Songs from the heart

deliverance

if you think about it
this life is the only film you can't turn off
and if you sweat about it
this body is the only suit you can't take off

would it mean
that I've had quite tragic a time
if I
wish to give it all up for a second
fly
away to nonexistence
cry
tears of deliverance
why?
such a cursed cause
to need a pause
I damn the laws
I need a pause

if I whine about it
this life was the only one I had
and screwed it all up
I swear
it's not the exit I want, just the backyard
I'm not suicidal
I'm just tired

does it mean
that I need some chemical fix
if I
wish for silence for only a second
fly
away to nonexistence
cry
tears of deliverance
why?
such a cursed cause
to need a pause
I run because
I need a pause

do I need therapy
cause I need a break?
I need a break
is it sick
that falling asleep
doesn't do it for me
anymore ?
is existing so easy
that I need some fixing
for rottenly wishing
for time to go missing
can I just float
like in between the lifeboats
until days like tidal waves
wash me away to the shore?

does it mean
that I am too much for this scene
if I
wish for nothing to cover the screen and
fly
away to nonexistence
cry
tears of deliverance
why?
such a cursed cause
to need a pause
I'm not as I was
I need a pause