Estupído But True.[c]

Bab 11

Kami dalam perjalanan ke rumah aku.Sorry lah aku tak nak pakai baju dia kat Kolej. Kantoi , nanti banyak pulak fans muncul.

Dah focus gila memandu ni tetiba perkara yang mencurigakan aku akhirnya menghantui fikiran aku sekali lagi.Aku mula tidak duduk diam. Lucas yang duduk di passenger seat hadapan mula merenung aku."Cakaplah. "

See? I can't freakin' hide anything from this young man ."do you know uh- , god damn it what was it again? I forgot her name." Dahiku berkedut , bibir kugigit sambil cuba mengingati nama girl tu .

" I can't . Shit I can't remember it . Anyways there's a twins ,they came to me and asked about you . Rose? Reese? Ren? Fuck .I don't know. "Jelas aku separuh stres.

" a twins huh ?  A girl ?"tekanya dengan betul. Aku mengangguk .

" reene ?" Tekanya lagi dengan tepat sekali .
"Yeeaaaah yeah ,I was about to say that one. "jawab aku dengan selamba sambil memetik jari .

" right what about them ? " soal Lucas .

"Like I said, she's been asking me about you and you're kinda like making her feelin' like I don't know fuckin' anxious or whatever the fuck it is cause she hasn't seen you like in three days?  " terang aku dengan suara menahan geram .

Lucas tertunduk dan tertawa kecil . And that time , aku tahu dia sedar aku cemburu . " really ?" Soalnya dengan halus , dengan kata lain mengusik .

" Yea ! And bro korang selalu jumpa ke ? Please tell me it's a no , cause she's giving me a bad energy ." kata aku tak puas hati .

"Nah ,we don't really see each other often.I mean , I don't really know them. Im not that close ya'know ."jawabnya. See ! Itu je aku nak dengar .

" Thank god . I don't like her . Im not hating but I don't like her , but if I do who cares right ? Can do whatever I want . She's always being sarcastic to me . It's irritating ." Aku mengadu kat dia .

Nak je record then dengarkan minah tu . Hampir aku nak makan kata-kata minah tu, Lucas layan semua orang sama rata.

"hahaha cute kan kalau seseorang tu cemburu ? Tak yah eh . Kalau anak bulan tu , tak lari ke mana , kan special ? "balasnya . Sejuk je hati aku dengar .

Aku dan Lucas memasuki rumah. Kelibatan Mama sedang makan sarapan pagi. "Assalamualaikum aunty "Ucap Lucas sambil tersenyum. "Waalaikumusalam Lucas. "Mama tersenyum gembira.

"Sorry sebab susahkan Mariéne."Kata Lucas dengan lembut. Aku hanya tersenyum melihatnya dari belakang. He is so sweet. "taklah, Lucas dah sembuh dah? "tanya mama.

"dah, dah. "

Aku gembira gila dengar diaorang berbual. Tapi kalau dah tidur sesama masih kawan rapat ke tu? Hahahhaha tak tau lah.

Aku segera masuk ke dalam bilik untuk bersedia. Aku tinggalkan mereka yang sudah rancak bercerita. Lucas tak payah panggil mama 'aunty' dah. Boleh dah panggil 'Mama'. Hehe.

Kitaorang pun mula pembelajaran kat kolej.

Tak lama kemudian aku dan Lucas  makan bersama. "toilet. "Kata Lucas lalu berdiri dan berjalan ke arah tandas lelaki.

Beberapa minit kemudian, kerusi Lucas ditarik dan diduduki seseorang. Aku segera memandangnya. Selepas aku tahu orang yang mengambil tempat Lucas itu, aku hanya mengabainya dan makan makanan aku.

" hey. "sapa Bill. Aku sedar yang dia merenung aku. " fuck off. "halau aku dengan selamba tidak memandangnya sekilas pun .

"Sometimes I just wish you would be nicer to me . "balas Bill. Tak ada ujian lagi berat daripada nak tahan diri daripada nak mengeluarkan kata-kata kejam dengan orang yang aku benci . Please mulut tunjukkan sinergi .

