Chess Pieces #2: Hunter Sanford

Chapter 16

I never thought that Hunter is the type of person who will say what he feels so easily. Parang normal lang sa kanya ang magsabi ng ganoon. But I can see in his eyes that he's sincere. That he really meant the words that he had said to me. And I never thought that someone like him could show so many emotions in his eyes

His gray eyes seems so cold and yet when he said those words, it gave me a warm feeling. A feeling that I do not understand.

Tuwing nagigising ako sa umaga at bumababa ay palagi kong naaabutan na walang tao. I don't know what time Nanay Flor and Jane buy the ingredients for our food but Hunter is always with them. It made me somehow feel frustrated and I don't have an idea why. Maybe because I'm expecting Hunter that he'll be with me the whole time in this island since I don't know anyone here. At sya ang tagarito kaya hindi nya dapat ako iniiwan nang mag isa.

Or am I frustrated because Jane is with him? I tried to tell myself every morning that they are not having a date. Namamalengke lang sila for our food and besides, Nanay Flor is with them. Siguro naman ay hindi hahayaan ni Nanay Flor na dumikit-dikit si Jane kay Hunter since ang alam nya ay mag asawa kami.

I went down and had my breakfast alone in this table. Wow. I never thought that eating alone will feel this lonely. Sa bahay kasi ay palagi akong may kasabay. Either my family or our maids. Kapag wala ang family ko ay pinapasabay ko ang mga maid na kumain sa akin. I don't want them just staring at me while eating.

Parang mabibingi na yata ako dahil sa katahimikan kaya binilisan ko ang pagkain. It's been like this for several mornings already. Hindi naman ako makapagreklamo dahil ako talaga ang huling nagigising sa lahat. Hindi pa yata sumisikat ang araw and they're all already awake! My body clock is not like that.

I sighed and just sat outside. Pinanood ko ang alon sa dagat at ang paglalaro ng mga bata. When I got bored, I opened my social media accounts just to get an update with my family's life.

Kuya Helios and Zuri were posting pictures from their honeymoon. Summer is not with them and my cute little niece understands that her parents needed time alone with each other. Their lovestory is not like the normal ones. Nauna silang magkaanak at ngayon pa lang sila magkakaroon ng oras para sa isa't isa. My parents were taking care of Summer naman.

I didn't see any post from Apollo and Daphne. I wonder where they went after the wedding reception. Hindi pa nga tapos ang program ay bigla na lang silang nawala.

After I checked my social media accounts, I got bored so I played games na lang with my phone. I thought my three months would be productive but it's been only a week and I am starting to get bored already!

And I don't want to be alone! Everytime I do, I remembered Joshua. Kaya nga ako sumama dito dahil natutulungan ako ni Hunter na makalimutan si Joshua kahit papaano dahil lang sa presensya nya but Hunter seems busy! Sana ay hindi lang ako sumama kung ganito lang din naman.

I really don't want to feel the pain. It really hurts. I look like I am fine on the outside, like I do not have any problems at all but on the inside, I am slowly crumbling. It's hard to pull myself up. I feel so broken and I'm having the hard time to collect all my pieces and make myself whole again.

To be honest, I am just trying to divert my attention so I wouldn't remember Joshua's betrayal and cheating. Pero kahit na sinusubukan kong huwag isipin ay nararamdaman ko pa rin ang sakit. Now I know the feeling of having an amnesia. Hindi naaalala ng isip pero nararamdaman naman ng puso. And in my case, I chose to pretend that I don't remember the pain and yet, my heart could still feel it.

"Ma'am Artemis, nandyan ka pala."

Nagulat ako nang dumating si Nanay Flor. I looked behind her, hoping to see Hunter but he's nowhere to be seen.