise
I feel like I belong

My mind's at ease
The silence wraps me up
Weak like a breeze
My breathing giving up
The moments flash before my eyes, my broken paradise
I feel like I belong
Like I belong

I've always laughed
at my own thoughts
Need for attention's getting old
Pull it together and just cherish what you hold

But for the first time in three years
All the motives disappear
In the mirror
taking form
my worst fears.