Songs from the heart

i hate this

Spent the night awake again
Silence wouldn't settle in my head
All the guilt began to crawl inside
I was trapped inside my own mind

Overthinking killed my dreams
And the nightmares left me shivering
Think I'm losing who I am
I'm becoming something I don't understand

Please don't treat me like I could just control this
I would never choose to live my life like this
Tired of always being wrong, sick of drowning on my own
Please don't treat me like I could just control this
I hate this, I hate this

When I think of what I have become
Who I was before and how far I've come
I have wasted too much time
And I regret the most the things I've never done

I'm just wishing to be free
Fight the ghosts that always haunted me
But the truth is slowly sinking in
The only monster in my life is me

Please don't treat me like I could just control this
I would never choose to live my life like this
Tired of always being wrong , sick of drowning on my own
Please don't treat me like I could just control this
I hate this, I hate this

Please don't tell me that it's all in my head
Please don't say it's up to me to make it right
I've been holding on too tight
Need to let it go tonight
Every problem that I fixed, was never there

I hate this, I hate this
I hate me 'cause I have this
I hate me 'cause I am this.