stay high • mgc

0.4

This was going to be exactly like every single performance ends up to be, which was unforgettable and amazing.

The first song we performed was Good Girls, which was always fun to perform. After that, we did 18, Don't Stop, She Looks So Perfect, Greenlight, American Idiot (originally from Green day) Heartbreak Girl, and the last one of the night was Everything That I Didn't Say.

It was a song I wished that I had written myself, but I guess I didn't exactly go to my senses to catch up with the idea before. This song just reminded me of Chrissy. The song started playing, and we sang..

This is everything i didn't say...

Wait, don't tell me

Heaven is a place on Earth

I wish I could rewind all the times

I didn't show you what you're really worth

(What you're really worth)

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The way you held me

I wish that I'd put you first

I was wrong I admit

Numb from your kiss

While you were slipping through my fingertips

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Taking every breath away

With all of the mistakes I've made

From all the letters I've saved

This is everything I didn't say

I wish I could've made you stay

And i'm the only one to blame

I know that's its a little too late

This is everything I didn't say

This is everything I didn't say

Wake me up now

And tell me this is all a bad dream

All the songs that i wrote

All the wrongs that i hoped would erase from your memory

Holding onto a broken and empty heart

Flowers I should've bought

All the hours I lost'

Wish i could bring it back to the start

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Taking every breath away

With all of the mistakes I've made

From all the letters I've saved

This is everything I didn't say

I wish I could've made you stay

And i'm the only one to blame

I know that's its a little too late

This is everything I didn't say

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When I was singing my solo, I couldn't believe who i had seen. I thought maybe it was some other girl, maybe it was the lights blocking my view. It wasn't those things at all. It was her. It was Chrissy standing right there in the audience.

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I hope you know

For you I'd sacrifice

To make this right

Some day I'm sure

We'll pass each other by

Until that time

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Taking every breath away

With all of the mistakes I've made

From all the letters I've saved

This is everything I didn't say

I wish I could've made you stay

And i'm the only one to blame

I know that's its a little too late

This is everything I didn't say

This is everything I didn't say

Once the song ended, our eyes locked. I felt the connection, but she suddenly ran off covering her eyes with her delicate hands. I felt like breaking down into tears seeing her trying to run away from the pain. What was she even doing here? I didn't want to think about it. I felt myself get weak from seeing her basically break down.

I felt like such an idiot for making her suffering this way. That was when I felt my eyes watering. i didn't want to cry since I knew it would make me look like a little bitch. it was mostly Luke that cried on stage.

Chrissy's image flew threw my mind like if a slash of wind came to slap me right in the face. Her smile, her dimples making her smile a lot more adorable and sweet, her luscious hair, and her innocent personality all went to waste.

And it was all my fault..

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heeeeeeeeeeeeey c:

so i updated most of this chapter yesterday and just finished it up today in case you were wondering (which you probably weren't bc you probably don't care but anyway) writing this made me cry so much, i'm not even joking.

normally amnesia makes me cry each time i hear it. something super weird about me is that every time i play the song on my tablet, whether its pandora, or just on youtube by choice, I cry. Yet when it comes on the radio, i simply sing along. i don't shed a tear.

WEIRD, RIGHT?? anyways... so yeah i'm on a roll on updating these days and i've never been so proud of myself c:

btw i cringed writing the whole joke about luke crying on stage. seriously, that is no laughing matter, more like a crying matter. i was sobbing when i first saw him crying. i just put it in there for joke purposes

whale...byeeeeeee

-nat