Aku menghembus nafas berat dan menggeleng kepala tanda-tanda menahan kata-kata keji. Get yourself together Mariene . ' I don't have to do this.' 'I don't have to do this. ' ' this is just a trap. ' I really need to listen to this voices in my head .

"I mean, I've explained everything right? "soalnya . Kau ingat aku dengar kata-kata kau yang dongeng tu aku terus redah ke? Belum eh , aku belum masuk fasa ebit lagi . Insyaallah , aku menanti .

"yea.whatever." jawab aku dengan perlahan . Aku nak tunjukkan yang aku tak kesahkan dia .

" I have something more to add . I've broken up with her .Things went crazy . It didn't work out . Maybe cause she's not you . I can't really think of anything , maybe cause all I do is thinking about you ."

Aku mengeluh , bebola mataku berputar 180° darjah . Nyampah siak dengar kata-kata dia ni yang dah macam tak ada content dah nak keluarkan . " bro , we don't have to do this . YOU need to fucking stop, man ." Balas aku sambil menikam anak matanya yang langsung tidak menunjukkan kesedihan dan keikhlasan.

That's it, im going for it. Mulut aku dah tak tahan nak keluarkan kata-kata memuaskan hati.

"She left . Why? Cause dia rasakan lelaki tu lebih perlukan dia .  And I lied to you , Like saya tercurang dengan awak sebab nafsu , Just nafsu, Mariéne. Cause you left me for two months , you realized that ? Saya tak sanggup nak tahan dah. I can't take it . Now can you see the difference? "

"I mean, no what I really wanted to say is me and her, we're not actually dating ,do you know between hooking up and dating ?They're not actually the same thing.So it happened -but you still left me for two months though. "kata Bill tidak mengalah.

This guy...

"What the fuck ?"suara aku mendalam. Tak pernah bayangkan dia akan sebutkan semua kata-kata tu tadi . Dah kalahkan budak darjah berkata-kata .

"not putting blame on you, but you did do that. You left me for two months. "Tambahnya lagi .

For the fucking third times , if he ever mention about me leaving him for fucking two months again , he be dead for real . Kalau je aku boleh bunuh dia sekarang sambil tersenyum. That'll be fun.

"so what the hell happened last year? Did you hooked up with someone else too when Im not around? "wtf.

" n-no I didn't . "
" but please , forgive me for lying to you . I know I shouldn't do that ." Ucapnya . Muka tak ada emosi pulak tu . Serious lah dia ni ?

"My bad, can't cancel the contract with the hitman no more."jawab aku dengan selamba.

"Im sorry for the pain I gave you that day. "katanya. Such a filthy face. Tadi muka tak ada emosi , sekarang try hard pulak nak buat muka sedih . Dah lah nak , tak natural aku tengok .

"what ? explain that to my middle finger or to the jail. "jawab aku. " I didn't come here under the pretend of apologizing but its something i've been meaning to do for a while now. Please. I still have feelings for you. "rayunya.give up already bill or die anywhere I don't care.

"Huh. I didn't know that you're such a cliché.Just cut the shit out Bill okay? Just shut up. "
"Im not the guy wh-"sebelum dia sempat menghabiskan kata-katanya, aku menghadiahkan makanan ke muka dia.

"i've warned you. "aku memeluk tubuh. Kemarahan aku dah tak boleh tahan dah. Bukan unlimited . Dah melebihi limit.

Bill segera membersihkan mukanya. Perbuatan aku itu berjaya menarik perhatian setiap pelajar yang ada berdekatan. Tiba-tiba muncul hero sebenar aku dari belakang.

"Nice "bisiknya sambil tertawa kecil. Aku sempat menghadiahkannya renungan maut , senyuman Lucas terhenti dengan segera. "Thought you're going to the toilet. "Sindir Lucas .

"didn't do it on purpose. "tipu aku. Lucas sudah mengangkat keningnya sambil merenung aku.

" fuck . I Can't control it no more." Jawab aku .

"that's totally hot, babe. "dia mengambai aku sambil membelai kepala aku.

Kemarahan mula redah . Aku tersandar di tubuhnya. I guess I really love him.

Tbc.