blissful | jatum

18.

[tate]
"here now spin"
he spun me as his hands grabbed ahold of my waist and we danced in the middle.
"i didn't know you could dance" i smirked.
"trust me there's a lot of things i hide"
i smiled as i caught a glimpse of jack looking at me. he looked like he was concerned but when i caught him staring he looked away. i looked back to jonah who again was already looking at me. my body my eyes. my lips.
"can i ask you something?" i whispered closely.
"yeah what is it?"
i sighed.
"jack isn't bothering you is he?"
he broke eyes contact and shook his head.
"i mean it looks like he's going to kill me but not really"
i laughed quietly as the soft song ended. jack walked up to us.
"can i talk to you?" he said looking straight at me.
i looked back at jonah. then at jack.
"i'll be right back"
i took jack's hand and walked outside.
"the fuck was that all about?"
i furrowed my brows.
"what?"
"i'm not stupid tate"
"jonah?!" i questioned.
"who else of course!" he replied upsetly.
"jack what's going on?"
"you're dancing with jonah marais that's what going on tatum!"
"you don't know him" i shot back.
"yes i do!"
i closed my mouth not even baring to look at him.
"why can't you just let me be happy?" i asked.
he looked back up to me. the same way jack looks at me everyday. his soft brown eyes and his gentle expression.
"...what?" he said fixing his hair.
i took a deep breath.
"i think i-i like him" i breathed out.
he backed away a step. ouch.
"you like him?"
i nodded as i looked at the entrance of the gym.
"look jack i know you want to protect me. but you don't always have to worry about me. i'm old enough to take care of myself" i sighed and held myself in a hug due to the cold weather.
"he's not a good person-"
"you don't know that ok?!"
at this point i was yelling at him.
"you might've known him when he was a bad person but he's not like that anymore ok? everyone can be a dick. it happens. but i love him for who he is and he makes me the happiest person ever"
"...you love him?"
oh shit.
i looked to the floor wanting to cry.
"...yeah i do"
jack looked out to the sky as he couldn't even look me in the eye.
"h-how long?"
"what?"
"...how long have you liked him?"
"ever since we studied together" i mumbled.
i expected him to be mad at me again because jack got overprotective to the point where he made me feel bad. instead he walked over and hugged me. at first i didn't even realize it but i hugged back. it wasn't the usual hugs jack would usually give and then run off. it felt real. it felt like he actually cared. he squeezed me as he kissed the top of my forehead pulling away slowly.
"...i'm sorry" he replied gently.
"don't be all you want is what's best for me"
he smiled.
"what?"
"so? you and jonah"
"oh shut up you remind me of gabbie"
he laughed as he looked back at the door.
"i know you guys had sex"
jack gulped as he looked dead at me.
"...don't tell anyone" he blushed.
i giggled.
"...are you coming back inside?"
i looked back to the moon.
"in a minute"
he started to walk to the door but stopped. he walked back and hugged me.
"just last hug before i go"
"thank you jack"
"for what?"
"for letting me be happy"
"i'm your brother that's all i want ever for you"
i looked at him with soft eyes as he walked back into the gym. i saw jonah as he looked back at me. he smiled making him way to me.
"hey" he said sitting on the steps next to me.
"hey" i bluntly replied shivering.
he didn't say anything. instead he unbuttoned his jacket and put it around my shoulders.
"thanks" i blushed.
"so? am i dead or?"
"no you're not"
he laughed as he looked at the lake that was in the view outside of our school. i glanced at his wrist.
"my scrunchie" i blushed.
"what?" he replied picking at it.
"keep it" i smiled.
he blushed as i exhaled as my head fell on his shoulder. he moved closer so it was buried in my chest. so badly i just wanted to tell him. tell him how i felt.
"...jonah?" i said looking up to him.
right as he looked up his lips were only inches apart from me.
"...what?" he gently said.
my hand touched his left cheek.
"...i think i might be in love with you"